When you go on desu archive and find a really cringe post you made in February

>>81847548 (OP)
Oof. I am not proud of some things I've posted. I was reactive and vindictive because I was upset. Lot of regret in things. Do you ruminate?

>>81847610
yes i ruminate a lot
did you post those things under your trip?
a trip wouldn't matter in my case because it wasn't embarrassing but instead hurtful and i hope i didn't hurt anyone with what i said. most insults don't mean anything on 4chan but what i said seriously could have hurt someone.
i normally don't care and am glad when people are hurt but i have empathy for people on 4chan because people here are struggling

>>81847548 (OP)
Waaah text on a screen on an anonymous website ;_; r-right...?

>>81847548 (OP)
I hate niggers and I also think OP is a complete faggot.

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>>81847627
Yeah. This one and the one before 4chan reset trip codes.I was lashing out at someone I cared about. Said things that were not true. I was upset and wanted her to feel the same hurt I was feeling. Said stuff about me and things about how I felt that were not true to cause hurt. Was accused of stuff and felt frustrated at being misunderstood and misspercieved and got to the point I was worked up and my brain said fuck it you say I'm this then I'll be it and just went off for days at times. Not how I would be IRL but something about here and text just made it easy to react like that. Ashamed of it and am very judgemental/hurtful thoughts of myself for things. Repeated those thoughts at her for her to feel. Makes me sick to think about and I just hope it wasn't her there or she never sees that shit I didn't mean it, what I meant is I cared about her and was hurt so that's what I said .

I'm glad you have empathy. I can relate to that. I enjoy the edge but I really enjoy when someone asks medical/psychology stuff because I can help with that and make a difference for them.

You are smart to be anonymous. Despite what others say, I always sign with my trip. I only didn't sign for a short period when accused for so long and reacted by not signing and being shit to who was accusing me but without a signature to push them to be grateful I signed. I have my own reason for always signing though.

I cringe at stuff I posted a decade ago. I should have dated classmates instead of browsing this god forsaken website.

I just have to accept my faults for the mistakes I made. Just really difficult feeling that I caused harm with the stuff I said above. That rumination (" Mike , ....) thoughts are really difficult to deal with. Even after all the time and effort working through it and growing from those mistakes it doesn't get rid of that hurt.