I think something is broken inside me. I'm a little less human now, and I dont think I'll ever get it back

>>81853251 (OP)
just look in the mirror and stare at yourself for a while
it'll sink in

>>81853251 (OP)
The only time I remember crying in my entire life was once 10 years ago when my grandpa (the only person who ever cared for me) was nearing death, then I couldn't get a single tear afterwards even when he actually died.
I am a wreck of a human being but I really wish I could cry, I remember it feels a bit nicer afterwards.

>>81853262
Tried that before. Just look and feel a bit hollow.

>>81853304
Sorry to hear that, brother. You ever find anyone else that cares?

>>81853320
>tried that
well i got nothing
another alternative is to be on the brink of death *but* in a situation where you are not in control
say, being a hostage in a shoot-out or something

>>81853359
Well I did join the infantry in hopes that I would die. Obviously didn't pan out. I did have someone point a gun at me once during a PTSD fit but I didn't cry, and instead wrestled him for the gun like a dumbass

>>81853386
>wrestled him for the gun
you've a broken heart but your mind still works - impressive

>>81853251 (OP)
Don't worry, it'll come.

>>81853406
It's weird. I spend every day wishing I was dead but my survival instincts are still intact.