> lose contact with fp for weeks
> start talking again
> lost again after just a day, but this time it's final

i can't stop crying
please give me a good reason not to give up on human interaction as a whole or just kill myself
i don't know what to do with myself anymore
i feel so sick and empty, and it'll be a recurring feeling for the rest of my life because my brain can't fathom the concept of not being unhealthily attached to someone

>>81828358 (OP)
I am stroking my dick and cumming

>>81828365
I'm naked and hacking off right now

Make me your fp instead

>>81828358 (OP)
the fuck is a fp

god damn lingo

>>81828372
vro you shouldn't be hacking it off O_O

accept solitude
not spoken to my fp in 2 years, not had any consistent friends since
never really grow to accept it but it gets easier being alone

>>81828396
it's the term bpd people use for "best friend" for some reason
means favorite person

>>81828358 (OP)
Holy shit kill yourself Jana, please.

>>81828413
odd

thanks anon

>>81828413
you sound unbelievably retarded
pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9806505/
please educate yourself

>>81828408
how do you manage the loneliness? i've had periods of not having a fp, but it always feel like a massive piece is missing from my life

>>81828461
sounds like gayshit not reading

>>81828461
well he told me what it means

smart in my books

>>81828461
He was right though and nobody sane uses "fp".

>>81828358 (OP)
First of all you should stop using girls as avatars as a grown ass man.

>>81828358 (OP)
You lost your moral compass/emotional center/comfort person/whatever. It sucks and you feel empty and terrified of yourself right now. I get it. I just lost mine not long ago and already replaced her with a vastly superior besty/fwb/gf/whatever we are, you know how ill defined our relationships are at first....
Anyway, you'll be alright. Just let yourself feel what you need to feel and move on, that's all you really can do.
>>81828413
It's significantly deeper than a best friend, you wouldn't get it.

>>81828480
>how do you manage the loneliness?
very hard, just constant distraction and escapism, always been lonely you never really get numb to it
trying to be healthy and productive though

>>81828552
>deeper than a best friend
>already replaced the last one

>>81828461
>A data mining process was conducted using raw data collected from online communities, such as blogs and social networks. An in-depth review of the information to better understand the natural course of the FP relationship was also conducted.

Extremely flawed method of data gathering. Yes, e-kitten types tend to have EXTREMELY destructive relationships with their fps. If you have BPD and actually make some level of effort and managing it instead of acting like a spoiled 5 year old constantly having an fp can actually be a genuinely amazing and emotionally rewarding experience for both parties assuming you both go into it with the right mindset and are two people that can make that shit work.

>>81828589
I am codependent. I never said otherwise.

>>81828589
>replying to the narc
Do better.

>>81828358 (OP)
You will eventually find a new favorite person, it is human nature, your nature.
I can't say that it will be easy to exist until then, but I know it won't actually kill you despite how much it hurts.
Chin up, idiot, everything is gonna be alright.

>>81828552
i really appreciate your words, thank you
i hope you're right

>>81828563
and i hope you can feel a bit better one day.. being lonely is horrifying. you're much stronger than me

>>81828708
just because my brain works a certain way by default doesn't mean it gets any easier or makes up for what i've lost
i know you have good intentions with this and i am very grateful, but the entire process feels like the person i lost died and i am left to grieve for the rest of my life. i've had fps from nearly a decade ago that i am still not recovered from and still yearn for. i miss them all individually and it feels like the worst thing in the world to me. i guess that might sound stupid, but having a new one doesn't replace any previous ones. it hurts all the same. this one hurts worse than most others because i was the second choice, but that's how it had to be.

I wish everyone were assigned a homeless man to meditate with.
You could just sit together and not say anything, maybe you don't even speak the same language.
Warming your hands at the fireplace is enough to find tomorrow.

>>81828358 (OP)
I lost mine two weeks ago, it doesn't stop hurting.

>>81829193
i'm scared that's the case.. i hope you can find some peace soon, anon

>>81829312
There is no peace, only hell. Complete and total hell. It took years for me to be somewhat normal after the last time, and I still never recovered fully from it.

Why do you bpdemons even enter e-relationships when obviously they wont satisfy you and are shallow and easy to leave from. I swear you just want to be the one to block and ghost. If not, enter a REAL relationship, were you know where they live and regularly visit each other. Or better yet live toghether

>>81829668
it wasn't an e-relationship, faggot. either you're projecting quite hard or you've never had a meaningful friendship in your life

>>81829668
I have never broken up with anyone (they break up with me). Every relationship I have ever entered is with the intention of making it real, permanent, and I visit them and plan out to live with them. Furthermore; since I started using the internet in the 1990s I have never once ghosted anyone on any platform ever for any reason, and the only time I have ever blocked anyone anywhere online was if it was an email spam bot, kicking a bot that was designed to just crapflood an IRC room, or blocking gold selling bots on mmos. I have never blocked a person for any reason ever, as blocking is for pussies.

>>81829782
Please marry me please please please

>>81828358 (OP)
why final? fp status cancelled?

>>81829795
I am not a woman, also this >>81829193 loss was a fiance who left me at random... I cannot handle any relationships now.

>>81829805
it was an ultimatum from his partner of either blocking me or losing what they had, his living situation, etc. we can't be in contact anymore.
the safer choice is obviously a given, but i'm not going to act like i'm not still hurt and upset. i feel replaced as selfish and irrational as that is.

>>81829819
Also I am not OP, though that was obvious.

>>81828461
>educate yourself
How about you stop being mentally ill.
I used to be in the psych field once upon a time. I stopped before getting the final clear for [redacted] because I developed a distaste for it. I had never once encountered the term "favorite person". Granted I never worked with bipolar types. If "FP" is a thing it's extremely localized to bipolar peeps in a way that no one who is fortunate enough to avoid interacting with them will know it.

>>81829193
>two weeks
During the unbearable times, take pain killers like aspiring or tylenol. Emotional pain is treated by the body like physical pain in severe instances. It's one of the reasons alcohol works to numb the pain.
Aside from that, good luck. It took me years to stop hurting everyday (granted not 24/7 just small episodes daily), and another couple of years before it healed up as much as it ever would. I dunno how attached you were / how you'll heal up, but the possibility of a long road is very much there.

>>81829956
>I used to be in the psych field once upon a time
>bipolar types
bpd stands for borderline personality disorder, not bipolar

>>81829956
>During the unbearable times, take pain killers like aspiring or tylenol. Emotional pain is treated by the body like physical pain in severe instances. It's one of the reasons alcohol works to numb the pain.
I have been using pain killers like crazy actually lately because of this along with a physical pain issue that resolved recently, I have been avoiding alcohol so I don't do something stupid and make things worse.
> It took me years to stop hurting everyday
Same, the last time this happened it took many years of it hurting constantly every moment. I still hurt from it admittedly, but it wasn't life ruining pain where it was all I could think of all the time constantly after a few years. I am very much at a place where what I have now it is all I think about all the time constantly with this though. I expect this will take multiple years, if not decades frankly.

>>81830059
Though all of June I was binge drinking like crazy because things weren't going well.

>>81829768
most anons can't think outside of the realm that women are only good for sex. It's actually why so many are incels. Like they have no idea what it's like to genuinely just be friends with a woman. Like don't waste your time trying to explain what love is to a robot. You might as well try explaining the concept of how a keyboard works to an ant well you're at it.