Because I was having a mental break. I'm not an alcoholic or anything, I just didn't feel like dealing with my 657787th mental break and I could shoo it away with alcohol. Anyways, I'm about to fall asleep so it doesn't matter.

>>81730737 (OP)
It's an alright coping strategy yeah, better than meth

>>81730737 (OP)
I hated alcohol most of my life but eventually the loneliness became too much to cope with (I'm in my early 30s and basically hit my limit, not strong enough to go through the rest of my life like this) and started drinking.

Vodka lemonade's my drink of choice, tastes good (I get the Cottage Springs stuff) and makes me feel better without being so strong that I get blackout drunk.

TFW today is ten years since my mother's funeral and I didn't order any booze for this month. FML.