i don't have any friends, or family, or anything at all. i don't even have online friends. i have nothing to look forward to in my day to day life. i'm just stuck inside my tiny communist apartment mindlessly browsing the internet in an attempt to numb myself day after day until i pass out. i don't enjoy anime and vidya anymore, or anything that used to make me happy, really. everything i do feels so worthless because i'm doing it all alone. i have no one to share anything with. i have no happy memories of my past. i have 0 life experience at my age. i've got no future. i just don't know what to do anymore. i feel scared and anxious just by existing every single day. i wish i had the courage to off myself right now in this second. i'll probably do it on my birthday because i can't handle another birthday alone like this. the thought of christmas and new years is dreadful as well. i wish euthanasia was legal here or something.

>>81844335 (OP)
hey man do you need someone to talk to? you can share your mental illness with me if you want

>>81844335 (OP)
when is your birthday?

>>81844354
you're gonna hate me and ghost me because i'm just an emotional vampire in my current state. and i have nothing to offer you in return for your kindness.
>>81844377
it's on the 4th of September

>>81844423
>i have nothing to offer you in return for your kindness.
it is not kindness i am just bored and i enjoy takling to mentally ill people. maybe we relate to each other and i dont mind you sperging all your feeligns to me i like listening to people talk

>>81844445
>it is not kindness i am just bored and i enjoy takling to mentally ill people
i'm sorry, i don't want to talk to you

>>81844481
suit yourself you got someone genuinely interested in you and you are pushing them away. i respect that honestly

>>81844504
something about the way you worded your previous post just really rubbed me the wrong way. the whole, nonchalant "i'm just bored and enjoy talking to mentally ill people" schtick. i can already tell we wouldn't get along just based on that. i'd rather talk to someone similar to me rather than someone who sees me as free entertainment when they're bored.

>>81844544
well i didn't want to sound weird i just wanted to be clear that i'm doing this for myself as well because you were worried about not "returning my kindness". people dont really talk to other people they dont have an interest in life is about mutually benefitial trades
> i'd rather talk to someone similar to me
we are all robots bro we are all fucked in the head

>>81844569
i don;t know. im just really overwhelmed right now. i can't eveen think right

>>81844335 (OP)
i don't even know what would make my life worth living at this point. i just don't see any way out for me.

>>81844335 (OP)
anon if u want we can be online friends. im in the same situation as you kinda

>>81845009
>im in the same situation as you kinda
what makes it "kinda"?

>>81845009
I also dont rlly have anyone to talk to either, i have family but they don't care about anything that's going on in my life and I spend a lot of my life on the internet since im neet w no future

>>81844335 (OP)
romania sounds based. do you use infoarena.ro and filelist?

>>81845304
in that case my tag is nezumikamen99
>>81845315
never heard of infoarena
haven't used filelist since i was a kid

i really wish i could just die quickly and painlessly right now. everything hurts too much

>>81845675
get your butt raped and die of anal hemorrhage

>>81844335 (OP)
Your a victim of a story that doesn't even exist. It's not intrinsic the story you tell yourself is not real thus you cannot be lacking at this moment just go outside and talk to people

>>81845687
hmm that... doesn't sound painless
>>81845918
>just go outside and talk to people
anytime i tried this, they got weirded out by me. because i'm a shut-in neet with no life experience. so i can't relate to them or talk about the things they wanna talk about. even if i fake acting normal and make up fake stories about my life, eventually the facade always breaks and they realize i made everything up and distance themselves for me. i wish it was as easy as "just go outside and talk to people" for someone in my situation. also i'm ugly (face full of deep acne scars) and short (5'4) :(

i remember your posts about wanting to get to the USA
i wish i could help you

>>81846140
5'4 as a european guy... You should actually kill yourself. Not even joking

>>81846420
thank you for the kindness at least
i wish i could get there and try to get a job
>>81846436
i would do it right now if i wasn't such a spineless coward. i need something to push me over the edge. i think my birthday might actually do the trick

>>81844335 (OP)
anon you shouldn't kys yourself, you were born a white male in europe. you won the lottery. AND you have internet and can browse it all day. Pay for a month of chatgpt and learn yourself how to do something with computers, its amazing at teaching. Maybe you don't enjoy consooming anymore because your brain has had enough of that and now youre supposed to be in create mode. A family or internet content or.. anyway good luck have fun maybe try some marijuana to get kickstarted your enthusiasm

