I always wonder when life is supposed to get good. Then i remember i can't change. Anybody relate?

>>81770890 (OP)
The problem is you kids were raised to think your life is a movie. Literally nothing is ever going to happen to you to make your life better. It's just going to get more miserable and harder with age.

>>81770890 (OP)
>when life is supposed to get good
if you're over the age of 18, you already missed those days

I want to change, but it requires me to have a GF. Impersonal/romantic love is my motivation.

>>81770918
This
>dad was in the army literally getting blown up in the middle east
>still gotta work two jobs to get by today
>mom gets a degree to be a college professor
>stuck wiping shit at a daycare
That's just a taste of my family tree. The struggles my parents had as kids and young adults never really went away. I've been a depression prone loser since 13. Probably gonna be living with my parents till they croak while I work at a dead end minimum wage job on some clerks shit.
>>81770944
Middle school ruined my childhood, and before that I had bad health problems. Only real blissful years were end of 2014-the start of 2018. So yeah it's over, I'm turning 19 this fall. I'm here for the ride though.
>>81770970
My history with dating has always been bad, although my main issue since turning 18 has been attracting women. But desu, I only really cared when I was 16 and I wanted to get laid. Now I'm just voluntarily celibate because I've been waiting so long i might as well continue to do so until I meet "the one" who is just the one who changes that.

>>81771048
>Now I'm just voluntarily celibate because I've been waiting so long i might as well continue to do so until I meet "the one" who is just the one who changes that.
But how will you know if you would ever meet "the one"? I don't believe in that desu, I just want to date a woman who loves me as much as I love her. I don't want to get married either.

>>81771100
>But how will you know if you would ever meet "the one"?
Last year I was arguably even more whiny. But instead of being a whiny 4channer. I was a whiny discord user. Anyway after complaining enough I got a girl to dm me. She was from turkey. We e dated for a month. Literally a year ago this month. It was perfect. I could tell her anything, she could tell me anything, and we could just spend endless hours together doing whatever together and just feel at peace. That was love. Like all good things it came to an end, but we had true love for each other, so we cordially said goodbye and sent each other goodbye love letters. That's my standard for romantic love. It just feels natural and effortless. So, if I ever meet a girl that matches my energy and we end up dating than that would be the "one." I'm not guaranteed or entitled to it, but that's what I consider worth it if it does appear. I would never have sex before getting married because I don't wanna do that to a woman or my child if she does get pregnant and we don't have a plan. But I could be lying cause if a girl I didn't know too well, but she was attractive, well I'm young dumb n full of cum so I'd probably betray that idea. Still, bottom line is, as far as a relationship, I have to love her, vice versa and if it happens then it does. I'm use to it not though, so loneliness I'm used to.