Anyone else fall for the Intelligence Lie?
I remember growing up, for some reason I was naturally drawn to academia.
In Elementary school when other boys were playing outside or getting into sports,
I begged my teacher to let me stay in the classroom so I could read or work on assignments.
I was very interested in Math and Space, thought I sort of had a good plan for life early.

Now I'm 22, just graduated with a degree in Electrical Engineering, and I feel like I've wasted my life.
I've just spent my entire life being a loser, nobody ever cared about intelligence, nobody ever cared about me.
For some reason I had this fantasy in my head that I'd be dressed in a sweater vest reading under a tree with a girl
I don't know why I thought that could happen, its pure fantasy. This weird faggot fantasy of academia.

All I can do is look back and think, "Why didn't I just play sports like everyone else?"
Why didn't I sneak out, why didn't I do drugs or drink or party or do anything that would've got anyone interested in me?
Why did I fall for this lie that intelligence matters in the slightest? The most successful people in my life are all morons.

And I'm not even mad about that, good for them, they cracked the system.
They just drift through life without a care in the world and keep winning
So far I've lived a life of loneliness, inadequacy, struggle, and I don't feel like any of my work has paid off.

I felt the same having graduated with a similar degree, but the truth is you used school as a cope and at least now you have something to use from it. Drugs, drinking, whatever else is cope too. They are probably thinking the same thing about having not just hit the books and why did they have to value some other shit more or something like that. If you want to feel some thrill, go for it, nothing is stopping you. But you will probably learn the grass isn't always greener and to just follow your true desires without being retarded. I wish I could go back in time and smack myself silly to talk to folks or something, but thinking about the past and how to change it does nothing for you but waste your future. Focus on the present, EE is sick as fuck. You're cool. Go get em tiger

>>81775035
Thanks, my current plan is to just start setting myself up so that I can pull the trigger on life when I'm 25.
I want to move, get a small place, and start living my own life. Stop caring about others and just do what I wanna do.
I'm happy that I have a degree where I can spend the next few years making decent money and preparing for the rest of my life.

Before I die, I want to participate in a real race. I know that I'm already getting too old for the professionals,
but I'd love to move south and try to participate in minor league short-track races before I'm 30.
I wanna buy a small house with a big yard so that I can have a workshop for my engineering and a garage for my cars.

Those are my goals in life, and I feel like its very doable. Sometimes I think its too late, but it really isn't.
It just sucks that I feel like I didn't make the most of life before becoming an adult.

>>81775073
>Before I die, I want to participate in a real race
I believe in you anon. Chase your dreams. You sound so wholesome, I hope you get to achieve all that stuff ;_;

>>81775003 (OP)
>I'm a conformist faggot beta
Thanks for letting us know.

> Why didn't I just play sports like everyone else?"
Why didn't I sneak out, why didn't I do drugs or drink or party or do anything that would've got anyone interested in me?
Probably because you never really enjoyed those things. It's as simple as that

>>81775073
You are not an adult yet you been out of baby daycare system for barely few years.

>>81775003 (OP)
Boohoo I hate all the people who cry about how they should be given the world because they have high iq even though life is still great for them but they want everything and more. I also begged to stay inside, but unlike you I wasn't good at maths or anything, I begged to stay inside because if I went outside people looked at me like a freak and like I'm less than them, and inside there was nothing to do. I would stare out the window alone or go to the bathroom thinking and borderline daydreaming things will get better, I will find a place in life and everything will change and guess what, life only got worse. And then people like you who have everything I could dream of cry because you don't have a girlfriend at 22 and act like being intelligent somehow set you back when it's by far the most important thing in modern society. I struggled in fucking special education. I hate hearing stories like yours. You really don't know how bad it gets. I have literally nothing to live for and you cry because your life doesn't match a fucking movie. Some people really do live in different realities. No I won't feel bad for you being intelligent. And fuck you

>>81775003 (OP)
>Why did I fall for this lie that intelligence matters in the slightest? The most successful people in my life are all morons.

And I'm not even mad about that, good for them, they cracked the system.
They just drift through life without a care in the world and keep winning
So far I've lived a life of loneliness, inadequacy, struggle, and I don't feel like any of my work has paid off.

