god I miss her so much :((((
I need to get a job but I've been too depressed lately, prozac is not working, might need to take 60mg instead of 40mg I will only eat a sandwich today and starve myself until tomorrow I want to lose more weight, also the cuts in my thigh really hurt but I enjoy the pain for some reason. miss I need you, I know you're never coming back but if you're reading this, I still love you very much.

fuck this bullshit life I'm going to play videogames
how are you anons doing today?

>>81919981 (OP)
yea keep cutting yourself fag you gonna look real ugly in a few years
just kill yourself

>>81920031
if you have nothing nice to say to the based kings field anon, dont say anything at all dude.
you're just cringe. not based.

>>81920031
I cut myself 2 days ago I didn't say I did it again!

>>81919981 (OP)
Dude holy shit. it's getting to me bad as well. Can't blame you for cutting, the knife calls to me. But I refuse to hurt myself for someone who moved on and is talking to their more fun friends.

Fuck why did I have to stumble on her alt account... she seems so much happier too

>>81920050
thanks fren!
>>81920061
I'm so sorry about that fren, please be stronger than me and resist the urge! and please don't check her alt account anymore you're just hurting yourself that also counts as self harm!!!!

>>81920090
Dude I cannot stop checking it, it keeps going online and offline. It sometimes shows her status and it looks like some sort of line from a break up song??? Everytime she goes online I imagine her talking to someone who is 100x better than me. It hurts.

>>81920050
>based king
years ago we used to scold cutfags like you until they offed themselves, miss those times. keep hurting yourself loser LOL

>>81920115
I know the feeling honestly I'll be doing the same thing but please resist the urge, stop using social media!

>>81920146
Thank you so much bro. I have no idea where else to confide in. It's such a me only problem.

Blocking her alt feels like a double-edged sword, i'll stop checking but what if she finds out?

>>81920191
I get it! I have nowhere else to vent except for this place, I don't mind anons being mean to me honestly, I'm used to it all my life people have treated me that way but anyway please stop checking her social media
>what if she finds out?
maybe don't block her but stop checking her alt

>>81919981 (OP)
hi verditeanon!
a good strat we've come up with to deal with this sort of stuff is to mentally torture ourself until stress and general discomfort becomes alluring and also hot
stop coping and start enjoying being miserable! @w@
cutting will start to make you cum buckets it's great

>>81920271
I am a bit of a masochist I um used to cutting myself for pleasure (not as deep as when I cut because I'm upset)
but her leaving me hurts way too much I can't stand it, it's not arousing either it just hurts and makes me wish I was dead.

Emo cutting bitch boi

>>81920238
>I don't mind anons being mean to me honestly
Honestly same. In fact, I kind of like it. In the real world, or even in websites with usernames and such. People completely passify themselves. Here it's the raw deal. So even if it sucks getting insulted by randoms, it does mean that the people who are nice are genuinely nice. The type that will go out and help you expecting nothing in return. I believe you're one of those people anon.

>maybe don't block her but stop checking her alt
This really is the best solution, isn't it. I would probably give this advice to someone in my same situation. But I keep thinking of her and now I have a way to check up on her... But I must stay strong

>>81919981 (OP)
>>81919841
My e-relationship (less than 2 weeks) didn't end so well, but I just feel relieved now

>>81920375
I'm not emo!!!
>>81920386
>The type that will go out and help you expecting nothing in return. I believe you're one of those people anon.
I try to be like that as best as I can.
>But I keep thinking of her and now I have a way to check up on her
what I do in situations like that is hit myself on my thigh to stop myself, I know it sounds dumb! but it kinda works
>>81920410
I'm so sorry about that! :(
how are you feeling? are you doing ok?

>>81920448
>how are you feeling
Fine! I think, but I've barely eaten today. Maybe my brain just can't form complex thoughts. I don't look forward to trying to sleep

>>81920570
you know I used my depression as an excuse to lose weight I started fasting (but really I was just too depressed to eat lol) you get used to it but I don't know if you would want to do that, now I'm afraid of sleeping though because I don't want to dream about her

>>81920448
I just checked and the pain of seeing her online hurt more than not checking.... I just need to stay strong...

>>81920627
please be strong fren!

>>81920677
Thank you so much anon. I really wish you the best, we're in this together o7

>>81920601
I'll probably eat even less, but I was already motivated and stopped binge eating when I was "with" her. I need someone to obsess over to feel alive, maybe I was the bpdemon all along

>>81920700
hopefully we're all going to make it
>>81920701
honestly I was the bpdemon in our relationship maybe that's why she got sick of me and being with her is what was motivating me to lose weight and improve my life, I felt so alive too
I 100% understand how you feel fren!

