Thread 81890555

How are we holding up?

Tired of all the zoomshits on this board. I don't care about the "problems" that 19 year olds have on this board.

>>81890555 (OP)
I turn 40 soon. My life is over.

>>81890610
Why is it over?

Why can't it start now instead?

just bought a house, getting a new job making 300k, all I need is some pussy. don't even care about love at this point

in fact id pay for her to leave my house

>>81890652
Because he is close to 40?

>>81890668
nice those are like prime conditions for sex worker addiction to take over your life

>>81890555 (OP)
>How are we holding up?
Want death. There's nothing good anymore and no future to be had.

>>81890555 (OP)
>>81890610
>>81890652
>>81890668
>>81890854
Anyone here have any advice for a guy in his 30s who is having trouble breaking into the job market? I don't really have anything I can use for victim points, except for maybe anxiety. I'm just tired of living in a country where it's all about status, even though we claim to be so above that. You are either a rich white nepo baby here or you are a black/brown/yellow victim or a mental lunatic or a woman. That is how you get ahead. Guys like me are TOTALLY screwed.

>>81890668
I'm the other way around, I got pussy but no money.

>>81890864
damn that sucks. also same. becoming acutely aware of how my appearance, physical & mental health, and prospects for love and job, security are diminishing year after year. future looks bleak af, at this rate i'll be homeless on the streets in my late 50s and probably dead of an underlying condition in my early 60s. if i'm not killed in a violent conflict or accident/natural disaster before then. good thing i'm living my life to the fullest by grinding my bones to dust in a manual labor job that will vanish as soon as i'm too broken to work anymore as chronic physical pain dominates an increasingly larger poriton of my life

>>81890868
I wish I could help you, but I'm in the same boat as you, at least I can cope with the fact that I'm into a relationship but it fucking sucks not being the provider.

>>81890610
same I'm hoping my health problems conveniently kill me

>>81890610
50 next year, wondering how much longer I can grind it out
>>81890945
I wish I'd realized that getting rich wasn't a nice-to-have, but that it was a hard requirement. Had a lot of great adventures all over the world doing what I did, but man if I'd put that time and energy into accumulating money instead, I'd be in a much better spot now

>>81891004
>I wish I'd realized that getting rich wasn't a nice-to-have, but that it was a hard requirement.
Not the anon you're talking with but I've known a few guys who were grinding hard for money and fucking died before enjoyed any of it. One didn't die but is in a psych ward. Your past adventures can't be taken from you.

$300 a week at UPS isn't enough but I cant find another job. Only reason I could get this one was because it's automatic hire as long as there are slots. Which is a godsend for autists I think. No interview.

>>81891104
ask them about becoming a base mechanic

>>81890555 (OP)
>How are we holding up?
Awful. Nice trips. I work in a call center. I made a thread.

>>81891166

Hope u guys doing better.

>tfw spent an hour of my Sunday arguing with some hylic fuck on /lit/
>>81891187
I worked briefly in a call center, absolutely hilarious in hindsight how uppity those stupid cunts are.

>>81890555 (OP)
based trips
I have one, maybe 2 things in my life that are holding me together mentally and its sometimes a struggle to even want them.

>>81891104
that is good

I am 37 and literally work at a laundry like a prison worker...

It keeps me surprisingly fit, pulling tangled wet sheets out of a 60kg washing machine is a decent workout.
I have been investing into a dividend paying ETF for years so I only need to work 3.5 days/week and am still able to invest more weekly.
I rent a 3 bedroom house by myself.
I spend my free time programming, riding motorbikes and meal prepping.
I have a few friends I talk to back and forth.

Life is good and I have more money than I know what to do with.

