hi again r9k
hope all is well
tonights threads are really negative it seems
more so than usual
how is everyone? hopefully treating yourself good...

>>81729343 (OP)
Shut the fuck up and kys whore

>>81729343 (OP)
I have been and always will be alone and genuinely want to kill myself

>>81729349
just one of those days again, isn't it, anon?
>>81729353
never say never, or i guess "always" in this case
i have hope, you should too
its a little irrational but positive irrationals are better than negatives

>>81729343 (OP)
It's going
The usual tfw no gf here, you know? I had someone I thought might've liked me, but I ended up just being a toy for them to get attention out of before I was discarded.
Yeah, I don't know what's up. It's always negative here, but it does feel a bit different.
How are you doing anon?

>>81729380
neutral leaning negative
past few days have been quite rough
not really feeling like im being seen for who i am lately (not trans, just talking about being seen as a human)

>>81729396
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=P3qJQvpJrWg&si=QQBE7G4QY9C0NkGK
>feel like I'm not being seen for who I am lately
How do you mean? Why don't you feel like you're being seen? Do you mean on this site? In person? Are people just overlooking you?
What's up anon

>>81729424
im not even close to being active enough on here to care about that
im talking about in person
with friends and the like
feels like kind of just being brushed off
and treated cold like i did something wrong
a bit too anxious to ask if i did or not
like the mood here is similar to what im feeling personally
its strange
maybe everyone is a robot lol

>>81729343 (OP)
Even being away from this site for awhile and coming back. Its pretty much the same. I took a break really. All threads are supposed to be negative even you say something positive or good you will be knocked down a peg.

I think I want to give you a kiss, anon.

>>81729444
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=rf67kOjW8qc&si=QSU9qmXCpuVvGC-3
>trips
nice get
>feels like I'm being brushed off
I think I know what you mean. Where it feels like you're always somebody's second option. Never the first person they want to reach out to?
If that's what you mean then yeah. I know how that feels.
>like the mood here is similar
>maybe everyone is a robot
Nah, I think it's the opposite. Most of the robots are gone. It's the people who do that who are left here. That's why the vibe is like that.
If you need someone I'll be here as an anon for you to lean on a little bit.

>>81729343 (OP)
hi hello op how are you

>>81729365
Nta but you have hope because you're a female and you do the picking out of dozens of hundreds of dudes. Of course you have hope, disingenuous fuck.

>>81729484
i get you
just usually i see at least a few more neutral threads
but it all just feels bad for now, at least.
maybe this thread will shed a little light for an hour or so
>>81729489
pretty gay if you're a guy
thanks though
>>81729491
didn't even realise, im that out of it lol
not.. exactly the feeling of being the second choice
but more of just a cold shoulder when interacting
overall atmosphere, essentially
>>81729499
again, im neutral-ish, just looking for small talk and checking on everyone here
>>81729502
im a dude through and through lol

>>81729424
>>81729491
i forgot to mention, but thank you for the music
never heard of them
sounds great
added it to my list

>>81729524
>pretty gay if you're a guy
>thanks though
xoxo

>>81729343 (OP)
All is well tonight.I was just going to make a thread like this. Anyway, I bought a 24 pack of beer and had six so far. I feel comfy and plan to go for at least 8 or 9. Aside from this, I'm waiting for Baldur's Gate 3 to install while listening to tunes and practicing touch typing. Is it good bros? I want to watch gameplay but I don't want to spoil it for myself.

>>81729544
<3
>>81729551
friends say it's good, but i never played it
not really my line of interest

>>81729537
>thanks for the tunes
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=3SfHhNisW1c&si=DAA5PQvyx3RPWE24
Of course! Music like this always makes me feel better when I'm feeling alone. Figured it might help.
>>81729524
>that out of it
maaaaaan. Missed your own trips is out of it.
>overall atmosphere
I see.
Yeah. Cold shoulders hurt. I wish I could give advice, but sympathy is all I've got.
>>81729551
>is it good
I know a couple people that say it's a masterpiece.
I didn't enjoy it personally. I got about three hours in and couldn't keep playing. I find the main cast insufferable. Notably Asterion and Shadowheart.

