i induced derealization with drugs and idk if i want to ever come out of it, have you ever abused drugs?

i get crossfaded almost every morning before work, i get high 24/7, and then some weekends id do acid, molly, 2cb, or a combo of them

>>81810755
whats it like to be on acid molly n 2cb at the same time?

>>81810725 (OP)
I know a young dude this happened to, he started his smoking career by immediately going for gravity bongs for his first time. He cured it by getting completely sober

>>81810725 (OP)
I loved to do small amounts of ketamine throughout the day to be always dissociated from reality but my dealer disappeared a year ago and I couldn't find a new one so now I just drink.

>>81810765
i haven't done all 3 at once, seems like it would be a bit redundant. i do a combo of two of the three (plus weed and alcohol I guess), 2cb and molly mixes nice with lsd since itll help with happy thoughts.

>>81810785
wtf is a gravity bong
i do worse than weed idk if gravity bogn is weed but sounds liek ti
>>81810809
soudns nice i wish molly was easy to get where i am

>>81810871
This is a helpful drawing of what he was doing. You basically smoke an entire bong bowl in one hit, it gets you really really fucked up. Like I almost gave myself psychosis with this when I was new to this method

Been having serious derealisation induced by childhood trauma and autism, welcome to the club, OP!

>>81810871
gravity bong is just a rig to smoke (mainly weed) when u have nothing else to smoke out of, plus it looks cool and you can do some pretty big hits depending on how u make it. its a bucket filled with water, then u take like a 2L soda bottle and cut it in half and place it in the water. the top of the bottle will be covered with aluminum or anything with some holes poked through and the weed on top. you light the weed and pull up the bottle and the smoke gets sucked through into bottle so you can get a huge hit

>soudns nice i wish molly was easy to get where i am
its my favorite drug, i just wish it was more abusable without getting brain problems

>>81810899
i see i see ya fk weed it makes my blood pressure go WOOOOOp
>>81810911
tyty glad to join im sry urs is trauma related tho
>>81810918
aw molly causes brain problems???

>>81810992
>aw molly causes brain problems???
just using it too often fucks with serotonin and whatnot, if i could do it eveey week i would but i keep the molly to like twice every 3months or so

>>81811030
im glad ur playing it safe then!!!! smarter then i!!

>>81811057
safe is best way to take drugs
i just want to disassociate from reality for a bit, not make myself even more mentally ill

>>81811078
desu ive just given up completely and dont care anymore so i just do whtevr

>>81811092
well depends frequency depends on what u take anyways... so what do u take?

>>81811104
well rn i have drank alot and took abucnh of dph
but i also take stims these days like adderal
not the worst stuff to take but i def feel rly weird

>>81811145
i see, i never abused dph but i do love drinking and taking adderall. its a cool feeling like a less sloggy drunk. i tend to go into work a lot like that as well

>>81811162
ya dph isnt great desu if you ahve better options its best to take em
tho a low overdose does wonders with alcohol, i barely feel like i am here its wonderufl

>>81811170
i see... well becareful friend, maybe one day we can abuse drugs tovether

>>81811206
i will try to be careful ty
and itd be nice to do drugs with other ppl ive only done it alone so thatd be col

>>81810725 (OP)
I took half a small Xanax my mom gave me & I loved it. First time doing a controlled substance & I would do it again if offered. My mom might notice that I took pills out of her purse though.

>>81810725 (OP)
thought it would be a good idea one time to smoke a blunt before work while already on hydrocodone. i was stuck in derealisation for days, it was an actual nightmare yet for some reason i just felt chill about it. but i quit both things after that. i had only 2.5mg of edibles one time since then just to mellow out but i was still terrified it would happen again so now i only stick to a few alcoholic drinks every friday or saturday night.

>>81811235
why not try to get a prescriptionf or it
>>81811240
what did you hate abt the derealization? i think it feels fine, maybe even better being so detached

>>81811223
>ive only done it alone so thatd be col
its a mixed bag but generally pretty fun as long as no ome is tripping bad or like dying
ive had aome good acid trips with ppl and some bad ones (and all times it was them going through a bad trip or annoying me cuz im not a good tripsitter). all i can say is be with ppl you like in a comfy area for best results

>>81811246
well really i hated the fact that it stuck me so hard inside my own head, like seriously reality had the same perception as dreaming so things only felt real in either complete darkness or with my eyes closed. this made for a fun incident where i was walking home from work and was almost hit by a car because i was so zoned out. i just prefer to be in control as much as possible which was actually easy on downers but they constipated the hell out of me. but with weed? i just cant man it instantly makes me have panic attacks now

>>81810725 (OP)
I overdosed on legal highs aged 17 and suffered with DP/DR for years after. The funny thing? LSD helped me cope with it. I'm okay now, but I know for a fact I made a huge mistake all those years ago and I've never truly been the same since.

>>81811263
makes sense lol
id prob be the one dying desu
>>81811276
i understand ig:( i dont feel much control either way so it doesnt rly matter to me!!
>>81811358
glad the lsd helped. i hope ufeel completely healed one day

>>81811400
>i hope ufeel completely healed one day
Thank you, may cherry blossoms eternally bloom over the orchard of your spirit.