I'll listen to your issues! Please tell me what's on your mind lately and I'll try my best to respond! I can't guarantee I'll be of much help, but I'll listen. Just please talk to me about anything!

I'm stuck at my job.
I moved to a new place for that job.
I don't know anyone there.
I don't know how to meet new people and haven't since I left education structure that put you into ready-made social groups.
I feel like I'm not doing any sort of progress towards any of my life goals other than putting money to the side for big stuff.

>>81798681 (OP)
ive been fantasizing about the best place to end my life and how again, every spiral like this gets harder to resist

>>81798714
Aww I'm sorry to hear that! Is your job okay at least? I can guarantee I'm even worst at making friend then you are; I'm not sure I can even be of much help. Being lonely sucks! What are your life goals? What do you want to achieve?

>>81798681 (OP)
OP youre really weird for making this thread and I dont understand why you did. Surely there is a better use of your time and effort than expending it on losers online who you will never know,

>>81798792
One could say to you, no you.

>>81798766
I think about that a lot myself. I'm sorry you're feeling that way though. Why are you feeling that way? When did you start feeling this way?
>>81798792
I apologize. I can remove this thread if you wish. I don't think there is a better use of my time. At least I can be useful to someone hopefully which makes me feel better.

>>81798681 (OP)
>I can't guarantee I'll be of much help, but I'll listen.
You can't save everyone, anon
>Just please talk to me about anything!
Sounds like you need a hug yourself

Helping people makes you feel good, but right now you're not feeling too good yourself huh?

>>81798681 (OP)
I don't think I can find a job. I don't think I'm gonna marry anyone since I'm a manlet

>>81798811
In my case there genuinely is no better use of my time. I have given up.
But also Im not expending any effort. The emotional effort required to properly console someone is massive and wasting that sort of effort on strangers is strange and disturbing.
>>81798828
Please do remove it; its disturbing me.

>>81798850
>its disturbing me.
what the hell, man?

>>81798866
Idk what you mean
oregano

>>81798681 (OP)
My problem is that I need a human substitute for channeling anger. Will you let me stuff you in a locker and call you nerd?

>>81798828
>think about that a lot myself
im sorry its like this for u too
>Why are you feeling that way? When did you start feeling this way?
idk, i think i watched a show and it triggered it for me, it made dying seem so appealing

>>81798877
Idk that seems pretty niggerish to try to bring others down to your level

>>81798836
I mean not at all, but it's okay. It's extremely nice of you to ask. Hope you're okay Anon.
>>81798845
Getting a job is such a chore! How are your finances? I can give you money if you're in a bad situation! I don't know how to get a job either. It's awful sending resumes and getting no responses. I really hope you can find a job soon!
>>81798850
I'm sorry Anon.
Why have you given up? You are free to not answer. I didn't know this sort of behaviour would disturb anyone. It won't let me delete the thread however, saying the thread is too old.

don't have anyone to be loved by. don't have anywhere to put my own love. don't have friends to talk to who care. attempts at finding people have failed. i'm not sure if have truly accepted it yet, but i need to fend for myself now, find my way alone, nobody will ever come.

>>81798936
>Hope you're okay
Not really, I feel miserable and full of hate right now - I need a cigarette

>>81798927
>it made dying seem so appealing
You seem a lot like me; I'm genuinely really excited to die. I've spent a lot of time thinking about it. . Blank nothingness. It's really intoxicating to think about, even when I'm not feeling quite as down.
>>81798954
Why have they failed? It's likely no-one will come, but maybe you can find people to talk to the way I do. Responding to people who are down and trying to make them feel better, and maybe they'll do the same for you.
>>81798960
Why are you full of hate? Why do you feel miserable? Did something happen? Tell me about it.

>>81799014
>Why are you full of hate? Why do you feel miserable? Did something happen?
same old, same old - i'm just tired of being tired is all
my birthday's coming up in a week and i've got nothing to show for it at my age - no job, no friends, no gf/bf
i'm way too far behind to catch up

i know what i need to do to fix my shit
its the actual doing part thats fucking me over

>>81798777
>job is okay, the boss is a dick and his kids are incompetent but that's honestly not too bad compared to other workplaces I've been at
>current fun life goal is getting in good enough shape and not being a wrenchlet so I can go bicycle touring in the autumn but work leaves me too tired to go ride, i've plateaux hard during my sunday rides
>current work goal is in the mid to long term open my own workshop so I can somewhat work on my own terms instead of being a workshop wagie
>long term goal is having the money to buy a house or go fuck it and get a houseboat and disappear at sea or something idk I have time
Loneliness is tough though. Right now the only cordial social interactions I can have are with my workshop colleague who is nice and we get along but he's had health issues and went full doomer mode over it. Other than that, I don't know anyone in a 400km radius, I'm half a day by train or car away from my family and I've completely lost touch with my older friends. I have a lot of e-friends but they only make the isolation feel worse by being scattered across all continents and feeling that much harder to ever reach.
I'm sure that part is going to be familiar to others here.

>>81799014
>You seem a lot like me; I'm genuinely really excited to die
ig so
>Blank nothingness. It's really intoxicating to think about, even when I'm not feeling quite as down.
im not sure if its blank nothingness or what, i just feel compelled to leave the world, yknow? like im being called elsewhere. maybe im just schizo tho.