You are a fucking self-absorbed liar and a massive cunt and I hate people like you and you're either purposefully lying to yourself or so deluded to think that iq which is one thing correlated positively with almost all outcomes doesn't matter and how MORONS keep winning in life. I fucking hate you and hope you know what it's like to actually suffer

>>81775003 (OP)
Also you're the same shit on the same shit stained coin just on a different side as the sports Chad just a different version, you also hurt people, view them as less than you and are self absorbed and think you deserve the world and completely ignorant of what it's like to really struggle in life. You're arguably even bigger bullies than sports chads it's just that you do it in different ways.

>>81775073
You're a fucking liar again, no one who wants to die is thinking to himself
>yes I will but a house so I can have a workshop and a garage for cars and things I will do when I'm 30 when I'm going to kill myself at 25... Wait what?

>Kill myself at 25
>Things I will do when I'm 30
You're a liar and you know you won't kill yourself

>>81775003 (OP)
>I don't know why I thought that could happen, its pure fantasy. This weird faggot fantasy of academia.
Did you go to any of the evens your university organized to meet other people?

>>81776093
He doesn't even fucking know what he has, my dream in life was to study in university and have those opportunities and I can't do it, like actually mentally can't do it, because of how fucking hard it is and how many things these normies take for granted, and then they come here and cry because they didn't have sex or are not having a movie life. Actually go and fuck yourself

>>81775159
>I believe in you anon. Chase your dreams. You sound so wholesome, I hope you get to achieve all that stuff ;_;
Because that's all he wants to hear. They're the same shit as sports abuse chads, they just do it in different ways but they all view themselves as better than everyone else and feel entitled to everything and beyond and hurt others in the same scale as sports chads, just in different ways like always

>>81775003 (OP)
>The most successful people in my life are all morons.
Talking down on others and thinking you're superior to those not as smart as you
>I've just spent my entire life being a loser
Being way above average
>And I'm not even mad about that, good for them, they cracked the system.
You are. You think you're better than them and deserve everything and more and dehumanize everyone else like those people you're talking about
>So far I've lived a life of loneliness, inadequacy, struggle, and I don't feel like any of my work has paid off.
No you haven't and you don't know what any of that when is you fucking privileged faggot and I hope you get to know it in the next life

>>81776200
Being smart does not equal good life. I've never had any friends and was abused by my parents constantly.
>>81776093
Nope
>>81776092
I never said I plan on killing myself at 25
>>81776044
I dont really have strong emotions so no Im not mad at anyone and never have been. If I knew that you could just be a lazy drug addict and get free money from the government then I would've done that easily
>>81776025
I never said I want to be given the world. A 1-story house isn't asking for much

>>81777425
>Nope
Thats how you fucked yourself over

>>81777457
Yeah for my entire time in college I would just lay in my bed after classes.
The only time I talked to my peers was during actual class.
They never invited me to do anything though.
Once I turned 21 I started going to bars by myself a lot so that is basically the only going out I do still.
Every saturday I go get drunk without fail.

>>81775244
If I was a conformist I would've done drugs and partied like everyone else.
Since when did normies care about academia?

I love how much people are seething about this one guy.

>>81777653
Yeah it's pretty interesting. Im happy the first person was nice at least haha.
I literally said its better to not try in life and just drift and get benefits but they're all seething at me and calling me a liar for some reason.
I never mince words and I never lie. Its just a symptom of how I was raised.

>>81777486
>Yeah for my entire time in college I would just lay in my bed after classes.
i just kinda did the same mistake and only in the last year did stuff with others like playing sports
>The only time I talked to my peers was during actual class.
>They never invited me to do anything though.
the only ones i got a bit closer were the ones i had group projects with
>Once I turned 21 I started going to bars by myself a lot so that is basically the only going out I do still.
did you meet people that way?

>>81777724
I kind of met people that way. Im back in my hometown now that I graduated and I go every saturday so everyone at the Bars know me at this point.
Its kind of cool to walk past the bouncer I guess. And I think one of the bartenders knows what I usually get by now.
I see people from High School a lot that I talk to but its not like we're friends or anything.

During the week I just work 40 hours and when I go home I race cars on my computer. The only time I consume alchohol is Saturday because I dont really enjoy drinking at home at all.

I think I just like the social aspect of being around other people.

>>81777862
sounds like adult life where you only have random acquaintances

nigga ur 22 just chill man

>>81777868
Yeah I've never been very good at making friends, at least in real life. Its been kind of cool making friends in the racing leagues though.
Its been a years since I felt involved in a tight-knit community like that.
>>81777951
I should try. I guess I still am holding on to the same dream of running away that I had in High School.
I feel like if I dont run away to a different state then I'll have to carry the baggage of my parents my entire life. I wish I didn't fantasize about a better life every day.

