>get sick and get really anxious about it
>now just anxious 24/7
is this just how most people end up feeling for their whole lives? i dont even have anything to be anxious about, im a neet and even when relaxing i just feel anxious about nothing

>get covid
>usually wouldn't give it two thoughts but for some reason, I got scared I could contaminate my parents (my father had a shitty health in general)
>after my "recovery" (shit was really just one night of intense migraine), I clean my hands like crazy when I go back home
>buy hand sanitizer...rubbing alcohol...disinfecting wipes
>anxious everyday
>my relationship with others degrade because I waste so much water, money and I isolate myself in fear
>become an alcoholic in a vain attempt to feel better
>father dies
>one less source of worry I guess?
>still afraid of contaminating mama
>and myself, too
>wonder at night if it will get better
>it's been 3 years now
It's hell, isn't it, OP?

>>81752808
my chest just feels so tight whenever i get anxious, i have no irrational fears that are being triggered, nothing to worry about, im a neet and my parents love me, there is nothing about my life to be anxious about whatsoever
if anything im just anxious about the feeling of being anxious, there's no way i can logic myself out of feeling like this

>>81752808
also im sorry about your ocd anon, it must be really terrible feeling like that all the time

>>81752785 (OP)
>im a neet and even when relaxing i just feel anxious about nothing
>is this just how most people end up feeling for their whole lives?
Pretty much.

>>81753185
ah, that's terrible, i guess i used to just be at peace all the time

>>81752785 (OP)
Yes, welcome to adulthood. Now choose your drug of choice to cope.

>>81753383
knowing this has made me feel a bit better about it, i hope i can ease back into feeling calm

>>81752785 (OP)
>is this just how most people end up feeling for their whole lives?
That's how it is for me but I was born neurotic and am filled with a little bit of psychological trauma. Some days I'll have absolutely nothing to worry about and still be gripped by an overwhelming sense of doom. My chest hurts and it feels like there's something stuck in my throat. I've gotten better at just dealing with it.

>>81753985
whenever my chest hurt id always think i was having a heart attack or something along those lines, im pretty bad at dealing with random changes to how my body feels that i dont have any control over
its nice that you can just deal with it somewhat i guess, i think this level of stress everyday would probably do bad things to my body

>>81752785 (OP)
Everyone is diseased and anxiety is very common. Their diseases and anxiety are almost entirely a consequence of deliberate biochemical sabotage, mostly from the medical industry and food industry. Nearly everything you've been told about health, medication, and food is wrong or a half-truth