>>81891068
That's very true, tho memories won't put a roof over my head should my career come to an early end, and age makes starting over more difficult. That said...I wrote a whole thing about wishing I'd at least hedged and made investments with the possibility that I'd be alive at 50 but now that I think about it, I've always been able to scrape by, so fuck it
>>81891187
Call center work blows, I did it when I was in Vegas a longass time ago. It was a misery farm, although there were occasional bright spots, which mainly served to highlight the misery. I was doing printer support for Macs, and I wound up having conversations with people like Chris Claremont, Yo-yo Ma, and N. Scott Momaday. Job still sucked overall, wound up getting fired so I could interview for another job, thank fuck I got it

Im 45 in a month
My doctor told me last week that if i dont respond well enough to the topic treatment for my dick i will need to have a vasectomy.
Not the news i wanted to hear

>>81890555 (OP)
I'm going to be 32 next month... I've got no degree and I'm working a shitty job that doesn't pay the bills, divorced and dating a guy who's straight up told me that he doesn't love me, in a mountain of debt (but I just had my consumer proposal accepted so hopefully not forever), haven't seen a doctor/dentist/optometrist in years, and I'm an alcoholic
Honestly things could be worse, and the fact that I'm still here is...something

>>81892228
I'm 30 and never want kids, but scared to have a vasectomy after reading about how many men end up with chronic pain afterwards. I'm so scared of being trapped with pregnancy and having to pay child support that I have no motivation to get a gf. Most women where I live want to marry and have kids, so it all feels kinda pointless to me.
At least it does mean I live a pretty peaceful life with plenty of money and freedom. A lot of incels forget that there are benefits in not getting pussy.

It's been a long time since I gave up on the real world. I've been waiting to be reincarnated in an anime for so long. Now I also want to be reincarnated in the hope of living forever as a teenager.

>>81890555 (OP)
>don't care about the "problems" that 19 year olds have
They all have completely unshakable beliefs, they think they're way smarter than everyone older than them. The internet really fucked everything up

>>81890555 (OP)
>How are we holding up?
It's fine. I exist and don't care if I'll die tomorrow.
>don't care about the "problems" that 19 year olds have
most people will never be able to relate to your problems either. Mostly because you, your family, everybody you have ever known, your entire fucking bloodline, and all of your problems ever do not fucking matter at all. You're worthless and world wouldn't change one bit, if your entire bloodline did not fucking exist at all.
The issue you have is an illusion of self-importance. Usually rooted in being a retard.

>>81890652
>start now instead?
You'll find out when you get there

I have no family or anything and ended up
going across the state to live with a friend
I hadn't seen in several years.
This area has no work, nothing. It's absolute shit.
I've had a few job interviews, all went well, but none hired me.
I'm talking bottom of the barrel.
McDonalds, Taco Bell, shit like that.
I'm applying everywhere and getting nothing.

I'm almost 40. I've worked before, but without
a license and no contacts around here I'm
basically fucked. I have to get food from the
food bank now otherwise I can't eat.
I had to borrow money to pay my phone bill.
I'm at the point where I feel obligated to off
myself purely out of rational practicality.

I just want to make enough to get a little rv to
live in so I can be as much of a shut in hermit
as possible outside of work. Fucking sucks.
I need a job.. any job.

On the bright side I lost a ton of weight and
spent a few months living off of one small bowl
of rice and a small pan fried flour biscuit a day.
Started getting mouth sores and bruises that wouldn't
heal, then had some fried chicken one day and everything
almost instantly healed up. Turns out you really do need
to eat meat and fat. Fuck me.

I hope you guys are doing better than I am.

>>81890555 (OP)
30? Try 43 this year, newfag youngfags.

>>81890555 (OP)
very fucking bad to be honest. my life is a bad joke or a Dostoevsky story. I'm a 32 yo khv, i just lost my father to cancer and my brother to some random sickness. I live alone and lost my job last month. to be honest I dont even know if want a girl.

>>81892252
every guy I know who's gotten a vasectomy turned into a completely broken bitch afterwards, I'm convinced that it's almost as bad as trooning out and getting a new hole ripped into your crotch

>>81890555 (OP)
I just turned 29. Can I post in these yet?

>>81892448
Guess I'll just have to avoid PinV at all costs then. I've heard too many stories of both people using protection and pregnancy still happened. Also heard of women who told their partner they didn't want kids, then an accident happened, pregnancy hormones kicked in and she changed her mind. This stuff really scares the crap out of me, especially because every dad I know is poor and miserable. I grew up poor and now when I'm finally doing well financially, I don't want to go back to being poor.

wanna kms
tried to do something social for a year to find someone and it didn't pan out and now i'm back to square one
the only thing i have going for me is a nice balcony and a buffer of money in case my company goes down the drain

>>81892541
I have nothing and can't find any work at all.
If I was you right now, I'd order a pizza.
A soda too. Fucking cherry pepsi. Or whatever.
I'd fill my filly, watch some Isekai anime, and
jerk off to pictures of big boob elf mommies.

