How depressed have you been lately, anons?

>>81750971 (OP)
a little bit kinda losing intrests in the stuff I like

luckily its only temporary

I randomly get dopamine hits to carry me for a bit

xd

>>81750971 (OP)
very, i'm almost unable to get out of bed

>>81750971 (OP)
I stop eating when I'm depressed and I'm fat so I guess not very.

I'm probably gonna end it any day now. I'm trying to make it to the end of the year, but it gets harder every day. I'm just completely fucking done, an irreparable wreck. Don't remember what happiness feels like.

>>81750971 (OP)
very
original check here motherfucker I don't have shit else to say piece of shit algorithm

>>81750971 (OP)
no money for more opioid rcs, weed is so dogshit, can't drink anymore

>>81750971 (OP)
Catastrophically. Everyone important to me is gone.

How can I eat more? I'm not eating too much lately: two days ago I barely ate, yesterday I ate just a few slices of bread and today I had only two glasses of coconut water and a piece of cake...

Side note: I don't do this on purpose but not eating is an effective way to feel and care about something, I would say. At the same time it's strange and I'm concerned about my health.

>>81750999
I'm sorry, anon. If you don't mind I would suggest using this or any other thread for venting. Venting can makes things easier sometimes

I think i'm going to do it soon. Yesterday the nail was finally put in the coffin, I want to make these last moments count.

>>81751277
I can't vent the way I feel like I need to, which is to simply scream my throat bloody. Even then, I don't know if I would find any catharsis. I've thought all my thoughts a long time ago, drawn my conclusions, made my peace with the fact there's nothing in this world for me. But then I simply kept on living, because killing myself would make my relatives sad. That's starting to hold me back less and less these days, I'll simply have to write something to explain to them that I feel like I'm in Hell at all times and I can't endure for them any longer. I'll try to get on some pills or something soon, maybe it'll just melt my mind or plunge me down a different pit, but the way things are I will be dead very soon. Thanks for reading this pointless post, if you did.

>>81750978
>Randomly get dopamine hits
Drugs aren't good anon

>>81751384
its not drugs its just me knowing how to hit my levers

music, food, family, etc etc

>>81751373
I don't know how to properly reply to you, but yes, I read it all.

>>81751395
I'm glad you're happy, considering roping

Been sleep deprived and overworked so I found myself in the ideation spirals again today.

>>81750971 (OP)
I have been struggling to exist. Most mornings, no matter how much I sleep, I wake up extremely tired. I have basically no appetite, my average caloric intake is maybe 1000 on a good day, and in my food diary I just write a higher number to feel better about myself. All I really wanna do is drink, but people around me will get mad at me for doing that, so I just rot. I am always sleepy, always worn out and tired, I have no energy to speak of at all.

>>81750971 (OP)
i think about suicide almost every other day and only if i had a girlfriend and a family to look forward to

I think I'm actually a bit sad after my dad's death.
Also I don't think I've ever been suicidal...just feeling painfully empty inside and feeling like it just won't get any better.
I'll go to some psych clinic...shit can't come soon enough

>>81750971 (OP)
maybe 8/10
i probably dont have it as bad as some but
its causing me physical pain recently

I no longer leave bed anymore, I barely eat anymore, and everyone I love is gone. No one likes me to the point that the last time I tried to kill myself people didn't even blink and just treated me worse for inconveniencing and annoying them. I have been pushed to the limits of what I can bare and the people who did it got mad at me for being in this state instead of taking the boot off my neck soi that I could breathe. I want to live in a kinder world, not this one.

>>81750971 (OP)
Rather very not good.

>>81750971 (OP)
>How depressed have you been lately, anons?
Same old shit. Starting to come close to getting some unpaid cunny, but it still disappears.

More than usual, I sleep 10 hours a day but I won't wake up unless I have an alarm clock on the other side of the room (so I have to get out of bed). Tonight I slept from 10 PM to 8 AM. I sleep until my head hurts but I still don't want to get out of bed, so I lie in it and lurk on my laptop (like right now). I'm 25 but I only dream of highschool and middleschool, all bad dreams about being an outcast and wasting opportunities. I have maybe a few good hours in a day, most of the time I feel sleepy and unable to concentrate. I spend those few good hours playing video games.

>>81750971 (OP)
its starting to get to a point where im actively planning on a way to die and starting to do everything i want to do before i want to kick the bucket (even though i cant find the motivation to do anything) so id say kind of bad

>>81751373
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZsvO_5Qe-34

>>81750971 (OP)
I've actually been quite happy lately. Work stresses me out and so does the idea that I may have to go get a masters degree eventually, but life is generally easy. I'm finally dating a girl so now I have a reason to go outside and see my town.

>>81750971 (OP)
Not really depressed but not happy either. The medication I'm on is the only things stopping me from having a complete breakdown. I'm a NEET who spends my days scrolling YouTube and 4chan. I have no hobbies, passions, goals, or interests. Eating is one of the few things I enjoy so I'm overweight.

I send my best wishes to all anons in this thread
Peace and love

>>81750971 (OP)
>depressed
>latrly
i dont even know if i have a default setting, depression's all i've known my whole life

never really enjoyed anything, never really connect with anyone
though one thing's for sure, i've managed to build my mask up so well that it looks like i'm a decent guy with a job and a few hobbies of my own

i dont even like doing any of those things, i just do them

>>81753981
You're a good person, hope you do well too.

>>81750971 (OP)
i've become disillusioned with just about everything over the past few years. i can't see life as being anything but a cruel joke. i'll never have friends or find love because i'm an unlikable idiot. my family is falling apart largely due to my inaction. i'm a coward that can't do anything. i hate myself for being a sad and lazy sack of shit but it's all i've ever been. i wish i had the average normie's lack of self-awareness and obliviousness to the absurdity of everything around him.