Why do I still feel hurt and broken from things that happened so long ago
The stupid Ethel Cain drama and his legalize incest shirt bullshit and seeing people giving him a pass it's just so fucking painful and it just pulls up bad feelings
just having painful shit and missing pieces and other fucking shit from other guys and repeating that cycle from when I was a kid so the way into adulthood and even the present, I just don't feel like I can ever escape the pain and I keep reenacting the same dynamics and the same situations and getting hurt over and over again and I can't do drugs anymore and idk how to cope bc idk how to make friends or show affection with guys without being sexual and it makes me want to jump off a cliff

learn from your mistakes or suffer them forever

>>81844306
I try but some of the things aren't mistakes they're just immutable things
like the pain and hurt hounding me every day won't go away no matter what I do. I could try dating but that always ends poorly, so should I learn to not date? or what if life is too painful, and the mistake is living?

>>81844375
have you tried healing the trauma?

>>81844294 (OP)
Am I supposed to know who "Ethel Cain" is? Did you know him personally? Hell, unironically, how does it effect YOU personally?

>>81844294 (OP)
>The stupid Ethel Cain drama
you are chronically online, stop using the internet and speak with a therapist

>>81844403
yeah I've done a fair amount of therapy and I have gotten better, but some days feel worse than others

>>81844414
just seeing people defending open incest fetishism is upsetting I guess

>>81844421
I'm not chronically online, I don't even use twitter I only read about it on lolcow farms

>>81844447
there are lots of different types of therapy like EMDR etc.
i think normal talk therapy mainly helps people whose issues aren't that bad

>>81844490
primarily DBT and a number of group therapies, I tried EMDR for a couple sessions but it was too overwhelming and the therapist recommended I wait until I'm more stable to pursue it again
I do have a regular therapist but she missed our last appointment and hasn't reached out to me yet so lol
of all things, yoga has been helpful at times but it feels more short term IDK