>>81767607 (OP)You're conflating development and imitation/adaptation. Identity can be shaped and changed through conscious actions, but if you are motivated by superficial appearances and playing a role rather than the underlying reasons that the role/identity exists, then no you don't actually get to the "make it" part, you just look like a fake piece of shit forever to anyone who knows you well.
Learning something, whether it's a conscious effort or naturally part of your environment, is not faking anything. You are simply growing and adding to your experiences. Faking till you makingmaxx is a separate concept that works when the experience is not as valuable as confidence in yourself, or the perception of having experience like in consulting or theater or art. In general, you should bee yourself and develop skills and knowledge organically and be honest with where you are and where you want to be.
