I hate myself I wish I could kill myself but I'm a fucking pussy :(

holy shit is that not too deep? please clean your cuts and stay safe anon

>>81915128
I don't think so... don't worry I already cleaned my cuts

>>81915092 (OP)
I was extremely disappointed to learn that humans have disgusting looking fatty tissue under their skin; this wasn't like my animus at all. Did you have a similar zhought?

>>81915174
I already knew that so I wasn't surprised

>>81915201
But there was a point where you didn't know, did you have any strong feelings about that?

Genuinely asking why people do this?

>>81915213
umm no not really if anything I was fascinated
>>81915216
listen I don't know if this is going to make any sense, but you know that sense of relief you get when you cry? well I need to cut myself to get that because I can't cry even if I want to because my dad was an asshole and yelled at me and mocked me whenever I cried as a kid so I had to learn how to suppress my emotions but now that I don't have to I can't cry anymore

>>81915216
Not, OP, but I do it still even in my 20s. Started when I was a teenager. I probably wouldn't if I had better self-destructive alternatives but I'm a NEET and alternatives would require going outside and money.

>>81915227
Fascinated purely by the optics, how it is a part of you or something else?

>>81915235
I also smoke and starve myself I guess that counts as self harm as well oh and I have dermatophagia which makes me chew on the skin around my finger nails until I bleed

>>81915092 (OP)
>waaaaah waaaah, please coddle me
Alright fine since you are crying so loud

>>81915128
Not op but I knew someone who cut so deep you could see the fat inside her leg
>>81915092 (OP)
What do you get out of doing this as a man?

>>81915289
I already explained it here >>81915227
I'm a failure as a man

>>81915295
do u think u could still make it as a woman though

>>81915295
Fuck your dad. Both my parents were shit but I guess they have their few good moments. I know I'll never be truly loved and I don't know what to do anymore. But I'm not going to resort to this shit. Tbf I don't think women can love a man, only value him

>>81915311
no anon I don't want to be a tranny, what even made you think I want to be one?
>>81915318
I had a gf actually her leaving me made me lose my mind honestly, t-this is kind of related actually

>>81915335
first time I ever felt loved in my life I never felt loved by dad or my mom she was very neglectful

>>81915335
Yep I've finally realized that no woman will ever love me enough to stick around. I'm going insane

>>81915345
I hope I can get over her eventually

>>81915349
How long has it been? It took me 3 years for my first real long term gf, the subsequent ones have been a year, and then 3 months. I feel hollow inside

>>81915355
4 months this is still kind of recent for me what scares me is that you are not the first one to tell me it has taken them years to get over their ex

>>81915092 (OP)
Would your leg get pregnant if we comes on your cuts?

>>81915092 (OP)
>I hate myself I wish I could kill myself but I'm a fucking pussy :(
For what it's worth, I know that feel, anon.

>>81915364
why was that your first thought? are you gay?

>>81915369
glad to know I'm not alone in this

>>81915371
You are a man of many pussies and I'm suppose to be the gay one?

>>81915360
It gets easier with time but that's not a good thing in most cases. It slowly chips away at you.
Most women I've met recently off this site and others seem to have 0 regret or care for ditching a guy for another. Most of them seem to hold the opinion that "clingy attached men are annoying" or say stuff like "I just can't think about people from my past, I don't feel anything".
It's because women are always wanted around when young.
These people spend their entire youth and adult lives being desired and then eventually become miserable hateful cunts when they start approaching 45. This really feels like living in some sort of nightmare, I just wish I was loved

>>81915378
those are cuts >:(
>>81915380
she wasn't like that honestly she was very nice, It was probably something I did, she honestly didn't say much probably because she didn't want to hurt my feelings or something maybe I was too clingy

>>81915360
It can take far longer than that to get over loss unfortunately.

>>81915408
oh god....I mean at least it's not as bad as the first couple of months but it still hurts a lot, I feel so empty now, I always knew having a girlfriend would be a bad idea knowing how obsessive I can be but I did it anyway and now I'm paying for it, I knew she was going to leave me eventually she was way too good for me

>>81915092 (OP)
what did you use for this, anon? your cuts look crazy big. you should be careful.

>>81915438
As someone obsessive like you, I never recovered from dating someone over a decade ago. That said I did try to be with someone again, but that feel apart and now I don't leave bed. That's not to say you're doomed, but just make sure to care for yourself and even if you aren't better try if you are in a state you can in the future.

>>81915092 (OP)
>I hate myself I wish I could kill myself but I'm a fucking pussy :(
Same
>listen I don't know if this is going to make any sense, but you know that sense of relief you get when you cry? well I need to cut myself to get that because I can't cry even if I want to because my dad was an asshole and yelled at me and mocked me whenever I cried as a kid so I had to learn how to suppress my emotions but now that I don't have to I can't cry anymore
Nah you took the words out of my mouth, but could you try to find an alternative that's less "disgusting". Like idk electrocution with a taser or something, I heard even bdsm freaks do that?

>>81915092 (OP)
keep it in cutters attention fag

>>81915216
because they are retarded, such people should kill themselves, if anyone over 19 cuts themselves, they have a brain of an immature toddler

>>81915468
just a regular razor blade, I pressed it really hard against my skin though
>>81915473
I couldn't leave my bed for the first 2 months I even lost a bit of weight (not a lot though) but I don't feel ready to date again not yet now I'm too afraid of being hurt again
>>81915476
I also smoke, does that count? I also chew on the skin around my finger nails (I guess that's disgusting too)

>cut himself
Why are you such a faggot?

>>81915527
because I'm a failure