>finally caught a big cockroach in my room with a paper tissue
>decided to kill it via slowly pressing down with my finger through the tissue
>can feel the roach's exoskeleton slowly gets crushed as it desperately tries to escape
>eventually its abdomen just kinda bursted with a small pop sound and the poor thing is just thrashing around like some type of guy with its guts out while gushing weird intestine juices all over the tissue paper
>just kept on squishing until the thing is actually dead and its limbs are just moving out of the leftover neuron signals
>kinda get a boner as i flushed the thing into the toilet, not because of the actual act of violence but the thoughts of me being in control of something's life and able to just take it away in an instant
.......am I mentally ill or just freaky? Fyi I am repulsed by sicko shit like Gore or Fluffy/Yukkuri abuse, and I actually love small animals(not bugs) and wish the best of luck for them.

you absorbed the roach's lifeforce and it fueled your boner

>>81918729 (OP)
LEAVE THE ROACH ALONE. I usually let them back out in the wild and have a second chance

>>81918751
Roaches spread diseases and fucks up your food, dude.

>>81918729 (OP)
No its pretty normal human behavior desu, that's why the elite are the way they are

>>81918729 (OP)
>Fyi I am repulsed by sicko shit like Gore or Fluffy/Yukkuri abuse
What does your repulsion matter if you do it IRL to an actual living creature? Would've been better for you to coom to that. Anyway at the same time I think it is kind of based you are admitting to something so perverted and such an evil emotion. But you should stop hurting animals

>>81918729 (OP)
read Robert Moore's King Magician Lovee Warrior book. There's your full answer

>>81918729 (OP)
why did you do that?

i do the same with the tissue paper, but then i go outside and put it in the grass

same for spiders

these insects... they wondered into your house and cant find their way out

show them mercy by guiding them back outside

>>81918770
Roaches are cute especially the palmetto bugs that I have. They belong out in the wild not in my house

>>81918806
Well I live in a city and not the fucking boonies so

you arent slick edgy boi.

>>81918906
(you) look like this btw

>>81918988
I looked like this when I liked gore, now i look normal after stoping.

>>81918729 (OP)
You should have locked it in a jar while half dead and cum on it.