How's your week been anon? Mine has been shit so far. I hadn't slept at all last night, or the night before that. I tried, I went to bed early and everything and took some melatonin. Just couldn't do it. I kinda regret telling my friend to watch welcome to the nhk too because he said Satou's a bum and idk I felt a little hurt and personally attacked. I don't know what I expected though. My brain is a little foggy right now since I didn't sleep. Maybe I should get a night job since I can't fucking sleep during the night anyways. Anon in the other thread said overnight security is chill so maybe it would be a good first job

>>81791442 (OP)
hey misaki my day has been alright i went to some job relative program to hopefully get employed besides that my days are pretty the same I'm trying to get a ps3 cus i miss my one and I'm grinding kcd on my xbox so yea we be chilling

>>81791442 (OP)
My schizophrenic gf just broke up with me from the mental clinic, I wish I could feel something but I think after years of shit I'm emotionally stunted. Can't break a heart that's already broken I guess.

She is a bum Anon, you need to accept this as trvth.

Bros I am scared, the government will sponsor some sort of a job training for me, and I could choose any, but of course I have no skills worthwhile in the workplace, I have no idea what job would fit me, I have a hunch any job will turn my life into a nightmare. Anyway, I took the offer and I will be trained in operating some sort of construction site machinery like a backhoe loader. Frankly, I have no idea what they are and what makes one different from another. I am interested in history and gardening, both fields that offer no employment opportunities for me. I am scared of having to look for work in this rather brutal and demanding field but I have no better ideas, and neither does my family and even the social workers whose job it is to guide people like us. So wish me luck I guess. Maybe I'll finally leave this hole after ~4 years of neetdom.
>>81791514
How do you find a mentally ill gf? I can't imagine attracting a normie woman. Gimme a Misaki

Tired and depressed. Feeling beat down by life. Trying to push myself to keep working towards new and job and making some progress luckily. But it feels like a constant uphill battle.
I think I have some more underlying issues, but I cannot quite pinpoint them yet.
>>81791485
Sounds comfy. What games do you want to play on the ps3?
>>81791514
Sorry anon. I hope you can recover well.
>>81791583
Good luck anon. Its worth a shot and remember you don't have to work that job forever. You will gain skills and insight but after a year or two if its killing you inside then you should leave immediately. Look for better opportunity in the mean time.

>>81791442 (OP)
Start walking outside or jogging a bit, when you get tired take a nap. When you get frustrated do pushups until you can't anymore, and rest. I'm not a gym bro. Listen to good music and pace around your space until you're tired.

When you believe in yourself, you believe in the truths you make for yourself.
https://youtu.be/DBnENlXt-H4?si=e__ZCO6oh4zmJADi

Let me hook you up on a playlist I personally like, but you have your tastes so make something you want to understand.

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEBQpmRL_hyJD_Y4fapB-YCcrhyBKYNUJ&si=kJLNZbwvx2tvd2tL

>>81791442 (OP)
Why can't you sleep? Being a neet fixed my sleep schedule. I still sleep ~10/11 hours a day but that's because of depression, and my hours of sleep are always the same. (22-8).
Did you get the other end of the stick- insomnia from depression? How does that work?
>>81791748
I know I know. What I feel the most is that insecure moment of making mistakes and forgetting and not being fast and capable enough during the first days of new employment. Basically, my inadequacy being shown to the world.

>>81791442 (OP)
started pretty decent, went downhill, and now i feel like shit like i do every other friday of the week. now im just listening to music trying to suppress the bad feelings but it's not really working.
>melatonin
im starting to think its a scam because everyone i know (me included) says that it doesnt do anything.
good luck with the training stuff also. change is bettr than doing nothing and rotting in your room forever. if the job turns out to be hell, then you can just quit anyway.

>>81791863
>good luck with the training stuff
meant to link this anon
>>81791583

im retarded and deleted my original post by accident whoops.

>>81791442 (OP)
started pretty decent, went downhill, and now i feel like shit like i do every other friday of the week. now im just listening to music trying to suppress the bad feelings but it's not really working.
>melatonin
im starting to think its a scam because everyone i know (me included) says that it doesnt do anything.
>>81791583
good luck with the training stuff also. change is bettr than doing nothing and rotting in your room forever. if the job turns out to be hell, then you can just quit anyway.

if someone doesn't save me i'll be surprised if i'll be alive next year honestly
about to hit 4 years of being a hikki tho so just maybe

>>81791442 (OP)
My week is better than previous ones.Learning to cope with my shitty situation

>>81791748
>Sounds comfy. What games do you want to play on the ps3?
any desu since I'll jailbreak it and get free games on it but my favorite ps3 was ac black flag actually it's favorite game in general

>>81791442 (OP)
>How's your week been anon?
I'm so fucking stressed about my upcoming move to China that I can't focus on anything

>>81791442 (OP)
The owner of a server I'm in keeps telling me to kill myself. He said Misaki told him to rape and kill people... How do I get him the help he needs?

>>81792824
maybe you should rope yourself

>>81791442 (OP)
hey anon thanks for making these threads every week

>>81792824
If you dress up as misaki, and show up to his door, you can become the help he needs :3