I miss her so much I hate being such an obsessive person, it brings nothing but pain :(

I'll wait a whole year if I have to!!!!

>>81812171 (OP)
come on anon just move on

>>81812200
I do want to move on but I just can't :(((
it's hard!

I need to get her out of my head!!!!!

>>81812171 (OP)
well i wish you good luck, ive been waiting like 70 days currently

>>81813159
I've been waiting for the months :(
the pain never stops

>>81812171 (OP)
I know this feeling. Waiting, and waiting, and waiting. Oh god make it stop.

>>81813246
worst part is that I don't even know if she will be back :((((

>>81813267
Yeah, they probably are never coming back in my case unless I could talk to them. Which I can't.

>>81813423
I can't talk to her either, I mean I can send her texts but she just won't respond to them, don't know if she is reading them or not... I really really hope she comes back one day

>>81813447
I don't even think my texts will go through to them... I haven't tried for thirteen days. All other ways to reach them are impossible though. I guess I will try texting them on their birthday a simple "happy birthday."

>>81813738
I hope me gf and your person come back one day

>>81813176
Try decades

>>81814073
oh man.... I hope I don't have to wait that long

>>81814073
This is sadly the truth, good things never last.

>>81814305
misery and loneliness are the only things that last forever it seems....

>>81814318
That is correct, there is no happiness to be found.

>>81814781
I was very happy with my gf but she's gone now :(

>>81814835
That's what I mean, it only exists to mock you. Happiness is only shown so you know what it's like when you never get it again. They made me happy too ---the only person who could make me happy--- and I miss them horribly.

>>81812171 (OP)

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>>81814897
honestly, I kinda feel the same way, it's almost as if god send her just to remind me of what I'm missing, I was at a point of my life where I didn't care about being alone anymore I was just going through my daily life numb not sad not happy and then she comes out of nowhere makes me the happiest person alive and then leaves and now I want to kill myself I can't stand being alone

>>81814904
um what are you trying to say?

>>81814937
It's exactly this, you spend years and years healing and are finally willing to let someone in because they relentlessly pursue you and show they love you... Then they stab you in the heart when they have you and you are going to have a nice cozy life together. No more... No one cares about me.

>>81815080
I just hope I can go back to being numb and unable to feel anything again hopefully sooner rather than later

>>81815131
I hope I can just make it through the month, but I am faltering and I don't think I can.

>>81815496
I wish I could talk to her, at least one more time

>>81815614
Yeah, I want to talk to them more than anything.

>>81812171 (OP)
Lmfao
I am also waiting on someone, anon.
Good luck on your journey

>>81815998
I wonder if she still thinks about me, I certainly can't get her out of my head
>>81816019
thanks, good luck to you too!

>>81816019
It truly is a horrible feeling

>>81816680
>It truly is a horrible feeling
It is, isn't it?

I need her back so bad!, it hurts....

>>81816772
Yep, I cannot think of something worse than longing for someone. People will mention some fallacy of relative privation about how it isn't suffering, but depending on the people and the right circumstances longing can prevent someone from even functioning or even eating when they otherwise would.

>>81817870
nta (I'm OP) but yeah the first couple of months I was so depressed that I couldn't eat anything and even lost some weight, I'm still barely eating honestly

>>81817936
I'm in that category myself, maybe going back to Auschwitz tier won't be so bad though. At least someone will probably care then.

>>81818083
hey I mean, I always wanted to lose weight so at least something positive came out of this, the only problem is that I don't want to be alive anymore :/

>>81818148
Tell me about them, what were they like?

>>81818179
hm I dunno, what do you want to know?

>>81818199
Male or female, why did you like them so much?

>>81818206
she was female and I really loved her, I loved her so much, she was always saying she loved me as much as I loved her but I guess that was all lies, what about the person you are waiting for? were they male of female?

>>81818249
>were they male of female
Depends who asked them. They were the only person who showed any care towards me in years that wasn't fleeting or to entertain themselves.

>>81818268
I see, yeah my gf was the only person to ever make me feel loved, I felt loved for the first time in my life and me having horrible abandonment issues made this extra painful, traumatic even I was always anxious that she was going to leave me and sadly that fear became a reality

>>81818295
>and me having horrible abandonment issues made this extra painful, traumatic even I was always anxious that she was going to leave me and sadly that fear became a reality
We are the same in this regard, I cannot handle any abandonment which is why I don't let people in.

