how is your saturday going anon? you can have a chat with me if you feel lonely! whats something that you really like?

>>81886049 (OP)
>how is your saturday going anon?
Very distracting and disappointing desu. I could have done so much today but instead dicked around and only managed to draw 1 (one) drawing despite me wanting to grind skills for a while now.

Also, dunning kruger keeps reaping my mental.

Anyways here is the hat delivery :D

>dead board on a saturday night
it was true that this board has been filled up by normies after all.

>>81886158
>dicked around and only managed to draw 1 (one) drawing
well its better than nothing. what distracted you so much? i spent all day playing civ 6 pretty much. at least its keeping my brain busy somewhat
>dunning kruger keeps reaping my mental.
uhh whats that?
>picrel
woah!!! thank you for the drawing! its very cute and the hat is immaculate heheh. great work

>>81886049 (OP)
I like YOU, anon. Have a great weekend :)

>>81886593
>what distracted you so much?
Just music and 4chan I guess. Day started slow too.
>uhh whats that?
Basically biting off more than you can chew.
>great work
Thanks.

Im on a stroll rn. Its not as dark as I would like it but the light rain is nice.

>>81886049 (OP)
Boring lonely Saturday. I'm getting off work soon so I guess I'll get some chipotle before I go back to the house. I can't get these two girls out of my head. I want to date one but idk if she wants me and it'd be super hard since I'm american and she lives in the middle east. She's been giving mixed signals, or maybe I'm just autistic. I can't tell if the other one is into me but I like her too, but more as a friend. I think I could date her though if she wanted me, and the other girl didn't. I feel like an asshole for saying that because I just want one person to love, I'm not interested in trying to be a fuckboy or whatever but I have no idea what I'm doing. Wish I could ask for advice but my dad is terrible with women and my brothers would make fun of me.
WBU anon?

>>81886624
hehe thank you! i hope u have a great weeked too anon
>>81886706
>music
what kind of music do you usually listen to?
>Basically biting off more than you can chew
i see. i might be in a similar situation. but its okay. just gotta take things slow and get through it
>Im on a stroll rn
have a nice walk! i like nightwalking aswell, especially if its raining (makes me feel very mysterious). stay safe anon
>>81886716
humu anon i understand how you feel, and these kind of problems are always the worst ones. if you think you can make things work then go for who you like, and my opinion would be that if you dont love someone you shouldnt get in a relationship with them. i guess perhaps its better than being lonely, but i dunno, i havent had the chance to compare. also since im not from burgerland, what does chipotle exactly sell? i know its some kind of fast food but i never really understood what they actually make.
>WBU anon?
this morning i helped my mom clean the car and then i just basically played civ 6 all day, with some guitar practice sprinkled here and there. it gets really lonely though, (especially on friday and saturday nights...) and i wish i had someone to do things with. it is what it is.

>>81886049 (OP)
im really anxious today for some reason, i can feel my heart beating. kind of scary. i like depressing anime that make me mentally worse

>>81886881
>what kind of music do you usually listen to?
Hard to tell desu. Could post some examples once im home.
>stay safe anon
Last time I wanted to avoid someone shady they went out of my way and not the other way around. Don't really know why. Im not intimidating, at least when its bright outside and im clearly visible.

https://youtu.be/_xpiW41psx8?feature=shared
https://youtu.be/3kjfrgkD9K0
https://youtu.be/40vsRU9V1h8
https://www.youtube.com/@siximpalasix/videos
https://youtu.be/fFyHffoPeHk?feature=shared

Sorta like this. Most genres are nice but it really depends on the musician.
Also came back from the stroll. Saw Hedgehogs and a bat, sadly no fireflies like last time. Wish i had some fast film to shoot with one of my analogue cameras. The atmosphere was just nice. Farmers are letting their machinery run and the lighting is just right.

i'm watching euro 2025 right now because I like women's football but some of my friends think i'm a massive faggot for it.

>>81886881
Thanks for the kind words. I kinda wanna say fuck it all and not try to be in a relationship at all sometimes but I'm lonely and always come back to it. Chipotle is mexican fast food. You basically tell them what you want on your burrito or bowl and they make it right there, kinda like Mexican subway ig. Fridays and Saturdays are the worst. There are some days when being alone dosent bother me at all and some where I don't wanna get out of bed. Weekends are the worst because everyone else seems to have someone to be with.

>>81886049 (OP)
I'm in that mood where anything I see or think instantly works like extreme ropefuel
Too bad that death is only biological. It's pointless to give in until I can solve the potential reincarnation or afterlife problem

>>81886158
Didn't you post on /dig/?