I just wanna feel like I made the choice in my own life for once.

>>81776025
>act like being intelligent somehow set you back when it's by far the most important thing in modern society.
Muscle is 1000x more important than Intelligence. What are you talking about anon?

>>81775003 (OP)
I was like this too. I never fell out of love with math, but the education system kept avoiding all the interesting subdisciplines like the plague so I dropped out with the intention of studying by myself using the textbooks I could get my hands on online. Fast forward a year and I realised that I was a retard and the connections and credentials are what matter to society, not education itself. So now I'm more or less locked out of the upper class through my own childish naivete, despite having started with so many advantages. Really makes you want to burn everything down.

>>81775003 (OP)
you are 22 faggot you still have plenty of time to make those experiences
what you shouldn't do is waste the remainder of our youth (which goes to 30)

>>81778025
>I realised that I was a retard and the connections and credentials are what matter to society, not education itself.
Yeah I realized this as soon as my Senior Year in College started. I was in my end of degree capstone classes and one of them was like "let's practice doing a job interview" and I had like a mental breakdown over that a bit.
I've spent the last 11 months lamenting it over and over again, the world is completely fake, adult life is completely fake. All my work never mattered. All that matters is who you know. People are all robots, all ingenuine.

I remember my professor got to me and said, "Ok anon, why do you want to work here?" And I just said, "how am I even supposed to answer this question if I dont know where Im applying to or for what position?" And he just stared at me and said that I'd have to work on that.

Everyone else had these totally made up robotic responses and they weren't talking like themselves at all. It freaked me out a lot.

I hate how fake the world is.

>>81777973
>Its been kind of cool making friends in the racing leagues though.
are there maybe irl meetups?

>>81778053
I was never prepared for anything growing up, never pushed in any direction. My parents are morons and just said "be an Engineer." But I dont think they even know that different engineering disciplines exist.
I basically chose electrical engineering because I like circuit boards and math. But I was always behind my peers.
It seems like people who are actually good at things started practicing when they were in High School or even younger.
I never practiced anything, just did what I was told, completed my work, never had any goals or aspirations.
Even now I dont really have any big goals. I just want a small place and a project car off Facebook.
I wish I knew when I was younger that you need to just pick something and stick with it or you'll fall behind

>>81775003 (OP)
Nigga you're meant to use high intelligence to get girls

>>81778101
Women are attracted to muscle, not intelligence. I've learned this multiple times in life.
Like a few months ago when one of my gym rat friends hooked up with a girl I'd been talking to for months.
He only talked to her for a week and she initiated everything. I've never had that happen in my life.

>>81778083
I don't think so desu. I want to start going to conventions again though at some point soon. I used to go as a teenager but got busy with school I guess.

>>81778085
first you cry about having studied instead partying
now you cry about not having studied enough
my recommendation now is to kys

>>81775003 (OP)
I am the one who led the same life up until highschool where I got into drugs, partying, girls, etc. and then dropped out of college because I ran out of money from all of those things. Now working construction and life is fine, but if I could go back I would have stayed a nerd without drugs, with less women, and with less partying desu. My life would have been a lot better. Fun is fun of course, but it leads to a lot of mistakes that shaped me badly as a person and still hurt me today. Do your best to avoid the I missed out feels and do what you can now. You have set yourself up for a good adulthood, no matter what mistakes you think you made growing up.

>>81778152
>now you cry about not having studied enough
Kek, its not about studying though. Its about developing marketable skills and social skills.
Doesn't matter how book smart I am, who you know matters most. A moron can become a CEO of a company because his Dad was before him.
>>81778159
I know some people that High School that do trades. One of them dropped out of College to be a plumber instead. I admire the trades more than anything.
I wish that I went down that path. A strong guy who works with his hands and lives that more rugged life.
Plus the benefits seem to be great. I could've done that instead of College.
But who knows, people always say that my body will thank me in 20-30 years when my back doesn't hurt as much. But what a pussy thing to think.

>Now I'm 22
>I've wasted my life.
Yeah, you're retarded dude.

>>81778197
Adolescence is easily the best time to be alive. I think most people agree with that.
Isn't it a stereotype or something that every adult wants to be a kid again?
I feel like you're completely free in life before you graduate High School.
After that the crushing reality of life slams down instantly.