That's what I'd do and you know what? I'd be
content. You have so much man. You have some work,
some money, a place to live. Fuck man, why
not get yourself an upgrade to your PC, download
Kobold, a free LLM, and just make the perfect
AI waifu? Get a VR set, Skyrim VR, then have
the waifu you made in Skyrim running on the LLM
so you can actually talk to her and hang out.
Yeah, it's not perfect. But fuck man. It's not that
bad. Your perfect VR AI waifu is waiting for you.
I can't even afford a pizza. I can't find work.
Any work, I apply everywhere, man.
You've got it made.
You can always fake religion, go to a church, find
yourself a fat chic to make you even more
miserable than you already are.
>>81892347
Your time has passed, old man. Also welcome.

>>81892594
i can also buy drugs with money and waste myself until i die
i can also buy a gun an put a bullet in my brain
it's no different from what you described
the only good thing i get from money is my balcony

>>81892742
I don't think you want to be happy.

>>81892484
I remember being 20 and seeing the 25+ threads, thinking how far away that felt. Now I'm 27 and I still feel too young to participate in conversation. Maybe when I become a wizard I'll feel worthy

>>81892484
>>81892771
fuck off and do something with your lives before you end up here

What job should I look for if I've never worked ever before? I'm 30 and live in Belgium.

>>81892788
I can assure you that nothing short of a miracle will prevent me from being here on my 30th birthday in 2028. I look forward to your attendance

>>81890681
So what? Why does it make it impossible?

>>81892333
And then people over 50 will say there was enough time to start when you're 40.

>>81892790
Warehouses, temp services might help, fast food, you could sell your body if it's legal to black and middle eastern men, you
could write a book about cheese and mustards and sell it to other Belgeese. You can learn to play harmonic and harass
for change on subway. You can beg. Maybe join the military or see if there's any government jobs available. Janitory jobs,
entry level labor stuff might work out. Temp services and warehouses might be your best bet depending on where you are.

>>81890652
>>81892842
let's break it down
Your body ages in a not so flattering way, even with good workout and dieting it still breaks down and mutates in ways that reduces you, needing extra amount of nutrition and what not to keep the age at bay as you get older and when you get injured or comparable it'll take longer to recover, more so if you have any comorbidities like say diabetes. This means starting late has some serious built in costs to over come.

Let's move over to skill sets and purpose, the average amount of time to get to the starting point of a major career, be it surgeon, lawyer, or even self made proprietor takes 15 years on average. That means if you start this path at 18 you'll be at the starting line at 33, but say you don't start until 40? Well now you'll be meeting all those people at the starting line at 55, about decade away from the average age most retire, and you are starting there.

Finally consider that if it takes this long to get a stable purpose/income, imagine the extra hell's you'll be facing with relationships, universities and banks won't get the ick your 40yo self is trying to start over/now, but relationships will most likely take issue, and even if they don't, why consider you? Most would sooner stay single that just cling on to a 40yo that's trying to get his shit together the same way an 18yo would be, they have no incentive to consider you and let's face it, any good girls you were after have all been snatched up and even the young ones now wouldn't be enticed by you, if they are ok with some low income guy that has nothing they could just love on some loser they knew from their class and/or neighborhood, they don't need to be hanging off a creepy old guy unless they have ulterior motives for him.

In short, you have to live so you might as well make the most of it but do not fucking lie to all the young people out there making them think they have all this time to get their shit together, they don't, do it now!

