I'm autistic to the point where I stopped caring about friends, money, or family. I just care about work because it allows me to expend the insane amounts of anxious energy I get from being unable to live a calm, boring life. I don't care if work kills me because it pushes me to my autistic limit and that makes me feel alive, even if it's only stress that is slowly killing me. I want to say that I need the rush, but I'm wise enough to know that what I really need is something to give my life purpose, and logically that would be a child, but I can't justify passing my mental illness onto an innocent.

>>81884933 (OP)
>I'm autistic to the point where I stopped caring about friends, money, or family.
Sounds like schizoid personality disorder.
It is only autism if you are into super nerdy stuff too. Being a work fiend is kind of a normie thing tho. Call yourself autist when you'll get NEET bucks or somethng.

>>81885082
Honestly I'm really tired of modern psychology and the stupid fucking labels. I'm somewhere between bipolar, autistic, ADHD, schizoid personality disorder, and whatever other shit they come up with. I can tell you how I feel. I am way too sensitive and I can't feel content without a purpose in life, like so many people who just don't give a fuck about anything seem to be able to do.

I have the 'tism, but I can't suffer today's wage-cuck service hell jobs without going nuts.
I stopped caring about a lot of things. I know I can't be normal, so I no longer give a damn about trying to be someone I'm not.
I just wish that I could get some unpaid cunny for once in my miserable life. I'd like to feel human for a little while.

>>81885253
I work with an autistic fellow and he does alright. My department was understaffed one day so they transferred him to our department, and he made one mistake and started crying and went to the bathroom, but other than that he was a good worker. I know the literal fucking hell that is dealing with stress as an autistic person, especially when 90% of people are normal and don't understand you so they just laugh or get angry. But when you realize the world is filled with really stupid people and a lot of them are successful, then you realize that in some fucked up way, you can be successful too, but in a really psychopathic way that even normies would think is crossing the line.

>>81885282
It seems to me that only sociopaths (and extroverts) can 'win' in this fucked life.
An autist is lucky if they can even function in a job, let alone do well.
If back-office work was still a thing, I could have been very useful. Now? Fuck that.

>>81885310
I think there is a fine line between a sociopath and an autist. Neither of them really care about other people, and just pursue their own interests, which can lead to being a successful person.

>>81885358
Yes, but the difference is that a sociopath can feign being a 'people person', but an autist usually cannot.
I supposedly have the perfect personality type for being a leader, or boss man. But with 'tism I have zero people skills that I can use to climb the ladder.
If I can't even get on the ladder, then I can't climb it. Also, everything seems to be fundamentally dishonest, so I abhor the falseness of it all.

>>81885446
>but an autist usually cannot
Lmao. Have you seen Elon?

>>81884933 (OP)
what field are you in? This is me in software engineering

>>81886330
The culinary field. I'm a sous chef at Wendy's.