Your the one going off on all the cuck bullshit lies. Whatever

Is 6 days really a long time? There might be hope

>>81919981 (OP)
I know this too well, I miss them like crazy. I can't eat, and I don't leave bed most of the time.

>>81920940
no no day 6 since I accepter she won't be back, it's actually been 4 months since she left me
there's no hope
>>81920946
I was getting a bit better a couple of weeks ago but I had a dream about her and it fucked me up again I can't leave my bed again, fuck my life I'm very suicidal lately

>>81920988
Good. Fuck off with your shit larp.

>>81920776
I used uBlock origin's filter thing to nuke all her messages without blocking. i wont even get that "blocked message" bs. Spite really motivates me so much

>>81921185
mike what the fuck is your problem? I never know what you're talking about
>>81921201
she still messages you?

>>81921291
Your lies is the problem. Tired of you lashing out at me. Whatever. Have fun with that.

>>81921291
No she doesn't. Just I can see the messages, and I keep going back... Well no more. You can't miss what you forget

>>81921291
Mike is the 6'2 fakecel that wants his Stacy. Don't feel too bad, he's just a normie in sheep's clothing.

>>81920988
>fuck my life I'm very suicidal lately
Same, I am that 22 day poster. Life is intolerable now.

>>81921371
Virtual hug for you fren. I'm so thankful for these threads.

>>81919981 (OP)
Im fucking her as you type this you pathetic sissy, you should kys. I will fuck your little sister too now. You little bitch

Its gonna suck today. Its gonna suck tomorrow. Hell it might even suck in a couple of months but one day its not and thats when you realize how fucking stupid you are right now. Pick up a bible, hell open one up online and flip to a random ass page and just read it. Read it and then talk to god. He will listen I promise you.

>>81920988
What do you think would happen if you sent things to her address? Sounds cucky but maybe you can write letters or something non-monetary.

>>81921329
I see, I once read our old chatlog man that was a mistake
>>81921354
he always comes to my threads and I never know what he's talking about
>>81921371
I remember you! yeah life has been pretty shit for me too lately, man I never thought life could get worse but turns out it can! there's no such thing as rock bottom huh?
>>81921485
yeah sure thing buddy.
>>81921525
I've tried this multiple times it doesn't work! I lost my faith years ago and my mom being a crazy religious woman didn't make things better I have nothing against that particular religion alright? it just doesn't work for me

>>81921589
Atleast i dont cut myself like a pathetic pussy for a stupid foid that is already fucking Abdul and Mohammed, you are a disappointment and a fucking cuck

>>81921688
>he's thinking about muslim cock again

>>81921525
2 Maccabees book 9... very forgiving and loving fellow he is.

>>81921779
>2 Maccabees book 9... very forgiving and loving fellow he is.
It's the only part of the bible a biblical villain actually repents and vows to undo all the evil he's done. He is still tortured and killed.

>>81921589
>I remember you! yeah life has been pretty shit for me too lately, man I never thought life could get worse but turns out it can! there's no such thing as rock bottom huh?
With no floor there is just endless falling.

>>81922089
sometimes there's a fake floor that lulls you into a fake sense of comfort and just when you think things can't get any worse the floor breaks
it's a bottomless well

>>81921525
Bible flipping is a form of divination and God won't communicate this way. Same as song shuffling, tarot cards. Easy to be misled and tricked this way

>>81922150
Such is the nature of living in hell.

>>81923134
am I at the deepest circle of hell yet?

took 60mg of prozac today, they're working again!

emo orbiter bitch

https://youtu.be/2LjytUP64rM?si=c7DVmfrLI3dkTIg1

>>81924252
I'm not emo and stop posting your shitty music in my threads

>>81924296
you have no taste in music

>>81924324
me? you're the one listening to (bad) rap

>>81924336
pomona park put the P first
im finna brack her
i bet i get rich if i brack her

I dont know what to do Im in love with my female friend and shes literally fucking some other guy rn

>>81924252
i like it

>>81924296
why dont you try dating a transgender?
that might be more up to your speed with women.

>>81924780
because I don't like men

>>81924824
she wore blue velvet anon

>>81924828
I tried to be nice to you and open up and you used it against me, you are fucking cunt you know that?

>>81924780
A different anon. They tend to intentionally destroy relationships they are in, that's not conductive to a long term relationship.

nice my thread is still up

>>81924252
Official music connoisssur here. This is dogshit.

man....I still love her....

>>81919981 (OP)
>god I miss her so much :((((
Just rape her

>>81927226
if anything I would hug her tightly
how's it going rape anon?

>>81927239
>how's it going rape anon?
Good, anon. Thank you for asking