Without looking up how to:
1) Derive the volume of a sphere using spherical coordinates (paper and pen only)
2) Derive Gauss's law from Coulomb's law (I mean you're an EE, right? You aren't just a CAD monkey?)

If you can't, your degree is a scam, and you're not high IQ (^ those are basic understanding-integrals tests). They are easy, but they base upon a fact you haven't done them before. So if you look it up it's over. If you want to lie to yourself then don't reply.

t. physicist with actually high IQ; you sound like a retarded pseudo intellectual btw

>>81778211
You're really stupid. You're 22. You're a child, you just don't know it yet. I'd kill to be 22, and when you're 42, you will kill to be 32.
To think "it's over" at your age is ridiculous to me. You can literally do anything in your life right now.

t. 32yo

>>81778226
What a pointless test. There is no way to prove I didn't look up the answers kek.

Though, whats kind of funny to me is that you're the one who sounds like a pseudo intellectual to me here. So I guess that is just a matter of perspective.

I would imagine we're both members of MENSA at least. You shouldn't brag about your intelligence, it makes you look dense and insecure.

>>81778112
>Women are attracted to muscle
KEK you really fell for the blackpill meme? That shit is for midwits.
Women are attracted to good social skills. If you have good social skills you will have no problems getting women.
If you are high IQ you can learn how to get social skills.

>>81778237
At 22 lots of doors are already closed. Like I said, people who are really good at something started as kids.

>>81778265
It's a test for yourself, not for me.

>
I would imagine we're both members of MENSA at least. You shouldn't brag about your intelligence, it makes you look dense and insecure.
Yeah, you are retarded.

>>81778277
>At 22 lots of doors are already closed.
What doors? I'm genuinely asking

>>81778277
>At 22 lots of doors are already closed. Like I said, people who are really good at something started as kids.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHA

>>81778282
>>81778283
Any professional sport is an easy first example. After that I'd say most hands-on mechanical skills like Auto Work.
Like, most mechanics started working in a garage when they were teenagers.

Lots of carpenters, plumbers, electricians etc had fathers that did that job and taught them from a young age. So they'll always be better at it than me if I start now.

The only thing I did as a kid is programming so I'm decent at that, but I never wanted to make my hobby a career so I didn't pick it and ended up with Electrical Engineering.

>>81778278
At least I know how to greentext properly.
Take your LARP back to plebbit smooth-brain.
Real intellectuals aren't so up their own ass like you.

>>81775003 (OP)
i was a neet for 4 years i'm 21 and got diagnosed with adhd now that im getting medicated and seeking treatment i'm trying to go to college and start building social connections.
i dont really feel like i wasted my time more so my life before this moment was constant agony and misery
you're a year older than me with a degree already any job you get pays you 100k/y you're and you're single with the money you can do whatever the fuck you want go meet people get hobbies thats what id do at least

>>81778327
Yeah basically. I save 80% of my monthly income because its way more money than I'm used to having anyway.
The rest I just spend on hobby stuff like Sim Racing Equipment and I have a few vacations planned for next year.
The main reason I dont have a project car yet is because I don't have any space for it at my parents house and I'd rather focus on escaping them first.

>>81778310
https://youtu.be/Gler9fDuhRY Learn about Tyler1's climb in chess you can definitely be better than people that started doing that shit as kids if you put in the work
If you're high IQ this shouldn't be so hard

>>81778351
>Sim Racing Equipment
>project car
you can't be complaining you live a life of solitude if all your hobbies are anti social
this is something that really bothers me about robots, you can't expect shit to happen from your home
The NHK girl is not gonna come knock on your door

>>81775003 (OP)
>implying intelligence and academia are still related

>>81778357
Then I guess its more of an inferiority complex then. My professors always praised me but I never understood why. I never felt like I had the passion of my peers.
My entire life people just kept telling me Im smart but I never felt it inside. My work reflects it I guess but to me it just feels lazy like Im barely trying.
I know it sounds like Im bragging but I've just always been miserable. Blame my mother I guess.
I dont think I'll ever be satisfied in life. I'll always feel like I should be doing more even when I accomplish a lot.
I always feel like Im just missing the target.

>>81778405
to be fair hes in stem, arguably stem got more demanding compared to 100 years ago

>>81778400
Like I said before, I've actually made some friends since I started Sim Racing.
I joined a league and we race together 2 times a week.
And with project cars, there are car meets and stuff.
I think cars is a fairly social hobby. Plus its fun to talk about the races with people during the weekend.
If I'm really lucky I'll catch IndyCar at the bar on weekends and get to watch it with other people in person.

