mfw turning 38 this year

>>81752671 (OP)
Just how I like 'em in the morning. Unfertilized

>>81752671 (OP)
You're almost old enough to be a Phase Connect vtuber

I turned 38 in February

I still live with my elderly boomer parents while working part time at a warehouse due to mental health issues

All of my friends moved away and got married years ago

The last time I got pussy without paying for it was during the Obama administration


Things were not supposed to end up this way I cant tolerate another 30 years of this I will most likely rope as soon as my parents die

>>81752671 (OP)
girls when they turn 14

>>81752709
Are you handsome, anon?

I too am almost 40. Sometimes I wonder if there is a reason to be alive past 30 if you haven't had children. Living like a teenager forever is getting old.

I just turned 30 and I'm miserable. I want to be someone's wife and someone's mother so bad it makes me sick. I wish the world wasn't so cruel and things weren't so hard

>>81753116
What's stopping you exactly? I'm 32 and just want a wife and someone to love (provided they love me back obviously)

>>81753130
Mostly my physical health, which is also effecting my mental health quite a bit. Plus I feel like it's kinda hard to find men who want to get married and have children. I've been in long term relationship before and just ended up feeling played, I guess. My ex fiance just gave me a ring to shut me up, he never intended to marry me. He just didn't want me to leave and he thought that was enough. After I left him he basically started dating a girl who he married right away. My friends are saying it was probably a situation where he knew that was one of the main reasons I left him so he married her to avoid the same situation and I'm honestly not bitter, I left him for a reason but it still hurts to simply feel like I was someone's starter girlfriend when I devoted so many years of my life to him.

>>81753158
How many guys have you been with, out of curiosity?
And sorry about your fiance. I had a similar situation with mine. When I told her that maybe we should wait a while, she used crocodile tears to get me back into it (sent me multiple pictures of her crying, in hindsight it feels a bit manipulative)

>>81753184
I've only been with 2. And yes, that does sound very manipulative. I'm sorry that happened. My ex would also essentially guilt trip me into doing what he wanted regularly.

>>81753109
I turn 37 in dozen weeks, you certianly need something more than vidya and teenager lifestyle.
It may be some kind of relationship that lets you grow and care for eachother, some responsibility like work can be helpful, but it can also be bad for you - it really differ from job to job.
I dont have expiriences or care for kids, but having them just to "not to rope yourself" or change something with your life is a terrible reason for having them/overall idea. I had a friend which kinda did it and when the boy was 7yo he killed himself day before his son 1st schoolday.
I always kindda lived inside my head, even if Im probably less fucked up than most of this board and managed to be more functional, I still am very dissatisfited with this world.
I have fiancee that I love, I have nice job that isnt stressful, I dont live in shithole, noone bombards me. Still I feel like all my dreams are out of this world - I dream about impossible stuff and all the other things beside some best escapisms like sex, or love are just nice. I was very ambitious, but after many clashes with reality I just gave out - I tried nunerous times to achive my goals but I failed, from my own fault or because of other factors/people. All i got was a burnout, being deppressed and unmotivated. It simply doesnt matter to me now, because I feel like its not worth the hassle, 99,9999% people arent worth my time.
My imagination is my curse, because it lets me see into what I could expirience if I was born into other worlds. Its more vivid and comforting at times then real world, so I guess I use it as a copeing mechanism.
I would probably end myself if I was a single neet, or just cash in all my savings and try to move out to tropical 3rd world country and try to live as happy as its possible, not for broads but for my own sake.

>>81753195
Same here, two. What's wrong with your physical health btw?
I'd offer to talk more but getting my hopes up in this place feels wrong (dated people off here, I'm sure you can guess how that turned out) plus I doubt I'm your type anyway. You're one of the rare fembots thats somehow not a child though so I'd still be willing to talk, just don't get your hopes up. Otherwise feel free to just reply here

>>81753284
We can talk, I don't know if I feel comfortable sharing my discord here on the board so I'm not sure what to do

>>81753334
Dug up a throwaway, lets see if this works
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