I....I had a breakdown and cut myself and started crying like a little bitch....god I'm so fucking pathetic. I just can't get over her!

a-anyway, how are you anons doing this saturday?

I messaged my first love on Steam cause I saw she was online. We haven't spoken since January. She removed me.

these withdrawals are bad.

>>81882277
>She removed me.
there's something you're not telling us.

she ignored me today and I don't feel great

>>81882277
I'm so sorry anon :(
hope things between you two get better, why did she removed you? you have any idea?
>>81882298
yeah I'm not feeling great either, sorry about that anon :((

>>81882290
what are you withdrawing from? I've never experienced withdrawal myself but I've heard it's pretty awful

>>81882310
>sorry about that anon
i don't want to be like this :cc and i had no idea i could be!!

>>81882335
are you obsessive too? I'm having a hard time forgetting about my person. fuck it feels like she took my soul with her

>>81882290
gf withdrawals?
>there's something you're not telling us.
I broke up with her, she ghosted me, came back a year later, but we ran into the same issues so I broke it off again. She said we have a trauma bond and we shouldn't talk anymore, but she was nice to me.
>>81882310
>you have any idea?
I think she just wants to get over me. I told her I wanted to fly out to her during our break and she said she thought it would be romantic to try and find her. I don't think that's the case anymore.

>>81882347
>are you obsessive too
apparently! when i get the feeling things could end, it's like the world itself will and i lose all motivation

>>81882319
>what are you withdrawing from?
pills. not the "gonna down these to get high" kind. but ones i literally need for sleep and a disorder relating to my nervous system.

my body shakes. i feel the need to stretch 24/7. but no matter how much i do, it's not enough. i often feel the need to consume copious amounts of sugary food. without benedryl i'd be up for 24 hours getting just 5 hours of sleep. and even then, when i do get tired, it takes me like 30 minutes to fall into deep sleep. i wake up with my body in horrible pain. i fucking hate these damn pharmacies.

>>81882357
hope it all gets sorted out, anon.

>>81882357
>gf withdrawals?
ah yeah I guess this is what withdrawal feels like huh? it feels terrible
I hope you have better luck than me and it actually works out for you two!
>>81882372
I 100% understand that feeling, it sucks I wish I wasn't like this, I feel like I lost my will to live I feel soulless, empty.
>>81882386
ah I see, I'm not going through withdrawal but prozac doees make me all shaky and I can barely get any sleep and when I do it's only for a couple of hours and I don't even manage to get a deep sleep, but why did they make you stop taking your pills? isn't it dangerous to stop taking stuff like that so suddenly?

>>81882399
>I feel like I lost my will to live I feel soulless, empty
Like a void? I'm 90% confident this girl has bpd, idk why I'M like this

>>81882440
yeah like a void
>confident this girl has bpd
the girl you like?
I wish I wasn't so codependent ugh I want to go back to being an emotionless robot when I was alone but comfortable, when I was so numb to even feel sad about the fact that I was alone, I regret talking to her so much, yeah the time we were together were the happiest months of my life but this pain outweighs the good times

See?
>>81863256

Letters here when needed.
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/81850044/#q81858992

>>81882399
>but why did they make you stop taking your pills?
my pharmacy _just_ closed down. they told me it was at the new pharmacy so i call em up expecting the pills to be there but no. bullshit or just poor wording? idk and idrgaf. i had to call it in for pickup. i should be getting them today. probably. hopefully.

i was supposed to get them yesterday. and the day before that. and the day before that. and...

>>81882519
SHUT UP MIKE SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BE QUIET NO MY POST WILL GET ZERO (0) REPLIES. I'LL BE SHOUTING OUT INTO THE VOID.

>>81882503
>the girl you like?
Yes. I'm no psych but ik enough to just know
>I want to go back to being an emotionless robot when I was alone but comfortable
I wasn't that lonely before, but I was anxious, depressed and completely unmotivated. And I'll be even worse after she discards me

>>81882519
ahh mike as usual I have no clue what you're on about! how are you doing today?
>>81882545
oh man that really sucks! I hope you can get them soon, I heard stopping taking pills so suddenly can be extremely dangerous.
>>81882548
honestly when I was with my gf I was anxious all the time about her leaving me, I knew she was way too good for me, I would barely sleep because I would have nightmares about her leaving me, sadly they became a reality, again I knew she would leave me eventually but it still hurt a lot and it still hurts today.
I really hope you don't go through what I'm going anon, I really hope things work out between you two because this really sucks

>>81882587
>when I was with my gf I was anxious all the time about her leaving me
I start ruminating every time she doesn't reply, or even just she's lower energy than usual. When she's at her best she puts more effort into the conversation than I can
>she was way too good for me
oughh mine so is

>I really hope things work out between you two because this really sucks
She might have both bpds. It's a little difficult to feel secure. Not to act like I have it worse than her

shit it's like 5:56 AM and i'm stll high as fuck, cry som more anon, feel your feelings please, you donl't know how much i miss to do that

>>81882667
man, sounds exactly like my relationship with my ex..seriously if she took longer than usual to reply I would get really anxious! man I really really hope you don't end up like me anon I really hope not!
>>81882701
I want to stop crying honestly I hate feeling like this.