>>81887275
yeah i did :^)
world's a small place

Despite it being on that board and a slow thread i think its a lot more comfy than /ic/

>>81887296
I wanted to post my progress, but i got to lazy and fell asleep. Plus i said i'd stop using 4chan.Yet here i am.

>>81886894
>im really anxious today for some reason, i can feel my heart beating
hm that sucks. are you sure you're not about to have a panic attack? take some deep breaths!
>i like depressing anime that make me mentally worse
haha same! (i shouldnt watch them but i do anyway)
but you know whats even worse than sad anime? romance animes. those really make me suicidal
>>81886918
>Could post some examples once im home.
i'd be very happy to listen!
>they went out of my way and not the other way around
you just have that mysterious and powerful person aura anon. or maybe you were stinky. i like to believe its the first one though.
>>81887229
the first one was really groovy i liked it!
also i think i've heard the intro of voodoo people somewhere else before but i cant remember where...
excess sounds like something in cyberpunk but i liked it and it will end up in one of my playlists.
>Saw Hedgehogs and a bat, sadly no fireflies like last time
cute. were you walking in a rural area? kinda rare to see hedgehogs here unless they've been run over by a car.
>>81887239
your friends are kinda stupid if you they judge you for that anon, if you enjoy watching it then just do it who cares
>>81887253
>not try to be in a relationship at all
i really wish i could do that too but loneliness is killing me.
>mexican food
oh im kinda jealous. we dont really have proper mexican restaurants here and i would kill someone for a taco did right
>Weekends are the worst because everyone else seems to have someone to be with
yeah exactly. but at least you got some anons here!
>>81887262
i get that mood often.
>death is only biological
you could argue that an individual dies once they lose their uniqueness and become another cog in the machine

>>81887379
Loneliness is the worst feeling. It kills the soul, no matter how many accomplishment or external validation I get it's not the same as having someone care about Mr.
Mexican food is my favorite of all the food types
Yess it's nice to talk to some cool anons it helps a lot

>>81887379
>are you sure you're not about to have a panic attack?
its just general anxiety i think, it only went away for abit when i got a little drunk but came back when i stopped drinking
>romance animes. those really make me suicidal
those are hard. have you watched spice and wolf? it made me very miserable and i cried alot, idk why.

>>81887379
>you could argue that an individual dies once they lose their uniqueness and become another cog in the machine
That's the thing, I'd love to erase my subjectivity ontologically to make sure no experience is possible for me ever again
My only respite is considering that I've already succeeded and I'm getting just a shadowban gaslighting experience when in reality any changes from me experienced by my surroundings are from random quantum fluctuations that I habitually and egoistically attribute to myself

>>81886049 (OP)
I am playing that pc port of ocarina of time it feels quite nice compared to emulating it.

>>81887328
Going out of the way to post outside drawthreads and still getting mogged by random passerby's is great motivation to actually learn fundies, thanks anon, you reminded me of what i wanted to do and set in stone what im going to spend my time with tomorrow :D
>Plus i said i'd stop using 4chan.Yet here i am.
Ha! You are here forever.
Its not really bad considering the alternatives you could be stuck on.

>>81887379
>also i think i've heard the intro of voodoo people somewhere else before but i cant remember where...
Maybe you are already familiar with the pendulum remix? Its also very popular and gets even more attention than the original. Rhythm games also use that version often.
>were you walking in a rural area?
Sorta. I was on semi-outskirts of a town. Bats and Hedgehogs are not really rare in general where i live however. If you have some green and bushes you will find them. Even the crowded and loud school i was at had bunnies literately shitting up the whole place. Fireflies are very rare however. I only saw one once in my life and that was in the stroll before this one.

>>81887437
>It kills the soul
yeah, i know. its so awful. it kinda makes me feel guilty in a way too, cause despite having friends and a somewhat decent life i cant appreciate anything anyways. its so hard cause everything seems so pointless when im always alone. just gotta keep believing one day it will change i guess haha! (kill me)
>my favorite
do you prefer burritos or tacos? also, are tacos supposed to be crispy or not?
>>81887457
>just general anxiety
oh okay, thats good. do you think someone triggered it or it just appeared from nowhere today?
>spice and wolf?
yeah, its one of my favourite animes! i watched it years ago when i was still hopeful for the future (lol) so i actually was able to enjoy it. i wanted to watch the new remake they made, but i doubt i can take watching it alone. i made a promise to myself that i'd only watch it with my girlfriend whenever i get one, but yeah. its not going too well.
>it made me very miserable and i cried alot
i guess like me you also long for companionship and seeing someone else have it (even if its a fictional character) might make you jealous or something like that. besides the plot of the anime isnt exactly too happy either
have you ever watched toradora?
>>81887607
>I'd love to erase my subjectivity ontologically
notify me if you ever find a way to do that cause it would be great
>any changes from me experienced
so you tend to put the blame on yourself whenever something happens to you even if it wasnt in your control?
also, how do you think reincarnation would work?
>>81887655
thats a great game, hope you enjoy anon. if i can suggest another zelda game similar to that one then i suggest a link between worlds
>>81887670
>the pendulum remix?
ah i dunno maybe. i listen to so much music and so many different genres.. hard to keep track
>bunnies
cute! too bad they shit everywhre yeah
>fireflies
i think i've actually never seen them. i really want to though, they're cool. also those are really nice birbs (im a huge fan)

