>>81720745 (OP)You're trying desperately to run away From your own faults and mistakes you made against me, you're attempting to rewrite so you do not feel the pain of losing me.
I'm not gay, or any of that bullshit. You remember who I am and it scares you. You still love me and that's why you're up at fucking 5:00 a.m. writing all night on multiple boards trying desperately to fix whatever you can in a way you can delude yourself in a feeling better.
You will never feel better. You fucked up. Face your mistakes and realize that you remember me for who I truly with you.
There's a reason you're obsessing over me and writing all these fake stories and bullshit.
Shut the fuck up, take responsibility of your mistakes and faults. You don't have BPD. Or any of that bullshit. It is an excuse to have shitty behavior and a way you can justify avoiding the truth of how you fucked up with me.
I'm disappointed in you, and let down by you, but that doesn't stop me from wanting you to do better.
I can see how much pain you are in from losing me and all you do to try to fill that void and haul a spot inside of you where You crave me.
You have either kept your promises with me for us, saved your firsts for us, your virginity for us. If you've betrayed me, betrayed us then I can never trust you. That is where I draw the line.
I have hope because I do love you. Remember me and remember yourself.
Either come home just as you were that next day with me or just fuck off. I deserve all of you and am worth everything. I am the priority.
I don't need any of the other garbage and you certainly need that all to just wash off of you into the fucking drain.