>be me
>get assaulted, groped, coerced etc most my childhood
>fantaisies now involve getting violently publicly raped until I die

what the fuck is my problem

>>81783284 (OP)
yeah thats how you develop paraphilias

>>81783284 (OP)
I feel like i am the only one that was raped that evolved a fetish for being the rapist and raping guys instead of being the victim. This is why other cnc foids annoy me.

>>81783284 (OP)
>fantaisies now involve getting violently publicly raped until I die
Kinda hot but sorry that happened to you OP. The world is shit and we're all just here to suffer.

>>81783284 (OP)
>>fantaisies now involve getting violently publicly raped until I die
many people are like this even without any abuse so don't blame yourself

>>81783319
based tho, wish it didn't get taken away from the dsm

>>81783320
nah desu I get ya. I am a victim masochist but like to write a shit ton about cnc fantasies in the mindset of the assaulter

>>81783346
i lowkey agree tho, kinda hot. if I were some hot hentai elf or some stuff I would have loved to be bred. pregnancy however is only hot in obscure hentai rape scans
thanks for the kind words tho anon. thankfully I found frens in the bdsm community and I can play out kinda similar scenarios but with total consent to so its not scary

>>81783397
Having a very specific thing for nerdy men getting hurt and abused but barely anyone draws or writes about itttt. Sucks fucking pig nuts

>>81783397
>found frens in the bdsm community and I can play out kinda similar scenarios but with total consent to so its not scary
That's really cool. I'm jealous. Wish I wasn't an ugly loser so I could have hot cnc sex or any sex at all really. But oh well, I guess that's just how it goes.

>>81783397
>frens in the bdsm community
damn how do you meet kinky people like that? i dont have any kinks but i wouldnt mind fulfilling a sadist role
i just want to have sex more

>>81783444
lets team up anon im gonna get the masochist girls you can get the sadist ones

>>81783430
nona you gotta start training your x feed for some brain rotted "pwobwematic >_<" / "pro ship uwu" porn. the best thing for that is to find a character close to your archetype and abuse the shit out of that ao3 tag, r34 and x search. Tumblr has great stuff too ig but idk if the porn ban is still in place
>pic rel

>>81783360
thanks anon. lowkey I make myself feel better saying my fucked up fantasies are justified by my childhood

>>81783444
people in the bdsm community are chill, most people are into ugly people
>tho im sure ur a cutie anon

>>81783464
im in france so maybe its different where you live, but the bdsm community here is pretty organized even if its underground. we have an obscure social media called fetlife where you can post porn pics of yourself, show in your profiles your kink or just see what kinda events are around you.
there are also munches (munch in French, pretty sure its a universal word) where most stuff here happens. its parties held in bar basements or some rented house
>my city has munches every two weeks organized by some rich guy that rants a villa wtf
>its a small town too
usually there for the beginning of the party you can get to chat with people about bdsm stuff and then around 10pm, its game time. you can get whipped, poured waxed on tied. most places dont allow full nudity or actual sex/orgasms, but they have "dungeons" where sex and nudity is allowed.
ive been to some with my ex dom gf they are really fun and people were sweet to me hehe
>or abused me but still checked in for safe words stuff like that
>and my dom watched out just in case too
>was wet asf, humiliated, but the safest ive ever been

>>81783320
i fucking love male rape porn
i usually only look at femboy bdsm hentai bcz of this

>>81783567
im convinced getting laid in latam is actually harder now compared to the us or europe
where i live doesn't even have a night life no idea how people fucking date here
i get a shit ton of likes if i use bumble passport mode as well but very little likes locally
what the fuck

>>81783586
No cuz same! The ones I do find are like diamonds in the rough. I might start practicing my anime art style so I can draw it more.

>>81783600
where the fuck is lama
also im sorry bro that sucks, smaller countries are harder to navigate in. fetlife is international, maybe you'll find a chick (or dude its 2025) that's also lonely, horny and no one wants to torture
bdsm.com is also great if you just wanna have a quick fuck and dont get into the whole community bs - also they have cams I heard
gl on your sadomasochistic quest anon, hope you'll cry or make someone cry