Why don't my normie friends understand that I'm mentally ill and I might ghost them from time to time, but then when I'm ready, they should allow me to come back into their lives with the knowledge that I might just disappear one day because I fucking hate people?

>>81885114 (OP)
Did you explain this outlook to them, or do you expect them to inherently understand this without being told?

>>81885359
Explain? Lmao. They are normies, so I can barely speak 5 words without their normie brains going "this voice is monotone, boring, and unimportant, so I'm going to interrupt with something that I think is more important". You can't explain anything to a normal person without striking fear or respect in them, which requires confidence, which I don't logically feel I should require if I have important information to share. But that's not how the world works. People are emotional apes that will chimp out if they feel threatened by anything that they don't understand, and that includes weird autists like me.

>>81885114 (OP)
why do you torture yourself, anon?
why do you congregate with folks who do not care for you?

>>81885388
>"this voice is monotone, boring, and unimportant, so I'm going to interrupt with something that I think is more important"
>People are emotional apes that will chimp out if they feel threatened by anything that they don't understand, and that includes weird autists like me.
Doesn't sound like they're any friend of yours if you put it like that.
>Explain? Lmao. They are normies
Doesn't sound like you're particularly friendly to them, either.

This is a complete breakdown of communications. If they drag you out of your comfort zone and still treat you as lesser or unimportant, you are under no obligation to make time for them. They respect you about as much you respect them, regardless of if you became jaded like this before or after their treatment of you.

>>81885388
>I can barely speak 5 words without their normie brains going "this voice is monotone, boring, and unimportant, so I'm going to interrupt with something that I think is more important"
Stip being relatable

>>81885114 (OP)
I'm the same way at times. I'm assuming that you're experiencing avoidant attachment symptoms.

My best advice is understanding that what you believe about yourself isn't what you friends believe about you. You should make an effort to understand why you feel the way that you do about yourself and why these beliefs hamper your relationships.

>>81885114 (OP)
Hope your post's a satire of a default random zoomer robot.

>>81885576
I haven't spoken to them in 2 years.
>>81885598
Literally every human being alive drags me out of my comfort zone. There has to be a line.
>>81885770
I'm trying really hard to understand. The best wisdom I have come up with is that people are really ignorant and I don't really relate to 99% of them.

>>81885114 (OP)
You eventually are not going to have any friends.

>>81885114 (OP)
You sound like my friend, Anon. That guy is a total jerk; he only hangs out with me when he needs money. After he gets what he wants, he's just disappear.

>>81885881
>eventually
Honestly, I haven't really considered anyone a true friend. I don't relate to most people, and most people like me because I'm nice to them and don't appear threatening. I like you guys more than the people I deal with in real life
>>81885898
I don't need money. I just need purpose in life

>>81885862
>2 years
i was assuming like 1-2 weeks, thats fine by my standards
but you ghosted them for 2 years just to show up randomly one day and went "hey :)" like nothing happened?

are you a man or a woman, OP?

>>81886017
I am a man in a weird world. I don't like people, they are weird. My friends moved away and wanted to maintain a long distance relationship and I didn't want to, so I ghosted them. Now they have moved back near me and even contacted me, but then they ghosted me, so I just haven't reached out for 2 years. I got drunk today and wanted to reach out, but now I'm sobering up and thinking that people are stupid fucking assholes and I hate them and honestly being alone is not bad

>tfw too weird for 4chan
Literally never had a chance lol

>>81885388
Even your posts are fucking boring. I don't believe you have friends and even if you did I don't believe you bring enough value for them to keep you around

>>81885114 (OP)
Lmao this is me. I have a better understanding of myself now so I can manage it better nowadays but I remember being like 19 and having a breakdown and I ended up ghosting my bestfriend of like 10 years. I'm a huge fag.

>>81886221
Did you reconnect with your best friend?

>>81886238
We did a couple years after it happened but idk it just wasn't the same. I have immense regret over everything that happened.