When was the last time you were actually happy?
Not short term like an hour of feeling relief or pleasure but generally happy with your state of life?
For me I don't think it's been since around 2018 and maybe early 2019. I have been very dissatisfied with life since and it has only gotten worse I think.
I kinda wish I got cancer or something because I feel scared to kill myself.

>>81817699 (OP)
Probably 2009
Its okay.
I guess I had a summer of happiness in 2017. Just stressfree and all that.

>>81817699 (OP)
I was lovebombed by a hot athletic central European MILF in 2018 for 2 weeks and its been a flat line ever since

>>81817699 (OP)
Idk I think never ever in my entire life. The only time where I think I was close to it was when I had a e-relationship until she simply ghosted me. Women are so evil.

>>81817699 (OP)
i've been depressed since i was 12, i'm almost 30 now
and before that, my parents would beat the fuck out of me for the most inane shit

so going by your standards, OP, i've never been "actually happy"

>>81817699 (OP)
I think around 2021. I was in a LDR with a girl I met on /soc/. We did meet up and have sex and stuff. But damn, just being able to get off work and talk to someone that actually wanted to talk to me and ask me about my day, was amazing. I was consistently happy for like 2 years at least. Wasn't happy before I met her and haven't been since. I wish I had a girl to talk to and hangout with.

>>81817699 (OP)
15 years ago when i was with my ex girlfriend, i still dream of her smiling even now...

>>81817699 (OP)
For a brief period during 2020/2021. Lockdowns were pretty great for me. Before that, the last time I was happy was probably elementary school.

>>81817699 (OP)
april. the whole month was amazing. march and may were pretty good too