Life or world or people won, I'll take a hint and kill myself today. Finally everyone gets what they want. I don't know why it took me that long

>>81870201 (OP)
just treat you depression anon

literally nobody wins if you kys

>>81870201 (OP)
Every time I would try to attach an image from my trip in Japan and try to inspire you to live because the world has beautiful places worth exploring caused by phone to run out of memory and my post to get wiped.
I hope you go on vacation and enjoy the world anon

>>81870201 (OP)
Don't kill yourself. I can't really give you much advice, I'm almost at that point myself, but there's always the tiny chance that you might find something or someone worth living for

>>81870228
Lol. Literally everyone hates me and treats me worse than shit. The universe has been telling me to kill myself for my entire life. I've just been deluded about it. "Yeah next year I'll have friends and accomplish all my goals and everything will be fine". Meanwhile everything only gets worse

>>81870252
Yeah if you have money, I don't.

>>81870255
There isn't. That's just your brain trying to keep you alive. You wouldn't play the lottery with massive stakes, so why keep living for a 01% chance things end up well, when you're ignoring the 99% chance of things staying shit because you were born that way.

>>81870201 (OP)
It's my birthday and I was going to make a post like this. Only a few people would care and it would be a problem for them.

>>81870273
Well you can go on a "trip" for under $20 with some hallucinogenic drugs but you might have a bad trip
Get what you pay for to a degree.

>>81870273
>Lol. Literally everyone hates me and treats me worse than shit. The universe has been telling me to kill myself for my entire life. I've just been deluded about it. "Yeah next year I'll have friends and accomplish all my goals and everything will be fine". Meanwhile everything only gets worse

yeah being ostricized sucks but at the end of the day you always have yourself

stop seeking love from ppl who treat you like shit

I know it hurts

not being part of a pack and being treated like garbage regularly fucked me up to

but fuck it bro I will be the person I want to be

I dont care what anyone else thinks of me

as far as I am concerned the only standard I have to meet is my own

>>81870283
I don't care anymore. I tried living for the sake of those few people and everything got worse.

>>81870281
I don't know anymore. If there's a 1% chance I'll take it but I'm pretty sure it's far far less than that at this point

>>81870287
You've never had any sort of responsibility
Have you thought about being a volunteer firefighter or helping Big Brothers Big Sisters

I'm thinking about killing myself next year, I probably won't try it this year just because there's some stuff coming out I don't want to miss. My entire life was a mistake born out of a failed marriage and I've always hated it. I hope you don't fail OP because the awareness that you're only alive because you failed to die eats you up inside, I'm only alive now because I pussied out of my last attempt like a coward.

>>81870307
No I haven't and I hate your society and people so much you should be thankful I didn't choose to kill as many of you before killing myself. You've done nothing but hurt me all the time and reject me

>>81870307
Why would I be a firefighter in a society that would literally choose the world in which I never exist? In a society that has rejected me since I was a kid. You should be thankful I'm not a psychopath that wants to harm any of you.

>>81870342
How full of yourself are you? The other anons full of shit but seriously do you think you're being tough here? What would hurting random people solve?

>>81870342
>>81870357
Love your neighbor as yourself
Your past is just a story you tell yourself to explain your emotions. If you replace the hate of the past with love in the present your lie will improve.

>>81870360
I'm not full of myself as evident by the fact I am going to kill myself. you're full of yourself by telling me to help a society that has literally done everything they could to kill me. I'm letting you know you should be thankful I'm not a psychopath who wishes to hurt anyone. I'm not tough or anything. I just hate people and this retarded society

>>81870377
I never said you needed to help anyone. I'm in the same position as you and there's no point in helping these shitty people

>>81870287
What happened to those people anon?