I regualrly haveintrusive negative thoughts at night, I am not talking about feeling sad per se, more like thinking how easily my loved ones could die violently in a car crash and things like that.

>>81721227 (OP)
Almost everyone has these. You're not special. Most people keep their minds busy doing something productive or a hobby to keep their brains quiet.
>An idle mind is the devil's playground

>>81721227 (OP)
Same here, when I'm depressed, I can't stop thinking of how all of my loved ones will cease from exist. It feels like all the stars in the universe died, and you are the only one who was left behind.