upwards of 80% of the time whenever I wake up I have a sinking feeling that I'm dying or my life is over/ending
I wake up in a depressive state in like the third or fourth stage of grief most days, feeling like "yeah my life may as well be over, I've fucked it up so hilariously up to this point so I may as well die anyway" or "WHY IS MY LIFE SO SHIT I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY FOR ONE DAY BEFORE I DIE"
maybe I should eat more leafy greens...
Yes, because my life has been fucked up to that point. Though I do share your sentiments on needing to eat more greens, or eat in general.
that's just the dark side of the force playing with your bussy
no. your biological clock is telling you the truth. do you honestly think actualized people feel this literally ever? you intuitively know the truth about what you are. then you create excuses to justify your own mistakes. all you are doing in delaying the inevitable. get a shotgun and ventilate your head immediately, save yourself from this prison. it only gets worse from here, but in death it all gets better. now go fourth, do god's bidding onto earth.
>>81728197I think this anon has more problems than me, I'm going to go lift weights and touch grass now
>>81728183 (OP)I feel doomed when I'm sleepy it's bs
>>81728183 (OP)I get an unbearable feeling of impending death and doom at 7 pm most days
>>81728183 (OP)I always feel depressed when I wake up, because of the general state of my life and because it means I have to go to the bathroom and wash my hands, which is torture because of my OCD.
>>81728183 (OP)that's me most of the day
I'm supposedly ambitious and going upwards in my remaining (5%) free time
I'm neurologically fucked up though. decade of fixing didn't fix shit, I only had been crawling within that 5%
>>81728183 (OP)>do anons wake up feeling doomed?All the time.
I know that as an autist, I am trapped as a NEET in this living purgatory.
I also know that I am too bald manlet to ever escape inceldom, even with an old woman.
This life is so over that it never began for me. I welcome death when it comes.
>>81728183 (OP)Yeah it has been like that for about a decade, all my efforts to change my life have failed as I have come to the conclusion that hard work is in reality all about luck.
I feel like my life is in a post rot state, every day I wake up I dread what tasks lies before me for that day
nothing will ever get better, it will only get worse as time steals more from me before I am properly prepared
the best times are long gone and only seem good in comparison to the present which sickens me
every goal I achieve is too little too late, each milestone long since past having any meaning
If I ever have what I want at this point it will already be too late and it will be a bitter pyrrhic victory
the only thing that keeps me going is the anger at the thought of never having it at all after everything turned out this way
IAGMI even if its out of spite, even if it feels hollow
I wake up every day to a panic attack and my heart beating out of my chest
>>81728183 (OP)I wake up feeling exhausted and I just stay in bed for a few extra hours
I have to take a shower to feel awake but I don't want to in the morning so I just feel like shit until I can drag myself to the shower
Depression is a hell of a drug
>>81730195this the only real nigga ITT
I'm diagnosed with major depression ane major anxiety with panic attacks and I always felt this when going to bed and waking up. It's an uphill struggle which is getting worse by the day since I quit midday 2 months abd haven't been able to find work since. I used to frequent r9k back in 2015 but decided to get my shit together, saw a shrink and was put on xanax and it has been the best thing to ever happen since it helped me turn my life around. But, I'm at the point where I don't even know where the hits are coming from anymore. I have to fight myself tooth and nail to get out of bed and do basic stuff like shower, cook, clean, finish a project
>>81728183 (OP)>I wake up in a depressive state in like the third or fourth stage of grief most dayssame
i also wake up with a headache everyday cause i cant sleep properly. it sucks. i dunno what to advise to you other than keep going and hope it will stop someday
>>81731496>. i dunno what to advise to youas if anyone here is experts on fucking Anything desu
>>81728183 (OP)sleep is good because it's like hitting fast-forward on life without the actual downside of having to be aware of life
>>81733131always has been, anon-kun