>>81729343 (OP)
Everyday is bad for a sea monkey like me

>>81729584
sympathy goes a long way when it's done right
it means a lot to me, anon
thanks
>>81729593
terrifying life it seems
hold on there

>>81729524
I use to post threads before or after work. Majority of the time some anons would be quite rude over what I have posted. I would be just a way for me to say something since my coworkers don't wanna hear what I have to say or find me annoying when I wanna speak my mind. In reality I only have one IRL friend along with his brothers that I get hangout with occasionally on a weekly basis.

>>81729649
i feel you man
its a place to just let shit out
comes and goes in waves in a sense
feels constant since everyone is different
irl i don't have much going
i wont get into detail

>>81729659
you don't have to get into detail. I really want to post a thread on how I feel or it's a constant thing between me and my coworkers. Like to give you an example or examples really...
I haven't feel the same ever since I attended a concert last year in August.
The second is Coworkers don't seem to understand that I do the same fucking thing every weekend no change at all. Even one coworker always asking me if I "Saw any cuties, Anon?". I really lost interest in girls it isnt even funny anymore...

>>81729734
do what you feel is right to do
or if not "right" than what will help you feel better

>>81729615
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=xJl3YqBhLn8&si=xT4zphrd3p97wiAW
>thanks
Yup. I'm here for you anon. We're all in it together.
You know, the board feels a lot emptier. It just hit me.
I used to be a really regular poster a few years ago. There used to be more PEOPLE here, you know? Sure the demoralization and hate threads were still there, but there were good people here too. I'd laugh with the people in the vocaroo threads. Post tunes in the music threads. >tfwnogf with the guys in the picrew threads. And it feels like there were more people here to just... hang out. You know?
I don't think it's rose-tinted glasses. Feels a lot more lonely here now.

>>81729343 (OP)
>tonights threads are really negative it seems
We are all suffering, there's nothing but misery in the waking world.

>>81729817
sounds corny as hell but i feel like the struggle is just half of it
i do believe we're made to experience joy
its just so hard in todays times
there's more to it than this
im sure of it
>>81729798
yeah...
long ago, i do remember those threads ever so faintly
they're at the very least associated with positive memories
so they made a mark in my mind
it would be nice to have a revival, in a sense
where things just got. better

>>81729841
>i do believe we're made to experience joy
I have experienced joy before, which is why I am suffering. Showing someone something good exists then cruelly ripping it away from them, over, and over; when they are so close to living a life full of it is life ruining. Everything good in my life has been snuffed out multiple times and I have had to restart from scratch, even when I made every correct decision. Everyone I ever have been close to has betrayed me in some major way, or has been excessively cruel towards me. No one I have ever met ever genuinely has cared for me, and they have only ever cared as a means to an end and then abandoned me when they're bored or get what they want. I am far, far too old to do anything again. I agree joy exists, and I won't be mean to others. But that doesn't mean everyone gets to have joy.

>>81729343 (OP)
yeah kinda sucks but what're you gonna do. I'm having a pretty good night tonight, just got back from having a steak. tried making some music but it didnt turn out well

>>81729551
I'm having a couple beers tonight myself. I enjoyed BG3 a lot for the story aspect, it really felt like the game was miles wide and infinitely deep. I got the sense that there was an overwhelming amount of meaningful choices to make. Not sure how true that is but it felt like it, yk?

Anyways I never really got that far into the game because I just wasn't a fan of the combat at all. But I'd definitely recommend it if you think it'd be your thing, yk?

>>81729343 (OP)
Shit so I've just spend my night watching a movie while eating cereal, was good but now I realize that I can't sleep, this insomnia however probably doesn't have nothing to do with what I just spend the time doing, which is sad and a little bit concerning if we're talking about the possible implications that this could have over my mental health

>>81730506
Synchronicities really bother me. Lets both do better for each other and breaks the years long silence so more of this ugliness is involved in our lives

>>81731274
(I meant so no more of this ugliness is involved in our lives)

>>81729343 (OP)
This place is all about negativity

>>81730506
Synchronicities really bother me. Lets both do better for each other and breaks the years long silence so no more of this ugliness is involved in our lives

On the way out. Have my first date in five years next week. Done cocooning. I am taking control. I will have a wife by 2030, mark my fucking words.

>>81729343 (OP)
hi op
>tonights threads are really negative it seems
arent they always this way? i feel like most of the board has been shit and nothing else. but thanks for making a nice thread in the midst of ebil threads.
>hopefully treating yourself good...
sometimes i wonder if it will ever be possible for me to stop hating myself and start being nice to myself