>>81846523
>in europe
not all parts of europe were made equal. the quality of life in eastern europe is pure hell and i'll never be able to do the things i wanna do here
>learn yourself how to do something with computers
i'm too stupid to work with computers. i failed math when i was in high school, and last time i did an iq test my result was 85 or something
>A family
no woman would ever want a family with someone like me
>try some marijuana
marijuana is illegal here last i checked and i don't wanna get in trouble just for drugs

>>81846485
dont listen to the kys guy
i really wish i could help

>>81844423
>i'm just an emotional vampire in my current state
You mean just like how you're Romanian? kek.

>>81846765
thank you for the kindness again
you are very sweet
>>81846787
this made me chuckle kek
also
>pic related
tfw no Hiroya Oku girl

>>81844335 (OP)
>i don't have any friends, or family, or anything at all. i don't even have online friends.
Other than my family I don't talk to, same man. It genuinely sucks living like this. Anytime I think of my future I get scared and anxious, I'm not sure why but it only started happening this week. I have no one, the only person I did have killed himself almost three years ago and I've been living alone ever since, stuck in my room while I neet off of my parents. At least when I was delusional I was happy but now I can't even have that. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm religious but it's getting harder day by day. I always feel like I'm in the verge of tears but I can never cry. I don't see what is the point of living anymore, and I'm falling down to the same depression I thought I escaped.

>>81846485
Dont come to america, its a shithole here and we are going to collapse economically. Even my immigrant father (fully legal) is talking about moving to Canada because of how shit its become and he's a hardcore American patriot who used to get mad if you criticize America in any way.

>>81847484
everything in life feels so worthless when you're all alone. i wish i had people i could create happy memories and live real experiences with. stuff that'll stick with me forever and i'll remember even on my deathbed. that's literally all i need out of life. but i'll never have it because i'm mentally ill, old and stuck in the middle of nowhere in some eastern european village for the rest of my life. i just feel so hopeless and stuck. just like you, i feel anxious and i feel like crying every second i'm awake. it's like that feeling after an accident where you know you're gonna die and it's only a matter of time and you can't delay it anymore. i tried so hard to change my cirumstances only to fall down in the exact same place every time. i just wanna die and end my suffering already.
>>81847504
trust me, even at its worst, the quality of life there is a billion times better than whatever we've got going on here

>>81847539
>trust me, even at its worst, the quality of life there is a billion times better than whatever we've got going on here
Go to Canada instead, our high quality of life is rapidly eroding. We don't have free healthcare or education here. Infrastructure is failing everywhere. Crime is also really bad.

Canada is basically America with European amenities. It is also easier to get citizenship there. They import immigrants like no tomorrow. America is notoriously one of the hardest countries to get citizenship in the entire world.

>>81844335 (OP)
I guess I sympathize, being in Croatia
the environment sucks a lot right now but I'm pushing through
I think you could make friends if you try hard enough
maybe move to Croatia

>>81847580
the only thing that keeps me from considering Canada is that i really don't like the cold. i went through enough harsh, bleak, desolate eastern euro winters in my lifetime. i'd be happy if i didn't have experience winter ever again. but i'd still take the opportunity if i had a canadian fren who'd wanna help me move there.
>>81847624
well... i don't speak Croatian
wouldn't i be even more lonely and isolated if i went there?

>>81847661
oh that escaped my mind, you wanna move to the US of CA because of english
well most sub 30 people speak english now too but yeah you would be in an awkward position unless you specifically made certain connections
I wish I could hug you anon

>>81847723
>I wish I could hug you anon
that genuinely means the world to me
i really appreciate it ;-;

anxiety is not even letting me sleep anymore
i think this might be the end... owari da...

>>81847880
anon this may be creepy but would you wanna hang out sometime in the future if I add you?
I can't right now but I'll probably be traveling in a few months and I could stop by Romania
I love meeting people, just recently I met by a French guy by pure coincidence
so I genuinely look forward to going to Romania, exploring and making a connection

>>81849836
if you'd actually drop by here, then i'd love to hang out! it'd be like a dream come true, actually

aughh it's all so messed up and tiresome

>>81844335 (OP)
i get you anon i feel the same exact way as you do. i cant offer much other than my solidarity and prayers that things will get better for you. try your best