>get gf
>experience love
>lose virginity
>feel comfort for the first time in years
>still depressed
>still anxious
>still a paranoid overthinker
>now experience fear and anxiety over how my actions or lack thereof impact her
>now experience feelings of guilt over failing to meet the goals i set for myself
>now experience a crushing sense of shame when i give in to depression
>now have something to compare the feeling of being alone to
>now feel as if I have something to lose
>still don't have enough will to fight
>now i'm the closest to suicide i've ever been
i think i was better off alone
or at least, i believe my life would have been simpler that way
easier
don't expect getting a gf to fix you anon's
interweaving your life with someone elses ain't simple
if you're already a mess, it might just make things worse

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>>81913182 (OP)
seems like a you problem zoomer consider growing up youre green behind the ears nigga

>>81913182 (OP)
>gets gf
>realize shes not just a flesh light and actually supposed to be your life partner and best friend
>anon finally gets a look in the mirror for once and is faced with responsibility
>becomes suicidal
really?

>>81913182 (OP)
Maybe open up to her, maybe even her therapy. She could support you through this.

This is a mean place, anon. I genuinely hope things work out for you.

>>81913182 (OP)
I'm having the same problem. I feel more suicidal now that I have a gf than I did before.

>>81913963
"Responsibilities" to finacially support all her needs, you mean?
Yeah, that will put pressure on any man

>>81914156
>playing dense to prove a point
its not really just financials that are involved, anon.

>>81913182 (OP)
>>81913990
make that three. lets make a pact together to not give up on ourselves for our gfs.

>>81914250
Based. WGMI, brothers.

Getting willing unpaid pussy may not stop my depression, but I still want it. Though I know that I couldn't deal with all the dating/relationship shit.
I just want to fuck a lot and experience some mutual affection. TFW too incel to even get old women.