When was the first time you suspected you were mentally ill? For me it was a couple years ago when I was supposed to go on vacation with a group of friends. I opted out last moment in the morning when our trip would start. The night before I couldn't sleep because the thought of having to spend two full weeks with them without having some privacy for myself and having to share a hotel room with them was so scary to me. I told them I had to do some super important work for uni that stressed me so much I couldn't told them earlier