I am going to kill myself by self inducing hypothermia this winter. It will literally take less then a few hours. Just gonna wait till the next time its 24 or less degrees at night, then im gonna go to the woods in the middle of the night, douse myself with ice water, and finally be free. It will hurt but it will hurt less then going through this nightmare. seriously just cant stand this shit anymore, its just so painful and disgusting, being alive is hurting my soul and there is not nearly enough good to even consider staying.

have you considered ordering a pizza instead

I know something that'll make it much less painful but I don't want to make the idea more attractive to you :<

Whatever. Worst thing that could happen is that you don't end up dying, just terribly crippled in mind and body.

>>81844735 (OP)
Watch onimai at least before you die

>>81844754
>I know something that'll make it much less painful but I don't want to make the idea more attractive to you :<
What is that?

You won't do it, they never do.

>>81844744
ive had pizza, its good, not good enough to warrent staying alive lol
>>81844754
im doing it literally as soon as the weather drops roflcopter
>>81844768
no im good

>>81844776
>What is that?
I'll never tell you!!!


>>81844787
>im doing it literally as soon as the weather drops roflcopter
Please don't.

Bitch nigger you are not straight

>>81844782
1 mil die from suicide every year
>dey neber do!
YOU never do, pussy, me tho, i gotta go be free, buh bye!

Your survival instinct will kick in and you'll seek warmth after ten minutes. No long suicide method ever works - even if you truly want to die, your body won't let you

>>81844795
>I'll never tell you!!!
I am someone who badly needs to hear something that will help me, I am also not OP.

>>81844797
>1 mil die from suicide every year
Yeah and most of the deaths are by gun or some other actually lethal method faggot. You're just going to get a little chilly

>>81844795
Why, so i can fucking suffer more? So i can be sad and alone and angry another fucking year, or decade? For what? To stay longer in a fucking body i hate, on a planet i hate, in a reality i hate, no fuck this, im done
>>81844796
more random nonsense insults! coooooool yaaay ha ha!

>>81844835
guess we will find out in due time :)
>you never know if you dont go
>you never shine if you dont glow

>>81844820
>I am someone who badly needs to hear something that will help me, I am also not OP.
No. Sorry for being such a faggot.

>>81844838
>Why
I don't need to give you any definitive set of reasons. I just want you to know how much of a waste it'll all be.

>>81844868
bigger fucking waste to stay here thats for sure

>>81844868
>Sorry for being such a faggot.
Then give me a reason to go on, I have lost absolutely everything and everyone. I cannot fix it either.

>>81844889
>bigger fucking waste to stay here thats for sure
Pic is literally me and you.

>>81844898
>Then give me a reason to go on
First, what drove you to this point in the first place? I'm all ears.

>>81844849
It's such an ineffective method that it won't even be considered an attempt, but a light stroll at night

>>81844909
oh funny i dont recall ever getting a hug lol. Anyways im not the other anon i just always wanted to die since kndergarden. No reason, i just look at like and fucking hate it, always did
>>81844915
it will literally induce death in 2 hours max lel, im fucking outta here

Ever heard of helium

>>81845109
i have tried multiple times to convince my parents to buy a tank and mask so i can kms but
>das dengerous!!!
k ill go freeze myself to death to fix your mistake for you lol

>>81844909
>First, what drove you to this point in the first place? I'm all ears.
I lost the most important person in my life. Not only that they were someone that I was completely reliant on to function, and were heavily integrated into my daily life. Afterwards my mental health collapsed and I had to binge drink to even wake up anymore, this caused everything else in my life to collapse around me. Now I just lay in bed all day, everyday. My health that took years to fix is ruined, I lost everyone, my life is in shambles, and I am old.

>>81845240
>to convince my parents to buy
Oh so that's why you can't just get a gun, kek. Blow your head off when you're 18 anon, you don't want to get caught attempting suicide and have your parents too afraid to let you go outside on your own for the remainder of your adolescence.

>>81845350
Not me
>>81845442
Im 23, ive been to the mental ward 3 times, i failed school, cant drive, cant work, ect

>>81845488
>Not me
I was replying to someone who was talking to me, not OP. I skipped over my history with disability, psychwards, etc.

>>81845559
They were not all ears, and after I tried to hijack OPs thread because their method is goofy. Damn...

>>81845831
my method will kill me in two hours max lol

>>81845843
Hypothermia is painful, especially at such relatively high temperatures. It's only late into it stops being painful, or when exposed to ultra extreme cold the pain doesn't last long.

>>81844735 (OP)
Just go for a night walk in the woods in a tea shirt. Hypothermia sucks a lot less when it creeps up on you. Like seriously, you don't really realize you're dying until you're dead.
I feel like just dumping ice water on yourself in freezing temps would be worse than setting yourself on fire.