>>81778413
intelligence doesn't define you it just makes life easier
i did an IQ test in my neuropsychological eval apparently i'm in the higher ranges of IQ i got a >99 percentile but i always felt i was borderline retarded in school due to ADHD
now that im medicated and have the enegy to go to fix my life i'm putting in the work to learn everything i couldn't in school and i can really appreciate how easy i find everything to be i went from not knowing basic division to learning calculus in a month
but IQ doesn't make you special even if you're in a the >99 percentile there are millions out there with same or higher intelligence
just be glad what you have makes your life easier compared to others

noticed im making tons of typos and mistakes im really sleepy right now not gonna fix any of them

>>81778466
>Like I said before, I've actually made some friends since I started Sim Racing.
>I joined a league and we race together 2 times a week.
then why are you so negative in this thread? is thats not a life of solitude
would you rather be snorting coke in a night club or what

>>81778405
Depends on your curriculum. When I was in stem, the average class size gradually reduced from 30 to 5.

>>81778512
>would you rather be snorting coke in a night club or what
Seems like life would certainly be more fun if I did that.
My coke addict brother is a good example. Hes a loser who dropped out of High School yet he gets free money from my parents and the government and he has a girlfriend and a car and he's never really worked hard in his entire life.
He is the reason I realized that hard work doesn't matter.

>>81775003 (OP)
>Why didn't I sneak out, why didn't I do drugs or drink or party or do anything that would've got anyone interested in me?
I think about this often too but then I remember I was never invited to any parties or whatever in school so I never had a choice

>>81775003 (OP)
Same degree and 30, khhv, despite good job in the field and 128IQ and 6'2'' height.
Thing about intelligence is that it will absolutely make you less relatable to the vast majority of people, so you're more likely to end up alone. What's odd to me about you is that if you're truly intelligent, you don't mind the loneliness. I actually like my solitude and while I'm glad I have two friends, romantic relationships just don't interest me much. I'm a khhv mostly through my own doing because I didn't want and didn't know how to flirt with the women who've tried flirting with me.
>The most successful people in my life are all morons.
It depends on how you measure success. I'm far richer than the vast majority of people my age, simply because by normie metrics I'm a loser (no gf, no marriage, no kid, no car, live with parents). But I don't care. I never want to marry, never want kids, I'm comfy at home with my parents and I can afford a lot of shit that makes me happy. By my own metric (the only one that matters to me), I'm doing great.

>>81778621
>I'm doing great.
You deserve an award

>>81778621
>I'm far richer than the vast majority of people my age, simply because by normie metrics I'm a loser (no gf, no marriage, no kid, no car, live with parents).
This is basically how it is with me as well as I said earlier.
Most of my sadness comes from just wanting a normal life. All I've ever wanted is a normal life.
I'd trade everything to be a clueless normie with a wife and kids. I hate the constant hell in my mind.
Its never quiet, I'm always thinking about something, its hard to sleep, I'm always talking to myself and even if I manage to make it stop then music just starts playing instead. Never silence.
I wish I didn't think.

>>81778621
one day buying objects won't do anything
hope you're an artist because that's all that will be left

>>81778550
>leecher gets free shit therefore hard work doesn't matter
thats a retarded logic OP and your brother is only able to sustain that lifestyle by exploting others
i have an uncle exactly like your brother leeched off my grandfather and now leeches off my dad and i wouldnt describe him as happy, had tons of girlfriends through his life but is now a loner gambling addict
>What's odd to me about you is that if you're truly intelligent, you don't mind the loneliness.
bro i don't think that's the case i think you just became schizoid due to trauma

>>81778729
forgot to mention >>81778621

>>81778707
kek you are an engineer you are considerably wealthy go meet women
dating becomes easier as you age if you are a man, women dont date men below their own age and usually date up so if you think about it your dating pools considerably becomes wider as you age. No one is living the clueless normie with a wife and kids lifestyle at 22

>>81778707
I know several normies and their lives are hell. Stress at work and stress at home. No money, no time to rest, dead bedrooms, all that shit. You want that life because you probably have an idealized version of it in your head. The reality is often very different.
>>81778726
I'm not even that materialistic. If I was, I'd definitely have a car and maybe even rent an apartment. The only expensive stuff I have are gaming PC, ROG Ally gaming tablet, high-end laptop and high end phone. I dress almost the same as in my NEET years and my mom still buys most of my clothes, because I can't be damned to do that myself. I mostly have a bunch of months when I only spend money on food, followed by some kind of expensive tech upgrade that I don't feel anyway. Most of my money is in investments because I want to retire early and just have a bunch of time to spend on my hobbies and just be free.

