>>81764423 (OP)I want to learn how to camp. I want to be able to stay in the woods for a weekend, or later on a full week, staying by myself and not having to rely on civilization. I want to feel secure in my competence that I can just go away for a while like that, set traps or fish and such. I doubt I'll learn it though, my dysfunctional lifestyle keeps me in perpetual poverty to the point I compare the prices of oats and flour, so I'll probably have killed myself before I'm able to afford a tent and the basic equipment.
Poker isn't really gambling I'm afraid. Playing well is about making the move with on average the most long-term return. Big bluffs are cool, but there's a reason poker pros (as in, those who play for a living) are called "grinders".