Yeah but if you go outside into the woods at night you'll end up seeing something really beautiful and wonderful and it will change the course of your life forever

>>81845874
still like an hour max tho and i got to gtfo of here
>oh but running away from the prison complex is painfill youd legs ged tired :(
got to escape, need to escape, escape, escape
>>81845876
I mean i will gradually iduce more ice water, remove clothes as i go deeper into the woods yeah

>>81845893
i went out into the woods at night just recently and seeing the moon and stars and animals made me want to die even more lol, DISGUSTING VILE UNIVERSE

>>81845908
>seeing the moon and stars and animals made me want to die even more lol
how come?

>>81845916
I just find it overwhelmingly gross. The sunset, flowers, trees, streams, gross, fucking gross. How do people find it beautiful? I dont. Its fucking disgusting. Im forced to exist here? For decades? Oh god. No, i wont do it, gonna kill myself, cant stand looking at this disgusting shit, might as well live inside the organs of a deep sea fish, DISGUSTING stars, gross sun, gross plants and animals, gross me, gross humans, gross gross gross. I look at the sun and feel the same "EW" i get when looking at a blobfish

>>81844735 (OP)
> Do a flip faggot
One less degenerate

>>81845945
I suppose you still have 4-6 months to decide, depending where you live

>>81845962
4 months left to suffer more like it lol
i recall feeling this way for years. Stars are tumors. Trees are tumors. Its all tumors, Its all fucking nasty, i hate being this thing, i HATE being this

>>81845979
well hopefully winter never comes again :D

>>81845984
>hee hee i hope u suffer longer, suffer MORE hee hee ha ha! suffer suffer! hee hee!
k.

>>81845993
No, it does sound terrible. Seeing everything as a tumor. Sorry, anon.

wanna chat?

>>81846002
its just so tumorlike in nature...very tumoresque
>>81846004
ok. what do you want to chat about..i will tell you in advance, i caused multiple therapists and psychologists to quit

>>81844768
Based. Onimai was a fun anime. The manga is good too. Just make sure to pick the right translation.

>>81844735 (OP)
make it look like you encountered some supernatural entity and died trying to escape

>>81846055
ok based, i unironically will, this is a great idea, i will tear the clothes off and cut myself making it seem like i was running from something lol

>>81844735 (OP)

I tried it a couple of times anon, although the ambient temperature wasn't near enough to kill me in few hours, I had the will to stand there after taking a cold shower with clothes one while on DXM, hoping that time would work fast enough. I ran out of patience and returned to my bed, because warmth is nice.

It's not really an effective method (you can tell since I'm here) if you want to go out quickly, BUT it's painless under certain conditions depending on both your body and outside weather. If it snows, just drink enough alcohol or take some sleeping pills while resting outside, don't eat for at least 3 days to lower your body's calories reserves and ultimately, don't back off.

>>81845350
I genuinely have no words. I sincerely apologize. I hope my prayers can suffice in any way.

>>81845831
>They were not all ears
I was gone for a bit. I just have nothing more that may be of value to say.

>>81846273
It's all good anon, no one can be around constantly.

>>81846314
Though I wish they would come back so I had some sort of hope, and ability to do things again. That's not really a randon anon's problem though, it's just yelling at the void.

>>81846713
OP Here. I never expect to get help from 4chan, i go ti chatgpt when i need real advice.

I hard respect this suicide method. What you should really do is drink a bottle of vodka though to numb yourself before venturing forth into the cold embrace of death. Classic Russian exit.

>>81844735 (OP)
I said the same shit but didnt go through with it, you wont either, remember me when you step back inside after you got too cold

>>81846755
i got to escape, need to escape, will escape. Got to escape. Got to escape. Got to escape.

>>81846739
good idea, and i wont eat for a few days too

>>81846764
Lmao so dramatic, yeah I was the same way when I was younger

>>81844735 (OP)
I'm from rural northern michigan. There's an unusually high suicide rate there due to the long winters and lack of sun(also a really high rate of alcoholism). This is a pretty common suicide method there. A guy I know found the corpse of a woman in his barn who did it. She went in the barn, drank until she passed out, and never woke up. She did it in the winter but he didn't find the body until the spring. It was frozen solid for months.

>>81846786
you sound just like the mental ward doctors
>you wont REALLY do it
hey, i hope someday you man up like me and go back to trying to die. You can do it! We can do it!

>>81846804
you wont do it until something so bad happens to you you'll be forced to kill yourself out of panic, like being accused of a felony or something or about to become homeless

as long as you have a bed and roof your body will refuse to die, you'll get cold and then take a hot shower and cry yourself to sleep after. maybe its better that way.

>>81846819
i was accused and found guilty of felonies prior interestingly. Anyways enjoy being forced into this nightmare until youre allowed to die, im gonna try to leave early, lol

>>81844735 (OP)
Godspeed.
I wish the weather was cold enough here to try that myself.