>>81732016 (OP)Got sexually assaulted, physically assaulted multiple times. The orderlies would put on "fights" at night and if we didn't let the other patients hit us they would threaten to keep us there longer. The orderlies were all black and instigated the black patients there to harass everyone. There were cameras but they were all "broken". All of our shoes would have chewed up pencils spit into them and cups of water were thrown on us often. "Us" being 2 scrawny white guys and 1 Asian and 1 Hispanic kid with 70% of the other patients being black. I got sexually molested by the Asian as I tried running away and the nurses injected me with haldol and as I lay paralyzed in my bed they came up and did things to me. In the showers the orderlies took pictures of us naked to humiliate us and show the pictures to everyone else. The phones were broken and no one could contact their families outside of the black patients using the orderlies phones. I broke a bit a week in and just sort of curled into a ball and withdrew.
I was 14 at the time and committed because of some basic teenage emo shit. That entire experience completely mentally scarred me on such a fundamental level that I really doubt I will ever recover from. I was already on my way of being another neglected abused NEET but after that it basically sealed the deal. Lots more shit happened during that month but thinking about it too long makes my chest hurt. I feel mildly envious of people who went to the psych ward for " lel I'm so heckin le MENTALLY ill XD" reasons and it was just like fucking boy scouts or something and not some utterly traumatizing Russian gulag tier shit that I had to experience. Any trust in authority or belief in society that might of survived until that point completely eroded away, we really are just violent apes driven wildly by random instincts and the social contract is a rather thin membrane that keeps human brutality at bay. Don't go to a psych ward, kids.