>>81778756
>dating becomes easier as you age if you are a man
I'm so excited for my sloppy seconds ready to settle down wife who never would've looked at me in High School, yay.
That's all guys like me have to look forward too.
Though right now at work it seems like this 18 year old intern is into me. Its a little weird though, I'd rather be with someone my age or someone a little older.
But whatever, we'll see what happens. I just kind of go with the flow at this point, I dont expect anything I just take it as it comes.

>>81778729
>you just became schizoid due to trauma
My childhood wasn't that bad, but I may just be schizoid because I wasn't socialized much (especially with women). I've always had one or two friends but never more than that. Socialization kinda drains me after a certain point. As early as my pre-teens I discovered I love playing vidya and messing about with technology and I'm still like that today. But I'm not suffering in any way. I don't want to change anything about the way I am, because it works just fine for me. I don't regret anything and I realize there are upsides and downsides to my path, which I accept. Should be clear I'm a coomer, so definitely not asexual, but I just don't want to deal with the downsides of interacting with women just to get sex and cuddling. I feel like 99% of women have nothing to offer me from an intellectual standpoint.

>>81778729
>i think you just became schizoid due to trauma
That's what happened to me, I didn't know it until I restored myself and I hate it, wanna be schizoid again.

>>81778765
having an own apartment has nothing to do with materialism. neither does having a car. those things are about freedom.
just take the warning, things that please you today might not please you tomorrow.
my high end gaming PC is completely useless to me now.

>>81778824
>those things are about freedom.
I feel way more free with my money and living in my childhood room than if I took a very scummy deal on a mortgage and was shackled to a job and a bank for the next 10-15yrs. I can relocate anywhere for better job opportunities and I get to invest my money instead of giving a lot of it to a bank. As for a car, I live in Euro city so I have zero need for it. I'm just as free without a car as I am without. And I completely avoid the stress of driving and my commute costs me nothing, because my employer offers me a free bus.
>just take the warning, things that please you today might not please you tomorrow.
Well, with the money I have, I can always become a normie anytime I want. But it would take some kind of neurological injury to want me to become like my normie coworkers. As I said, they are miserable and constantly complaining.

>>81778792
Op here, I related to all of this except I had a shitty childhood with abusive parents.
Physically and Mentally. It definitely fucked me up mentally.
I often fantasize about how much more successful I could've been if I had nice parents that loved me

>>81778854
Correction:
>But it would take some kind of neurological injury to make me want me to become like my normie coworkers. As I said, they are miserable and constantly complaining.
Still getting used to the keyboard on my new laptop...

>>81778789
you are completely brain rotted by this board holy shit and i say this as someone who has been here since 16
>sloppy seconds ready to settle down wife
I think that logic is retarded but you can date girls any age. You will eventually lose your khhv status and this shit will become meaningless to you anyway. If you are that paranoid about becoming a provider just date your own league.
Most girls woudn't have dated you at high school because girls inherently prefer older men anyway
>>81778792
You are pretty much me but I went through neglect, trauma and bullying. I have ADHD and autism.
Once I took adderall I became way more social though it's not a stretch to say it kind of cured my autism

>>81778856
maybe try looking into psychodelic therapy apparently it can help with that

>>81775003 (OP)
You got a supposedly useful degree now it really depends on whether you get a good job and build up wealth. If you fail to do that then ya you wasted your life focusing on school for nothing. You're really in the make or break time in your life kid. Doing drugs and sports wouldn't have improved anything you'd just be a failed normalfaggot that looks worse than jocks by comparison. You'd just exist to make them look better by comparison to girls around you. So your path isn't wrong but you're only half way. If you fuck it up being a depressed neet now you'll really hate yourself and your life at 30.

>>81778872
>as someone who has been here since 16
Kek, so you're an election tourist. I've been here since 2010 and that is still considered a newfag.
Yeah I'm pretty brain rotted from this site since I started using it so young. My dad and his friends were 90s tech nerds so they introduced me to it.

>>81778886
Yeah I'd love to try. I firmly believe that psychedelics are the only way to see what's really going on.

