Dudes, i earn 20k a month, but i'm a fucking virgin, with no confidence. I live with my mom and i cant even drive a fucking car. Anyone can guide me to stop being like this? i had enough of this kind of life, i feel pathetic. My brother has schizophrenia and my mother is really really apprehensive with me, probably because of my brother illness. I have like 450k on savings, because i live with my parents. Some women show interest in me, i'm quite attractive for normie standards, i have nice facial features, i'm average height (for an european), but i'm a complete sperg. Also, i'm fucking drunk right now. Ah, and i'm 30 years old.

>>81821194 (OP)
You are rich and I am poor. Why would I help you?

>>81821213
>Why would I help you?
Because i feel miserable. I earn this much because i'm an AI engineer. But the urge of end it all is getting stronger and stronger. I'm basically a system slave, i dont have anyone i love, i don't even care about myself, i just work because it is easy for me, is what i do the best. Also, i dont know if its my pessimism hitting on, but i feel that women are really really crap quality nowadays, way more that they were in 2010, they feel almost masculine.

u make 20k a month? learn how to drive. start there

>>81821363
>u make 20k a month? learn how to drive
I'm an absolute inept on anything that has to do with muscle memory. I can't even dance. And no, i'm not quadraplegic, i'm just clumsy af.

>>81821194 (OP)
you can give me some money

>>81821194 (OP)
The only barrier is mental and by far the easiest, get yourself treated get some pills or go to some retarded anonymous or some shit

>>81821374
you aren't. give yourself a chance and go to a driving school

>>81821352
why don't you just kill yourself then if I was rich like you. I wouldn't be crying here on /r9k

>>81821420
>you aren't. give yourself a chance and go to a driving school
I went 2 times to the driving school. and i'm just an inept on anything that doesn't have anything to do with maths or computers. I know this will sound a little crazy, but i feel like the act of driving is basically the most modern essential act of yourself confronting the world you live in, and i don't feel prepared for that. Just thinking about the chance of crashing another car, or person makes me really really tense.

>>81821445
>why don't you just kill yourself then if I was rich like you
Because i feel like asking for help. Everyone has their own problems. It turns out the only thing i'm good at is a completely monetizable skill. Do i really deserve to die because of that?

>>81821460
>completely monetizable skill.
You work with AI, my nigga you are replaceable by the same tool you work on. Yes please kill yourself I'm sure your parents would be happier, maybe even get a life insurance plan. So at least your parents have something, you are 30+ and can't drive. It's too late for you your life is ruined and you have no one to blame but yourself. End it ASAP.

>>81821447
how did it go when you went there 2 times? did you have in car lessons? i promise you, driving is the easiest thing to learn. you just need to get comfortable with it. your fear of crashing into others will go away the more you practice. do it with an instructor. you're overthinking it.

>>81821447
>Just thinking about the chance of crashing another car, or person makes me really really tense.
I was like this, I went to driving school in my home country in yurp (and failed the driving exam there) and took 40 hours of additional driving lessons in US because I was so nervous
then I bit the bullet and ordered a car online
I was on a freeway behind the wheel ONCE during the lessons
just get enough lessons to pass the exam and then car you won't care about denting a bit and start driving. Since you're more autismal like me, it just makes you learn slower, but driving is just a skill like cooking, with enough practice it'll come

tl;dr: try to conquer your own death.

Obs.: ignore my ungrammatical (linguistically) English.

>with no confidence

You give another people too much credit. It's not that they don't feel what you feel that prevent you doing those things (driving, sex, etc.), it's just that they're more idiot or impulsive or less romantic than you.

>earn 20k a month ... 450k on savings

Why you mention your financial condition that much?

>Just thinking about the chance of crashing another car ... Because i feel like asking for help

Try to think this way: you'll die. I'll die. Not in the conceptual or abstract or "far-far-away" like, no. Imagine, your heart stopping, your breath slowing, etc. A real death. Now imagine, how much time will people grief you? Or remember you? Someday, your name or your concept (the concept of you) will be mentioned or thought one last time. Then what? You'll die, I'll die. You've almost half million in savings, a brother with schizophrenia, a mother apprehensive (I imagine for your brother and for you being a social loser), 30 y/o and drunk. I've a house, a stable income (that allow me do what I want), both parents and wife are dead, I'm 33 y/o and don't drink... Maybe your fears are to hold off the fact that you'll die someday?

>>81821194 (OP)
>i earn 20k a month
>european
Can you get me a job pls I will do anything
Where are u from?

>>81821532
>You work with AI, my nigga you are replaceable by the same tool you work on.
I'm not, i'm telling you as an expert. What is sold nowadays as AI is basically a probabilistic machine, it is nowhere the same as real intelligence, it just a construct big enough to fake some qualities of intelligence.
We need a whole technological breakthrough to even get to tinker about the idea of real AI. If you only knew how the popular LLMs work, you would probably laugh your ass off, its so retarded.
>>81821546
how did it go when you went there 2 times? did you have in car lessons?
I did okay, but i lack the attention needed to drive, i really cant enter into the "alert mode" while driving. Also, i cant memorize all the signals and driving rules, i don't know why. I cant memorize technical stuff like crazy, but i can't memorize rules regarding driver priorities on certain situations.

>>81821604
>Why you mention your financial condition that much?
Because its the only thing i feel i'm valuable at, i'm basically a money printer for my parents. If i couldn't even say i'm good at something i would have probably killed myself years ago.
>Try to think this way: you'll die. I'll die.
Its not even the chance of dying what makes me nuts, its the chance of crashing onto other car and having to confront an irrationally angry guy. I'm really really inept at social interactions.

>>81821194 (OP)
Why don't you move out with all that cash

Women are CHAD only these days OP. Simple as.