>>81890555 (OP)
It doesn't get any better. Worked years in warehouse, customer service, and care jobs and I still can't get a better job than that. Out of those three, I usually prefer the care work, but it depends who you're caring for and the place of work. Caring has made me lose empathy for the sick. Warehouse work is a mixed bag as well. It has made me lose empathy for everyone. The customer service jobs have been straight up bullshit in my experience and have made me lose empathy for everyone, particularly the rich and lazy. I sometimes ponder becoming a monk, but I would have to move far away for that, which I wouldn't mind but I would have to find and visit a monastery I like first. I imagine it's the only way I'll be able to get anywhere near any sort of retirement. I've lost interest in relationships and sex, they seem like a dead-end and an evolutionary trick nowadays. I feel bitter and resentful about it.

>>81892842
>And then people over 50 will say there was enough time to start when you're 40.
The demographic that have a 50 percent chance of suicide? I'm not sure they are doing anything but coping.

>>81890555 (OP)
>I don't care about the "problems" that 19 year olds have on this board.

You think these are 19 years olds making these threads? Most of the pics used and talking styles are anywhere from 15 to 20 years ago here. Half the current catalog's starting images are from 20 or more years prior.

There are no zoomies here. Just old men and old trannies doing Millennial things like shitposting.

Going back to movies I watched as a kid like home alone and knowing that all the adults in these movies are either my age or younger than me now gives me such a weird existential dread. At times I wonder if I'm even alive or died a long time ago without knowing.

>How are we holding up?
Got another older woman supposedly interested in meeting, or at least hasn't blocked me yet as usual, but she takes two fucking days to answer.
I wish she'd fucking make a decision. She has nice tits and I'd like to get an unpaid fuck before I turn 40 next year.
Already lost about seven 'chances' to get laid, due to my 'tism, ghosting, and red flags.
In my various bios, I decided to get brutally honest about my barely having sex and am direct in my intentions.
This woman supposedly likes my directness, but you'd never know that from her reply time. FFS.

>>81893494
What should weird you out is that old man in the film is dead, you are so much older that actors have passed away, here soon only the child actors will be alive.

>>81892448
That's because you're low iq and don't understand basic anatomy, anon.

>>81893982
This doesn't bother me. I've watched old black and white movies where even the child actors died of old age. It bothers me because when I watched this as a kid, I identified with Kevin and not with the adults. Now that I'm an adult, I still identify with Kevin and not the adults even though they are probably younger than me. Like that weird bald uncle I figured was some old dude in his 50s but he's probably early 30s or something. I was also shocked when I found out Sean Connery was 30 or 31 in his first James Bond movie. I was around that age when I started watching that and at no point did I look at him and think "yeah that dude is just as old as me". I thought he was 40s at earliest. My parents had me in their 40s so I guess that shapes my perception of how old adults are I guess.

anyone ever file bankruptcy? my finances are fucked to hell and i'm trapped living at my mom's despite grinding my bones to dust as a mechanic

>>81890555 (OP)
Quite crappy to be honest. I always have been prone to depression and very passive with life in general. However life has always given me good oportunities but I have always squandered them. The last straw was a great chick I neglected due to my own personal and financial issues and she ended up leaving. She was not perfect but a great fit for my current situation. I lost everything over the past few weeks, my job, my housing and the girl. I am now in deep shitty depression and I don't know how to pull through. I am 38 and have no kids, no home and no prospects. I am applying for a job and that would be OK I guess. Thankfully I have never had issues getting ladies. Not even at my worst. I am also addicted to PMO and are currently on day 18 of SR so that is helping. Even though things are fucked up right now I cannot lose this battle. I need to keep going!

>mechanic
>broke
lol. reminds of me this other anon who fixed air conditioners yet admitted to barely makin above min wage, and he lived in the U.S.
whats the point of working. people only worked 15 years ago because concerts and WWE was still affordable. going out was enticing and affordable. now nothing is exciting. video games are still fun but hype is gone

>>81890555 (OP)
Poorly. White women ruined my life so now I am trying to figure out if I should kms, race mix, or attempt to be gay but my heart is not really in the gay thing

>>81895751
how did they ruin you anon.

