>>81904206 (OP)Whenever I nut, which I do whenever I want, about thrice a week, I realize how absurd the porn was. Why should I expect women to be any different? Maybe I don't want to be degraded by the worst of my masculine instincts and would rather keep that shit to myself? Why SHOULD I believe the boomers were all just lying to me about how bad their wives and marriage is? At least with the porn in the privacy of my abode, I'm not directly feeding into someone else's ego as some kind of cuck. At least I'm not racking up debt and paying thousands of dollars because I'm horny. I want to find somebody I care about without just being horny. Any form of plutonic love is lost to me when I realize just how much that the woman I'm with is having me do for her all for her ego. I would call it sexual harassment if I couldn't say no to it(granted me saying no means sacrificing my entire sex life). But here I am, saying no, and women still complain about me and call me a faggot.
I'll find somebody I care about eventually. Whether it's a used up whore, or a landwhale, or even a devout feminist, or a NEET. Anything is better than the humiliation ritual that is dating. It's worse than actually applying for jobs, and I'm saying that as a zoomer. I'm just tired. And yes, I am lazy. Because I can't think of much in life that was actually worth the effort. You'd be lazy too.