>>81798681 (OP)
I'm suicidal always
No point in life
I hate women
I'm bitter and jaded and resentful and angry
I regret everything I've ever done
I regret everything I haven't done
I'm ugly, unnatural, unattractive
My coping mechanism is liquor, and it's only making me uglier and less healthy
Even if a girl asked me out I'd laugh in her face and tell her to fuck off
That's how jaded I've become
I cannot be saved

>>81798681 (OP)
1. I really like an anxious avoidant girl who's currently ghosting me. She relatively recently messaged me again after a period of ghosting but then started ghosting me again likely because I didn't reply immediately. It's very frustrating and hard to deal with this.

2. I'm also anxious avoidant and haven't been able to check my uni grades. Summer break is a little over halfway over for me and my anxiety is seriously crippling me. I haven't been able to take the electives I wanted to take during the summer, work on projects, go to the gym, go out with friends, play games, see my therapist, go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds, or even sleep normally. I'm my own worst enemy.

>>81799036
I'm sorry to hear that. How old are you roughly? What do you feel you need to do to fix it? And why do you feel it's hard to actually do it?
>>81799042
I'm sorry to hear that. I have almost never interacted with another person offline, so I can't be of much help here. Would the isolation be less worse if they were on your timezone at least? Or would you still feel isolated, and why is that?
>>81799044
>like im being called elsewhere
I understand; I do too.
Despite what I just wrote though I would urge you to not hurt yourself. It'd still make me sad if that means anything.
>>81799055
Liquor will only make it worse in the long run! I'm not really too sure what to say here that'll help! I'm guessing you have issues finding a hobby of some kind? Not ignoring your need to find a partner - I just have nothing to say here that'll be of any help since I've not ever talked to a woman in my life; I'm sorry.

>>81799163
>I understand; I do too
sucky feeling, isnt it? i wish i knew what caused it. why is it so overwhelming as to override billions of years of instincts? so strange.
>Despite what I just wrote though I would urge you to not hurt yourself.
ill fight it off again and be ok. as i have many times before. it doesnt feel quite like it is "time" yet, something tells me i will know when it is.
>It'd still make me sad if that means anything.
ofc it does. despite this being an anonymous imageboard, we are all people. i think all peoples emotions matter to me, esp here where the people are the most relateable to me. i dont want to hurt anyone here

>>81799138
>She relatively recently messaged me again after a period of ghosting but then started ghosting me again likely because I didn't reply immediately
I'm sorry Anon; it probably hurts to have someone disappear like that. How long have you waited for them to reply?
>and my anxiety is seriously crippling me
I understand; it cripples me too.
What are you worried about? Are you worried you failed a class? Maybe you're being overwhelmed by everything! Please try not to think about all of that, and try to focus on just one thing. Don't worry about the bigger picture and try to get just one thing done today if you can!
>>81799204
>i dont want to hurt anyone here
Thank you friend - that makes me feel better reading that.
>it doesnt feel quite like it is "time" yet, something tells me i will know when it is.
Yeah, me too. I really don't want to be here.

>>81799303
>Thank you friend - that makes me feel better reading that.
im glad
>Yeah, me too. I really don't want to be here
im sorry.
>renmei image
thats the show that triggered this spiral of mine, haha

>>81799163
>How old are you roughly? What do you feel you need to do to fix it? And why do you feel it's hard to actually do it?
3 years to 30
I told you what I lack, so right now I just need to get those things - I need a "meaning", I need purpose, I need a will to live
It's hard because my main "enemy" is time - if everything was available 24hrs a day, I'd prefer that but now I have to wait for daybreak to get my runs, I can only work out max 4hrs a day, I can only talk to so many people a day before my battery runs out

Theres so much to do and so much time to do them but my body and my mind are my limit

>>81799349
Haibane is such an amazing show. Do remember there is no afterlife like there is in that show however.
>>81799368
I see. I don't really have any meaning either, or really know how to find it. I'm struggling to even feed myself, you seem like a super human compared to me, so I don't think I can be very useful here! I'm sorry! Working out 4 hours a day is insane! Genuinely amazed you can do that (you sure working out that much won't damage your body in some way?)

>>81799476
in my "ruin-my-body-with-extremes" arc
we're extrememaxxing in this house
go big or go home

the 4hr thing is Olympic athlete-tier so that's the absolute max in a day

>>81799476
>Haibane is such an amazing show. Do remember there is no afterlife like there is in that show however
ya, i agree. its prob my favorite now. i dont rly care if there is an afterlife or not, and dont have much of an opinion either way. one way or another id have peace.

Anyways I apologize for wasting everyone's time. I'm going to lie down. I hope things improve for everyone here.

>>81798681 (OP)
I'm too prideful to lose my virginity to anyone but another virgin but I'm black 19M and have yet to meet a single girl my age who hasn't done it with anyone else. I want my first time to actually be with a girl who genuinely loves me not just some random whore.

My mouth is in constant pain since getting my wisdom teeth removed. I can't even eat properly. Shit sucks

My life is in shambles and I lost the person who mattered the most to me. I have no will to do anything. I don't eat, I do nothing but lay and shitpost.

>>81799530
goodnight sleep tight anone

>>81798681 (OP)
The biggest problem I currently have is that I can't put me peener en teh vageener

Im a drug addict stalling asking out my crush

>>81800626
You should quit the drugs and just ask.