>>81778854
take it or leave it. as i said, i thought i was fine and dandy in my room too.

>>81775073
You aren't even 25 yet man. I know that you've been in an academic rat race for most of your life for some fucking reason but you aren't even old enough to be at the member grade in the IEEE. Do you even live on your own yet?

Stop being such a faggot

>>81777580
you're a conformist now

>>81778327
same boat except im rawdogging college no meth for me
humblebragging fags like op clearly get no bitches for a reason

>>81775003 (OP)
Go get a masters and meet women in grad school. You still have time. I wish I was made for school but I have defiance and hate being told what to do. I got a liberal arts degree and had to go back and get IT certs and a second degree. If I had just gotten an engineering degree on time I would be a lot better off. Go to the gym, start dressing well, pretend you are in a movie and nothing bad can happen to you that wasn't scripted. Doing that got me out of all anxiety with women. Pretend you are just playing a role in a movie and that she is just a character written for you. This got me laid then eventually I trusted a woman enough to let the walls down. But snag a grad school girl.

Also educate yourself on the tax codes and basic finance. You can write off taxable income as a 1040c sole proprietorship and do whatever you want as a side business. In your case you could buy a cnc router, 3d printer, laser engraver, and a 5090 pc with solid works and do things like custom plaque work, furniture, etc and then you can put equity into tools rather than have that money stolen from you. If you really wanted you could put that money into asic bitcoin miners and have a sole proprietorship mining bitcoin. You get to write off the electrical and floorspace costs, cost of the machines, etc.

>>81775073
Just sign up for iron man bro. Swim at the Y, buy a bike to train, run hills. Work your way up. But start with a half marathon, then a full. Then you can do it.

>>81779477
>humblebragging fags like op clearly get no bitches for a reason
Nothing to brag about. Being intelligent isn't special. Any human baby can grow into a genius with training.

>>81779659
Lmao lol intelligence is innate and heritable. If you're stupid you will always be stupid and actually just get more stupid as you age.

>>81779477
how is your college experience so far anon
when i go im gonna try joining more cliques and talking to more people. so far im enjoying just working and going to the gym and making small talk to the men there
im okay with giving myself some time before getting into college since im trying to go to medicine
since it's a subject im actually interested in maybe my adhd retarded brain won't try to fuck me over

>>81779669
>Lmao lol intelligence is innate and heritable
Anon... it is a well known research fact that intelligence can be improved by studying. Yes there is a genetic component to it but you can raise your IQ by studying, especially math and physics.
This can be proved empirically, countries with better education systems have a slight but noticeable increase in average population IQ.
Or did you really fall for the race meme

>>81779731
Medicine is a parrot subject of memorization and regurgitation. If you have a good memory you'll be fine. Just do practice quizes and flashcards a million times.

Warning: nurses are mentally ill depraved whores

>>81779764
It's 90% genetics. This will be solved by gene editing within this century though.

>>81779766
on paper all biology subjects are but i doubt thats the case on clinical rotations

>>81779548
Good advice. I wanted to meet a girl in college but that didn't work out. 99% of my classmates were men and the 2 girls in my major were both taken.

I sort of dont think that grad school would be any different. I honestly have no idea how to meet women in general let alone one that would share any interests with me.

Also like I said in an earlier post, I want to have a workshop at my house with CNC machines and other power tools. I also want a proper mechanic garage that let's me work on project cars. Like one with a hydraulic jack built in.

My ultimate goal would be to buy an old stock car and race it around short tracks in the south and maybe if I'm really lucky I could race ARCA. But NASCAR is probably off the table for me at this age.

>>81779783
>It's 90% genetics.
I don't want to be that guy but... source? You can't be calling yourself intelligent and high IQ when you get scientific opinion from a /pol/ shitpost.
https://www.nature.com/articles/nature10514

>>81775003 (OP)
>why do I have a healthy functional brain, all I want is to be a niggerbrain like all the other normalfags behaving like the niggers on tv
>please I want to fit in!! with the cattle!
Normalfag nigger cattle, have you tried facebook to connect with your fellow niggers?

>>81779900
>You can't be calling yourself intelligent and high IQ when you get scientific opinion from a /pol/ shitpost.
Op here, just saying that guy you're talking to isn't me. He is the guy that said he's "rawdogging college" I believe.

I'm the one who supported IQ growth and development. Anyone can learn anything if they try really.

