>>81813205 (OP)Honestly, I expect to be a drunk shitposter until the day I die at this point. Dying in a nursing home or hospital seems just as, if not, more hellish than becoming a bloated sack of shit alone in my apartment. Those videos/images of the corpses of fellow losers that shotgunned or OD'd used to shock me, but I've been reading more into how old people who age "healthy" die "naturally" and it really doesn't seem any better at all.
I think I'm content with being a mild alcoholic until I die at 75-80 alone. I'll certainly work for something better, but I dunno. Just saying, no need to be super down, OP. I unironically don't think your life choices have been that bad, even if I don't have the full story. I'm 26 but I've been booze shitposting every week since I was like 19. Not the same amount of experience as you, but I'm getting there.
