>be me
>had gf years ago
>really in love with her
>she abruptly ghosts me, never hear from her again
>had a really hard time with it
>couldn't sleep or eat
>constant depression and anxiety
>almost lost the job I had at the time
>the situation also got me excluded from the friend group
>left town, started a new life, no contact with anyone from there except family
>fast forward to present day
>have a crush on qt3.14 coworker
>work with her thursday but she doesn't say hi or talk to me at all(she was probably just busy)
>don't know why, but it triggers something and I start thinking about the ex a lot again
>start to spiral, can't sleep, depression hitting hard out of nowhere

I got away from women entirely and haven't felt this beat down in years. I can't deal with this shit, I will have to go to a therapist and get happy pills this time.

>>81809990 (OP)
The pills wont make you happy. They will just make you so hollow that you forget what feeling feels like.

>>81809990 (OP)
This is me but with a guy. Idk why he randomly ghosted me it's been a year and some and I still can't forget about him and the memories randomly come back

>>81809990 (OP)
May I ask for being visible in the reddit screencap?

>>81809990 (OP)
i ghost people and leave entirely without a single way of contacting me back and have been trying to exist in peoples lives and not do this shit anymore but when things get hard god i just want to disappear and pretend i never existed and start again somewhere new
i dont know whats wrong with me and im so sorry to all the people ive hurt doing this shit, im trying my best this time but the one person i have in my life and obsess over doesnt seem to want me, its almost ironic but ill stay here i think

Yup still have panic attacks from it

>>81809990 (OP)
Wow, you feel like that yet, she's just a crush to you? Tha'ts pathetic.