I can find sex but I can never experience true intimacy because there is not a single person in the world that would be willing to be my friend.
No one to infodump art onelico II lore on.
No one to show my sicilian folk clothing findings.
No one to discuss implication of matriarchy in a fantasy setting without it getting overly coomerish and inflammatory.
I stopped appearing on any social media and also became completely anonymous on imageboards solely because I realized it's so fucking pointless. None of the people who payed attention to me in the moment would actually want to be friends, and all I wanted was to find my kin. But in reality even my own mom and dad think I'm a freakazoid, and people even refuse my money/treats as if stuff I touch is immediately tainted.
The only social interaction I'm left with is having soulless sex in which I disassociate and try to forget my own existence. Its not even that I ever engaged in casual sex, but all relationships I've been in felt shallow and just as lonely as being alone. It was all about them only, no place for me to express anything.

I imagine next step from here is an hero. Pls tell me to kms

wanna show me your Sicilian tradition garb finds, anon?

Shut up. Get back on websites and make friends. You'll find people who like the same shit as you and even if people want to argue with you about the shit you like fuck it em. Post it anyway. You will gain a following eventually. It's not the end of the road anon. You sound a lot more interesting than half of the moids on this board crying about being lonely. You sound cool and don't give up trying to express yourself

>>81743308
I swear I tried. 10 years of trying and its just nothing. All spaces I may have occasionally found died soon after. Its literally impossible.

>>81743272 (OP)
Such is life especially for a guy these days. I'm so sick and tired of whores

>>81743454
You haven't tried tiktok or Instagram?

>>81743272 (OP)
I also have this issue with struggling to find people who share my interests. Im a femanon but I don't have a lot of friends because of it. I understand where you're coming from but please don't give up yet

>>81743484
>I'm a femanon
>Instantly gets a dozen guys trying to add her
Your interests are some weird shit or you're just picky guaranteed

>>81743498
I'm precisely talking about friendship, not relationships. You can be in a relationship and still feel lonely and isolated because you don't have friends. I can't find girls who like the same shit as me

>>81743515
Well then you don't love your partner and aren't capable of caring about one person

>>81743597
That makes zero sense

>>81743463
Idk I dont hate any of those people, I just wish there was a place for me to be me.
I rather hate that I was born autistic subhuman, because seemingly nothing can truly compensate for it in the eyes of society

>>81743469
Yeah, of course

>>81743484
>please don't give up yet
Well then how do you cope?

>>81743597
You can care about someone without them caring back at you. Loneliness is solved not when you care but when you cared about. So you don't make sense.

>>81743640
I mostly cope by burying myself in work and hobbies, and enjoying the small stuff. Everyday is hard though for me, for multiple reasons. I have pretty severe MDD and PTSD but I just try to take life day by day

>>81743272 (OP)
I feel the same except I'm also not desirable enough for anyone to want to have sex with me. Fucking blows. To be honest, I think this feeling or the lack there of, is probably just an autism thing. I think that even if you found that perfect person, you'd still be missing that feeling of connection. We just weren't put together right.

i wish i could relate op i havent been with anyone in so long my virginitys basically grown back. i could probably get someone to lay me if i put in enough effort but so many of them are manipulative and want a pet or idk the vibes are creepy with 99% of them

>>81743640
>You can care about someone without them caring back
Average woman moment

>>81743640
I don't hate any of them either. I just realize that they'll never love a man who isn't a neurotypical normie

>>81743272 (OP)
if you are just looking for a friend to shoot the shit with, i dont mind getting to know you, im a guy, hmu on discord HopeRidesAlone#0037

>>81743272 (OP)
I wanna see your Sicilian traditional folk clothing

I just want a sex partner who wants to be intimate with me.

>>81743454 >>81743272 (OP)
>art onelico II
>sicilian folk clothing
>matriarchy fantasy
These are somewhat specific.
How does one acquire such specific interests?
I do have favorite games/manga, but they're finished so there's nothing to really say about them. It gets stale. Rather, I want to make something of my own that is similar to them.

Also have you tried writing or making/drawing your own clothing?

>>81743484
what are your interests?

>>81744323
I love metal, specifically doom metal. All horror in all forms of media (except slashers) and splatterpunk, I'm a huge nerd about war history. I know they're not as niche as OPs but it's still hard finding lady friends who like those.

>>81744391
>I love metal, specifically doom metal.
what do you think of the game called "Brutal Legend" ?
>All horror
what do you think of the game called "Darkwood" ?
>except slashers) and splatterpunk
what is wrong with these?
>>81744391
>history
it's not THAT interesting. I don't find myself actively searching for it. But it does come up sometimes.

What about gambling? And by that I don't mean casinoes, but generally high-stakes games. Do you like the akagi or kaiji anime/manga?

>>81744525
I've never played either of those games, are they on PC?

I just think slasher is boring and overdone. I'm really not a fan of the Terrifier franchise. Probs my favorite slasher is the OG My Bloody Valentine and then the first Scream movie (classic pic I know). I love splatter, it's just not most people's cup of tea because it's very violence and gross stuff heavy. It's just fun idk

>>81744525
I don't play high stakes games or gamble or anything. I've never read either of those by Akagi seems cool. It's a boring pick but JoJo is my favorite series. Specifically very excited for part 7

>>81744549
>are they on PC?
They are, but the brutal legend port is not that good.

>I just think slasher is boring and overdone
I don't like watching movies, but I think the "friday the 13th" multiplayer game look fun. I used to play dead by daylight before which was fun. These can be considered slashers, right?

>JoJo
I tried, but it is too boring at the beginning. Also doesn't seem like anything particularly new for me.
For comedy, I like titles such as prison school, grand blue, but also mob psycho 100.