>>81779905
My brain is definitely far from healthy lol. I hope you aren't implying that King Terry had a healthy brain either.
My mind is constant hell of thought. I think I was just born that way, disturbed. I've always had nightmares and I've always been paranoid and depressed.

>>81779920
Oh you're the baby genius guy, OP

>>81779952
Studies have shown that a normal human baby can become a genius in anything with special training.
If you say, "I want my child to be a genius mathematician" and you start training them in Mathematics from the second they can possibly understand it, then chances are they'll succeed in that field.

Its a no-brainer really. Just look at professional athletes, the same thing happens with them. They are put in that sport from a super young age and train their whole lives.

>>81779947
>My mind is constant hell of thought.
i'm like this as well due to ADHD. Pretty much always thinking using my brain and having ideas.
>I've always been paranoid and depressed.
same? i think these were caused by adhd as well. you might want to look into that.
if you had ADHD your behavior would make sense. you're depressed due to lack of stimulus in your life, you compare your (objectively better) life to your brother's life because you might have a dopamine-seeking adhd brain.

>>81775003 (OP)
why is her skirt so short? is she wearing panties?

>>81780005
I almost certainly have ADHD but I was never diagnosed because my parents didn't want to have a mentally ill son because it would embarrass them (having a cocaine addict son is ok though I guess?).
I went to get diagnosed a few years ago but got freaked out by the doctor and left with nothing. I feel like Im too old to start taking the pills now, the damage is already done.
My parents should've just helped me when I was in 4th grade and the doctor told them I was depressed and had ADHD. Maybe if I started then when I was 10 I could've turned out better.
Instead once my mother heard the news she beat the shit out of me when we got back home and told me I had nothing to be depressed about.

The weird thing is that I've always had horrible nightmares and always felt on edge even as a young kid like in kindergarten. I was this way even before my mother's abuse.

>>81779978
Turns out as always software matters more than the hardware.

>>81780005
i kinda get you op if you have adhd i also had a point in my life where i really felt bad for not going out doing crazy normie shit and felt like i was wasting my life by not doing drugs. i came to the conclusion that im not necessarily drawn by any of those but more so im just looking for ways to get produce dopamine, and you can get that in more productive healthy ways. meds help a lot too.
or idk you could just do drugs and have condomless casual sex

>>81780028
pretty much everyone with ADHD is depressed, usually depression caused by ADHD itself.
I feel empathy for you anon and I can tell you are deeply scarred by trauma and so am I. i got no clue how we can fix our heads, apparently shrooms help but i dunno.
I always had nightmares growing up until I stopped remembering my dreams. From a certain point I don't dream at all
>he beat the shit out of me when we got back home and told me I had nothing to be depressed about.
your mom ruined your life by not medicating you. being medicated as a kid would've fixed 99% of my problems, probably wouldnt even have ended up here.
you should really look into getting medicated though. it improved my life considerably at least

>>81780111
i think OP you should try recontextualizing these thoughts that you have.
>Why didn't I sneak out, why didn't I do drugs or drink or party or do anything that would've got anyone interested in me?
this shit is just your retard adhd brain wanting dopamine. not doing any of this doesnt really matters you can get dopamine in other ways.
>Why did I fall for this lie that intelligence matters in the slightest?
it matters it just made your life boring and that really bothers your adhd brain. go make it interesting you have the smarts and the money for that.
>They just drift through life without a care in the world and keep winning
no their life sucks even more than yours. once you treat your ADHD you'll see that
>So far I've lived a life of loneliness, inadequacy, struggle, and I don't feel like any of my work has paid off.
your family sucks OP but be aware that a lot of your suffering is only mental caused by adhd. ur brother probably has adhd as well thats why he ended up the way he did and once his pocket money is gone hes gonna feel what you're feeling currently but 10x worse.
also i don't think it's that bad to give in to your impulses. let your dopamine seeking brain guide you. they tell women this shit all the time but go enjoy your life bro dont bother about marriage and having kids yet. ask that 18 year old girl out for a date bring her to your home or to an airbnb and fuck the brains outta her. do drugs go clubbing who the fuck cares just be responsible about it. try doing something physical that boosts dopamine as well like biking

>>81780062
>>81780111
>>81780233
You guys are probably right. That is why I'm happy to finally be done with school and working.
I don't have any obligation to my parents anymore, I did everything they told me to do, fuck'em.
That's why I wanna work on doing what I wanna do now. Save up my money and move the fuck away from my family and start over.
Get my life started finally.