strong shell, weak core - /r9k/ (#81819401) [Archived: 349 hours ago]

Anonymous
7/14/2025, 1:31:46 AM No.81819401
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my face my soul spepper
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one part of me wishes to reach out to the world, to love it, to cherish it, to let it in and to enjoy all of it to the fullest. its a sweet, innocent part of me that wants to pull the world in.

another part of me knows that the world offers pain, torment, and true loss that will ultimately take away from you and let it in. this part of me wishes to push the world away.

I wish i didn't have to be fraught with this conflict. I want to be pure, loving, and innocent, but the world has embittered me. It keeps hurting me any time I let it in, and I need to push it away to be safe.

how do i deal with this? do i stay bitter forever or just become innocent and let myself be hurt?
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Anonymous
7/14/2025, 1:39:30 AM No.81819499
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>>81819401 (OP)
>I wish i didn't have to be fraught with this conflict. I want to be pure, loving, and innocent, but the world has embittered me. It keeps hurting me any time I let it in, and I need to push it away to be safe.
I'm sorry bro.
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Anonymous
7/14/2025, 1:57:08 AM No.81819718
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>>81819499
>I'm sorry bro.
people always say things like this when I tell them my issues, I understand they care and they wish they could help and I do appreciate that, but its never a solution. not to pick at you in particular here

I just wish that someone who went through this problem can just explain how to deal with it, it's so hard to learn to deal with this world, I just don't get it.
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Anonymous
7/14/2025, 2:31:01 AM No.81820044
>>81819718
can i give you one?
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Anonymous
7/14/2025, 2:37:03 AM No.81820078
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in order to get nice things in life you have to be a complete sociopathic asshole, you have to reject mid friends for preppy douchebags and gatekeep and lie and manipulate and do all the horrible things to other people that they have done to us, I'm not sure I even want to because I know I'd take it to another level
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Anonymous
7/14/2025, 2:42:34 AM No.81820107
>>81819401 (OP)
anon, I don't know if you're still in the thread but I want to give you my best answer

the average human lifespan is 80 years.

everything you said about the world is true. It can be one of the most beautiful places in all of existence and one of the most terrible and disgusting places in all of existence.

You can either spend the 80 years being hard and bitter, Robbing yourself of everything good in the world, turning your vision gray and your senses dull.

Or you can take the risk. Open yourself fully to the world, and enjoy all of the wonderful things in this world.

Anon, I want you to take the risk. I want you to let go completely of the hardness you carry in your heart and throw yourself at the world.

You can make the world so much brighter anon. I know you can.
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Anonymous
7/14/2025, 3:43:17 AM No.81820601
>>81820044
>can i give you one?
i would like solutions, yes

>>81820078
>in order to get nice things in life you have to be a complete sociopathic asshole
that's the part that hurts, being vile gets you ahead, but it hurts to do. its draining to be vile all the time, i don't have it in me. more often than not i just shut down instead.

>>81820107
>Or you can take the risk. Open yourself fully to the world, and enjoy all of the wonderful things in this world.

i've seen the consequences of this. people beat, children traumatized, marriages ruined, friendships betrayed, and life, money, and limb lost. trust is something that more often than not gets me and others around me burned, since all it takes is making a single mistake with one person to be thrown into hell.

i've been through hell already, i dont wish to suffer on wards. I could take the risks, but the times I do it just ends up being regret and pain. I always find myself in situations where I, or people around me, get hurt when I do let myself be weak.