>>81890555 (OP)
I'm actually doing pretty good at 35 atm. The key I've found is to very intentionally curate your life. There is always going to be retarded stupid shit and people that just wastes your god damn time to suffer and you have to cut out as much of it as you can and focus on what little you do enjoy and find useful. Once I really got that made the difference. I've been enjoying my summer for what it is. Also fixing my digestion and diet hugely affects how I feel and my mood. Hang in there guys.

still dealing with back pain but right now very little to no back pain which is great improvement. like september of last year i couldnt even walk 20 feet without agony so its good

planning on dieting/ exercising soon

in terms of money i have tons saved up and sadly stuck in limbo helping out my crippled af mom who refuses to go into a home and thinks shell live in a 3 story house forever when she cant even go up the stairs

i plan to buy some land, build a small house or just drop a double wide on it, and chill into my old age

>>81891187
During covid I was making $1500 a week delivering on a bike. That was actually fun, and I didn't fully appreciate how good I had it. I wish I went every day of the year, I could have made even more.

Now I'm stuck inside a UPS trailer working harder for a mere fraction of that, and it's depressing.

>>81893371
I wish you were right, but there are 18 year olds here

I'm 30 years old and think zoomers are only good for sex. The women are ok though. They are creative

>34
tried getting a date for the first time in my life
got ghosted
never doing that again lol
have started to exercise, lifting and running
going out more because being at home and on pc is getting boring. not meeting anybody, but at least im outside
temp position got extended so i got work until at least october

life is .. fine i guess
got no direction tho

>>81895804
I have a 4 bedroom 900k house and two consecutive white women filled it with girl shit then ruthlessly left when they found a chad so I have spent months cleaning up their shit. They also wasted my entire prime and now I cannot get anyone else and am stuck in a house by myself doing stay at home mom busywork

>>81890555 (OP)
33 here. Shit's going downhill fast. I need to find work by the end of the week, or I'll have to move back in with my parents.

>went back to education last year
>this term ended now during summer waiting on next season to begin
>got no job over even though I wanted one because extra money and I need more money
>as such had a summer break
>remember how it was being a neet not having any shit to do
>living of neet/welfarebux not doing shit this entire summer except sleeping and literally not doing anything else except what I want to
>all anxiety I had miraculously left me and not caring about shit day by day completely blissful remembering my neet ways
>relaxing for now until next shit starts and have to larp as a normal functioning adult in society again
>but for now in total peace

>>81896006
What's goin on?

>>81890555 (OP)
A nightmare.

I had a dream about my ex again. The same ex I always dream about, who isn't the most recent one, which tells me plenty. I did love her.

The dream was like, multiple frat houses all in proximity of each other though the layout and time frame of everything is vague due to dream logic, and I was basically simping and arguing with her for a lot of it. That kind of simping and arguing that basically toes the line between harassment and pitiable desperation and gives you the lingering feeling of being a pathetic cuck (very thrilling and suicide fuel). The dream eventually took a turn to where she capitulated and we had sex again. I remember she did the thing where she sat on her feet and slid her shorts down and kind of like, impatiently and suddenly thrusted her pussy at me. Now here's where the omen shows up. Her asshole was ever so slightly opened and I could see inside a bit (dream logic) and there were all these weird white funguses. Of course, I've seen some shit, and maybe I realized it was a dream so I fucked her pussy in the dream anyway. It felt good for her to take me back. I think the fungus was a metaphorical reminder that she's been ran through literally thousands of times since I last saw her. For the rest of the dream it was all cuddling and talking and patching things over and shit.

My dream about being happy just to be taken back by my diseased whore of an ex. Probably the happiest I've been in awhile.

>>81890610
40 more to go.
So over.

>>81896116
I have dreams about my ex all the time too but they do not involve metaphors like fungus in the butt. I wonder what causes losers to do this behavior? It is haunting but also nice in the moment

>>81894206
I understand what a vasectomy does, dumbfuck. Did you seriously think I meant that it was literally the same as having your dick lopped off and a hole torn into your crotch? But I think there are psychological effects stemming from being turned impotent

Reasonable. I don't get a lot of money, nor have many friends, but I'm comfortable at least.

>34
>back living with dad for 7 months
>almost had wife and kid
>now single, childless, and spiraling
>no energy
>random body pains out of nowhere
>anxiety maxed out like GPU on fire
>stare at screen all day
>can't even cry properly

just ctrl+alt+delete myself emotionally. I almost feel nothing anymore.