Life getting older just loses its appeal and value totally, let me explain
you have experienced all things already, novelty worn off
not only that you have seen behaviors and events repeat so many times it all just becomes a cyclical repetition of the same shit over and over again, you have seen the patterns, you realize it's all just cyclical bullshit that never ends
everything just becomes a copy of a copy of a copy, replicating into uselessness
you as an older person talking with younger people (or even older retards) you are stuck explaining these things indefinitely since they have not experienced them because they don't understand shit, it's just on fucking repeat
just organism replicating and doing the same old shit
I am not nihilistic at all no no
anyway, I should some real life errands now

>>81755059 (OP)
>you have experienced all things already, novelty worn off
Funny you mention that. I actually just yesterday asked myself if there's anything in the last 4-5yrs that I experienced that was novel or unique. I couldn't think of anything other than geographical locations I hadn't seen before.

Schopenhauer had a great quote on this in what of his essays i think it would resonate with you. It completely mirrors what you've written here.

Paraphrasing until I find it but essentially it goes like:

"If two old men who knew one another in their youth by chance encounter each other again in advanced age, the overwhelming impression that underlies their conversation is the disappointment that life was. It promised so much but delivered little. This sentiment will be so strong it doesn't need to even be said, both parties will realize it and it is mutually understood. Life for those who lived long enough are akin to someone who sat in at a magicians show and stayed on for several showings in a row. He begins seeing the mystery and tricks behind each of the acts and becomes disillusioned. The awe turns to tedium and boredom"

Very roughly paraphrased here but it has been many years since I last read him. I'll post the actual excerpt when I find it.

>>81755059 (OP)
I hope one day I can muster up the courage to try something new

>>81755601
Here you go anon. Idk if you'll even read this thread or closed the tab after posting it. But for you or any lurkers.

If you read OP and it struck a chord of resonance, I highly recommend reading the essays and works of Schopenhauer. Was very liberating when I was younger and discovered my outlook on life was not new nor was I alone in having such a philosophy.

https://www.gutenberg.org/files/10732/10732-h/10732-h.htm

https://www.gutenberg.org/files/10732/10732-h/10732-h.htm

>>81755601
>Schopenhauer
he's literally me
but memes aside, yeah, humanity and philosophers figured out the exact same things thousands of years ago I believe
my belief now is that this has even accelerated even more due to the advent of media and the internet, by the time we are adults we could have seen so much stuff that otherwise would take a person an entire life time of travel and experiences to see, we can see and experience way more way faster, which also speeds up the point of which how life dulls, this is my persistent theory anyway, I've posted it before and same thing
I just repeat post whenever this shit hits me

>>81755617
literally just do something

>>81755732
seems like nostalgia is a hell of a drug
but yeah I have accepted it, however, I still want to do stuff and do things, people who have given up on life totally or have been demoralized that they are just depressed, I can relate too, but at this point it's just life improvement small but steadily
it just is what it is unironically
I wish I was more of a reader but I am a lazy fuck and I always got some retard shit to do

>>81756095
>literally just do something
Too hard, I've been a hermit all my life

How about joining a community like the Westboro baptist church or something and yell at whores and fags

>>81755059 (OP)
thats why you gotta keep life exciting, anon - novelty or not, its about the journey not the destination
we're all heading the same direction, right? towards Death
but on the way there, I wanna do some sightseeing first

i almost killed myself at 21
i experienced the first death in the family at 23
i had my first stable job at 25
i went clubbing for the first time at 27

it dont really matter, none of it matters - but it matters to me, and thats all that matters

>>81755059 (OP)
You're supposed to have kids so you can experience the joy of life and novelty through their eyes. I'd argue it's better the second time around. Seeing a kid lose their shit because they get to see a mall Santa is life affirming white pill material.

>>81756903
>bringing more sufferers into being
Cruelty

>>81757011
Forgot screenshot. You can't rationally justify creating new human life into this plane of existence

>>81757017
>>81756903
More based Schopenhauer to offset your optimism and return balance to the thread