>>81844429
>>81844910
nta but I come from a fucking horrid childhood. Abuse, neglect, poverty, then childrens homes and foster care, my life was fucked before I was even able to have it in my hand to mould.
I was literally homeless at 15 (working at 14) and could not even rent legally until I was 16.
There is a christian expression "you cannot build a house on sand" meaning you need a strong foundation. My foundation is weak and I was never able to get myself into a position where I could build that metaphorical house (a good life)
People in the life like kids at school, on the streets and in my teenage years all made everything worse too.
Then from that,just when I to a position where I was going to make something of my life, got hit with illness and more tragedy, after I overcome all that tried to make something of my life agin, got hit with serious mental illness. These 2 illnesses have ruined my life completely and now I am just waiting to die. Hoping it will come sooner rather than later.
Seems the hand the life dealt me was very harsh and this place is hostile to me.
Just need it to end.
I dont see how any amount of wage cuckery could make a broken irreparable life and illnesses any better.
No amount of wealth, or sex or material possessions are gonna fix that.