>>81821709
>Why don't you move out with all that cash
why would i? i dont have a bad relationship with my parents. Also, i don't have a girlfriend, so i don't need that kind of "privacy".
>Women are CHAD only these days OP. Simple as.
Was really easier to get a woman back then, anon? I want to believe is a "them" issue, trust me it would be easier than to accept that i'm not and i will never be attractive enough to get the woman i like.

>>81821699

I've an idea of the social pressure that you face, life is a big shit and for the majority of people, your value is attached to your resources. But there are people out there (including women) that don't care to it. And you know you've various qualities. Since your work involve some logic (if I'm not mistake), use it to avail yourself, maybe yours feeling ("..I feel i'm valuable...") grow or expand to something else.

>its the chance of crashing onto other car and having to confront an irrationally angry guy

And this, is, fear, of, death. Your own death. What is the worst thing an angry guy can do to you (kill you)? And again, maybe you're creating an idea in your mind that it's not exactly what happens daily. You said you're European, I don't know if from the rich of poor side, anyway, where you live is probably much less violent than where I live, and the teaching (driving school or anything similar) more complete, therefore, considering the probabilities (someone very angry + someone irrational + someone that don't accept an 'I'm sorry, etc' + etc.), it is very low to improbable (you know, statistics terminology, etc.), and here, comes what I said, maybe you're giving too much credit (positive or negative) to other people, in general people only want to live their miserable lives deceiving themselves here and there and avoiding confusion, etc. "Reality is quite disappointing", you know.

Wow! That's good example of a primitive English!... but maybe, you can understand what I'm trying to say.

>>81821856
>What is the worst thing an angry guy can do to you (kill you)?
That would be rational. My fear is more like to block myself, because i dont even know how to react or what to do in that situation.
>You said you're European, I don't know if from the rich of poor side.
My parents are really poor. I'm way richer than them. But you know, i'm the provider now. My personal expenditures are really low, i live with them, i drink cheap beer, and my main hobby is to read books. I expend like 50% of my monthly salary on them and i save the rest.
>Wow! That's good example of a primitive English!... but maybe, you can understand what I'm trying to say.
I actually do, thanks dude. I will try to stop being a bitch for once, i really don't like this kind of life. But it is really really hard, it really feels uncomfortable.

>>81821742
>why would i?
To stop been a child. With earnings looks like you can rent without any strain so you should do. It necessary part of been adult, to have your own place and cut off control of parents if every part of your life
I don't suggest for to cut ties with you parents but you should distance.

>Also, i don't have a girlfriend, so i don't need that kind of "privacy".
It's also catch 22, big Ick if you are living with parents.

Start getting your own life.
But have no big hopes if you 30 and still virgin it's 90% forever.

>>81821194 (OP)
marry me i need a rich husband

>>81821946
>To stop been a child. With earnings looks like you can rent without any strain so you should do
That is probably true, but i dont even know how to drive a car, and the only places i would like to live are really really far from stores and shit.
>But have no big hopes if you 30 and still virgin it's 90% forever.
Yeah, i already feel like it will be the case. Anyways, i will not be able to live a normal life anyways, since i have an schizo brother i will have to take care of.

>>81821913

>I will try to stop being a bitch for once, i really don't like this kind of life. But it is really really hard, it really feels uncomfortable.

I wouldn't say "being a bitch", just someone with fears, I understand you anon, believe me, but something that I'd perceived is that everyone has fear, as I said, the idiots and impulsives appears to don't, but because they're idiots or impulsives. Try to conquer one fear at a time, e.g., about driving, take some private lessons, see that it's not that thing, at beginning you'll be overwhelmed but with time the commands, etc. will pass to your subconscious and will drive "without thinking". About being a virgin guy, be careful with women that only want your money, maybe, where you seek (women) is directly related to their conduct/moral/behavior/interests, etc. Take care.

>>81821213
>>81821194 (OP)
>20k a month
Poorfag confirmed

>>81821194 (OP)

>MY PAIN IS FARRRRR GREATER THAN YOOOUUUUUURRRRRSSSSSSS!!!!!

>>81822004
>but i dont even know how to drive a car, and the only places i would like to live are really really far from stores and shit.
Another thing. Necessity is the greatest drive to do things. While you are reliant on mother you can't grow up you don't need to. You tell me that you have doubts you can do basics of adults life alone and you asking how to grow up? Start connecting the dots.

>>81821194 (OP)
No sympathy for anyone with this kind of money. If you can't figure out how to enjoy life in your position then maybe just genuinely kill yourself. At least someone else could put it to better use. Fuck's sake. Half mil and posting on 4chan is far fucking worse than any of the homeless broke niggerfaggots here living in their car or whatever. You are infinitely more broken than that. Either way get the fuck off this board.

>>81821194 (OP)
hey, ignore the retards here and dont kys
I think you should try approaching life in a more natural way
you dont need to do those things cause you think youre behind in life, quite the opposite...
if you want to, you should learn to drive or get a gf cause it can be fun!!
I dont have that much money but I think I get you... for my country (Brazil) I do make a good amount
still, I know the things that make me cry are not at all related to money... KHHV, Tourette Syndrome...
Im turning 24 at the end of July and Ive been feeling like you for a while now, but trying to "not overthink life" is actually helping me
I leave a video I found that really got me, so I think you are gonna like it too...
>https://youtu.be/IC9VIdNUIqg

>>81821194 (OP)
whats ur discord? i can help u with confidence potentially, which is something ive always wanted to do as a career. i struggled with confidence too (as an attractive virgin) but a learned a lot of things that actually help.

>>81821194 (OP)
wtf is your job that you make 20k a month, wtf