is anyone else here a joyless being that doesnt give a fuck about anything or enjoy anything?

i basically just think about how i am mentally ill all day, and how i dont enjoy anything. i cant even get the motivation to get up and go outside and when i do i just think about how its hot and i wish i was doing nothing.

im in psychiatry/therapy now and got put on meds but i dont even feel any different. its been like this for like 6 years now.

>>81865124 (OP)
What do you think would make you feel better? I think that enjoyment I could have from basic stuff often gets stolen by thinking that it's a waste of time and that there is something else I should be doing that is more important and good but I can't have it so I am forced to cope.

>>81865474
im not sure, this reality seems evil down to its core.

>>81865124 (OP)
only because its more painful to have the capacity to care, only to have your care wither and go to waste

>>81865493
I like your op pic btw. If you can see evil then there must be good as well. Did you ever feel like fighting the darkness?

>>81865124 (OP)
I think being this way hurts my intelligence desu

>>81865124 (OP)
What a beautiful woman. I seek to see the act of her shooting her shadow