How long do you think you can hold on?
One of my biggest concern is that one day I will lose my sanity and go batshit crazy before unheroing

>>81817848 (OP)
>sanity
i've already lost mine actually
life so far has been a constant fever dream, i feel like i should just snap out of it and get better, *be* better
and i've been trying
but it doesn't feel good, i dont feel anything anymore

i feel too deep down the rabbit hole
i peeked through the curtains
i looked into what i wasn't supposed too
and now i'm a dead man walking around this planet full of life

I harmed myself by punching a wall several times earlier today. I was getting too angry about the horrible situation I've been put in. What I really wanted was to do that to a few specific "people" until they died, but I don't want to deal with the aftermath of that. No matter what I do I'll be stuck all alone in this terrible world with nothing to look forward to and no one to ask for help. I really don't want to kill myself at all, but one day it might make more sense for me to do that than anything else