how you guys holding up and how do you cope when the things that used to make you happy make you angry and youre pushing away everyone that cares about you

>>81809924 (OP)
>youre pushing away everyone that cares about you
Maybe just don't do that? I did it and now I'm now isolated

hello, gray matter. i'm doing quite well at the moment. on seeing something you love turn into something you hate, there's no cope. i just get mad, accept it, and move on.

i haven't "pushed" anyone "away" since i was 16.

>>81809924 (OP)
>How you guys holding up
its okay - it's life
>How do you cope when the things that used to make you happy make you angry and youre pushing away everyone that cares about you
you need someone to hug you is all

>>81809924 (OP)
>how you guys holding up
6/10. On the up and up.
>how do you cope when the things that used to make you happy make you angry
Find joy in unexpected things. I just lost all love for video games over the last few months, so trying to fill that void.
>youre pushing away everyone that cares about you
The only ones worth pushing away are the ones who aren't nourishing to me, so unless you're pushing away truly good people it's nothing to worry about.

Learning to cope with a shit life, just accepting it's not getting better soon and I should cherish what I got and find purpose in being a nigger to the system

>>81809943
>I did it and now I'm now isolated
i didn't do that and am still isolated- explain?

I cope by going on r9k!

Feel you though, OP, people try to check up but I'm too self-hating to genuinely listen

>>81810023
>explain?
no I would rather continue listening to rave music and lurking

>>81809949
>accept it, and move on.
having a hard time doing that at the moment, anon
>>81809991
>you need someone to hug you is all
i wish hugs could help, ive never tested it so i guess i dont know. the last girl i hugged ghosted me after promising we'd go out again.
>>81810016
>6/10. On the up and up.
glad to hear it
>Find joy in unexpected things.
one of the few things i enjoy now is skating, but that requires me to get dressed and go outside
plus hygiene or whatever
>>81810050
>people try to check up but I'm too self-hating to genuinely listen
everyone feels so disingenuous. its like a copypasta at this point. like the people who are trying to "help" me are just doing it to validate themselves.
example:
>text from old co-worker "ARE YOU OKAY?"
>i say "not really"
left on read for 3 days

>>81810187
>ish hugs could help, ive never tested it so i guess i dont know. the last girl i hugged
Ever got hugged by family?

>>81811034
>Ever got hugged by family?
feels meaningless. almost all contact feels meaningless. with family i know theyre not hugging me for who i actually am. i am currently trying to sleep with an incredible headache, everything is upsetting me and im crying every 30 minutes. usually im able to cry myself to sleep. i fucking hate myself. i fail at everything i try. all i do is fail and even when i try to get better it doesnt work.

>>81811315
>theyre not hugging me for who i actually am
You have no way of knowing this.

>>81811365
I'm in the same spot as >>81811315
My family never liked me for who I am, and only likes me as an extension of them. That's why they never listen to anything I say, even if it benefits them. I get hugs from family occasionally but they're not genuine.