>>81887670
Sorry, i just recognized a fellow /dig/ga so wanted to say hi. I practice fundies daily. After i got into that habit, i started getting less and less scared of drawing.

>>81886049 (OP)
gonna see that superman movie today. heard its awesome

nothings really happening and im waiting for the day i go on vacation. im chilling and playing with my lovely dogs in the meantime

>>81886049 (OP)
I'm glad you ask all things considered, I feel like i'm inside one of those evangelion introspection scenes, the ones with the trippy music

>>81887761
>Sorry, i just recognized a fellow /dig/ga so wanted to say hi
Oh no i wasn't putting blame on you or anything. Im positively surprised to see someone from /dig/ too and what i meant with you being motivating was genuine.
>I practice fundies daily. After i got into that habit, i started getting less and less scared of drawing.
Yeah i gotta start doing the same. Just that i dabble in the fundies a bit, don't know if im doing it "correctly" and do something else. I'll just practice figure drawing tomorrow i think.

>>81887712
Yeah. In terms of material wealth and safety my life isn't bad at all, and I have acess to all the recources I need to 'suceed' but it all feels empty
I prefer burritos, but tacos are good too. Tacos can go either way but most restaurants serve soft shell. U can get corn or flour tortillas. I prefer corn, but both are good.

>>81887712
>oh okay, thats good. do you think someone triggered it or it just appeared from nowhere today?
ive been having it alot lately, i think its just a symptom of my doomer spiral that comes and goes
>yeah, its one of my favourite animes! i watched it years ago when i was still hopeful for the future (lol) so i actually was able to enjoy it.
im glad you got to enjoy it properly, i wish i had been able to. i hope youll be able to enjoy it one day with someone special
>i guess like me you also long for companionship and seeing someone else have it (even if its a fictional character) might make you jealous or something like that.
maybe, probably. i just want a wholesome happy relationship where things go ok, where everything is ok. i might just be more jealous of the safety and belonging relationships seem to come with in fiction, even if that safety n belonging isnt really stable or real. i never had that at all so, ya. idk.
>have you ever watched toradora?
no, is it one of your favorites? is it happy/sad? i need more material for my misery-core binge

>>81887772
>gonna see that superman movie today
ohh i saw the trailer and it looked pretty cool. i might watch too eventually. hope you like it anon!
>vacation
where are you gonna go on vacation
>dogs
im a huge fan of dachshunds personally. what doggos do you have?
>>81887811
>it all feels empty
sometimes i wonder if the emptiness is because of the loneliness, or because its just how i am. you know what scares me even more of being alone? finding someone i love, and still feeling alone even when im with them.
>serve soft shell
ah thats lame. i always saw crispy tacos n cartoons as a kid and thats why i wanted to try one so bad...
>>81887820
>i think its just a symptom of my doomer spiral that comes and goes
i see, i also get those up and downs quite often. just gotta get through them and hope they go away. you can do it!
>i hope youll be able to enjoy it one day with someone special
thank you. hopefully someday we'll be able to enjoy that kind of animes again. hm, is there anything you'd like to do with someone special for you?
>where things go ok, where everything is ok
same. nowdays it really feels like we're asking for the moon though, its so disheartening to look at the average modern relationship.
>safety and belonging
do you feel like you dont belong anywhere anon?
>is it one of your favorites?
it is THE favourite! of all the animes i've watched. it's a romance anime, the type that makes you sad. i think i teared up a little when i watched it the first time years ago, and i think if i rewatched it now i'd straight up jump off my window. there's a song in it, from one of the last episodes, that never ever fails in making me cry. so yeah! highly recommend lol

>>81888057
That scares me too. For now, something like that is a longer term goal and it seems from where i'm standing that it will fix everything. But if I actually get it, whos to say it won't feel meaningless like everything else.

>>81887712
>notify me if you ever find a way to do that
No. lol.

>>81886049 (OP)
I've got everything I asked for, yet I still feel like shit.