>>81818365
I'm going to have a hard time getting over this and getting another girlfriend, that might never happen honestly

>>81818390
Same, there is no escape from this. I hate being here.

>>81818950
honestly starting to regret ever talking to her, so much pain could've been avoided

You should date the girl who keeps making the ex bf threads.
But in all seriousness, I hope she comes back. If you ever talk to a girl again, make sure you have something you know she will always be active in, if it is a roblox or steam or spotify account, just to know she's still doing well at least.

>>81819019
I cannot regret it at all in my case, the happiness brought was so extreme I'd want it to happen again. I just wish it lasted.

>>81819054
there's been a girl that sometimes shows up and asks to be my gf, don't know if she is serious or not but either way now I'm terrified of being hurt again.

and yes if my gf ever comes back I will make sure to have some other ways of communicating with her, that was my mistake
>>81819096
well yeah I do appreciate the good times but at this point the misery is outweighing the happy times... I don't know, I have very mixed feelings right now

>>81819096
I can never let myself feel their existence was bad, no matter the pain it brings to me.

real shit, she's bound to get fucked and you'll have a hard time finding anything genuine for a while, git big and just fuck all the hoes u can. When you get older assuming ur young, all these chicks are gonna have so many hoe stories you won't be able to look past unless you even the odds.

>>81820047
yeah that's the part that hurts the most... that's it I will fuck a bunch of hoes and break their hearts I will never love again!!!

...no that's not something I could do... I'm not that kind of guy

>>81820047
>assuming ur young, all these chicks are gonna have so many hoe stories
This is the worst part I am in my 30s, and I have been on this hell site since it's inception. I have many, many, many people who find me attractive enough to do bad things with. However I refuse, I have no desire to be with people who do not love me and want to do lewd things because they found me attractive. It's folly I know, but I only seek something permanent and forever.... I don't care how much it hurts. I'd rather volcel aimlessly for people who respect bonding is forever than those who'd pick me to survive.

>>81820149
I'm still in my 20s
I'm OP btw

>>81816019
I will not give up.
Unless she tells me to.
I must try.

>>81820571
I don't want to give up but everything else is telling me I should :(

>>81820149
And that only possible is them..... 13 days later. A month later in the future, a year later after that. I don't care. They're all that makes me happy.

>>81821278
I understand how you feel anon, I understand it too well

>>81812171 (OP)
I'm going to create an alt soon to talk to a person who blocked me again. I am 100% sure that she blocked me because she doesn't think I care about her, this has happened once before. She is a very insecure and depressed person which hurts me because she is the greatest person I have ever met so she has no reason to be.

>>81821314
my gf didn't block me she just stopped talking to me, she's never online anymore at least it doesn't look like she's been online, that's the only thing that's giving me hope

>>81821286
Yeah, it may be so. But I am also the only one who can force the people close who tried recently to try again.... Even if it makes no difference, the people I cherish don't exist. It was all a ploy, I won't hold those close to me.

>>81821328
I don't really have people close to me, she was the only person in my life, felt like she pulled me out of limbo and was guiding me to paradise only to kick me back down to the deepest circle of hell

>>81812171 (OP)
Women are not loyal.

If you don't have enough experience you probably think this is "oh, you had one or two bad experiences and it ruined you." No. I observe how people interact around me. I've never even had a relationship. But a lot of women have shown interest in me, and I've seen how their interest flies all over the place. From one guy to another unpredictably. The only thing you can predict is their feelings will change, and it will change fast. How fast? I don't know. Could be today. It could be in the next 30 seconds. Maybe a month from now. It will change over the most retarded, frivolous reasons you can imagine. "I don't like the color you picked." "I don't like the way you hold that thing." "you play video games? >:(" I see how girls show interest in one guy, then in me the next day. 80% of women who have hit on me were taken already. Some with kids. The single young girls were no better. Like I said, their attention all over the place.

Relationships are for cucks. This is a fact. You know who is winning? Fuck and chuck chad. He's not invested. He doesn't give a damn who comes and who goes. Or volcels like me, who have had chances and chose not to.

>>81812171 (OP)
just go outside and stop gooning

>>81821390
I don't even goon!!!
>>81821385
yeah, she was nothing like this, otherwise it wouldn't hurt this much

>>81821429
All women are moody. I just have OCD so I hyper fixate on it. As a normie, you probably ignored her "moods."

>>81821441
normie? HA no I'm very autistic and I was afraid all the time that she was going to leave me