>I will never be a shota
>I will never have an onee-san with big breasts to take care of me
>I will never be able to touch breasts nor use my kneading skills to pleasure a girl
Seriously, why live?

>>81932960 (OP)
I experienced this and it fucked me up for love. Can't form good relationships with woman now may it be platonic or romantic

>>81933065
Was she fat/ugly?

>>81933065
I get you, I was into Pokemon cards at that age and not girls.

>>81933204
No, in fact she was extremely pretty and my first real childhood crush. She was tutoring and 'babysitting' me at the same time because my parents were both commuting for work. They valued her a lot because she was very competent in her job. It wasn't the sexual stuff neccesarily that was objectively bad but the leaving without a trace part when she quit her job that scattered my kid brain. I was utterly confused about what our relationship was. I thought people who kiss and touch each other go on to marry. Never seeing her again and me having to act as if nothing happened is what really screwed with me

>>81933309
D-does this mean you got to have sex and touch her b-bewbs? Lucky you, but I'm sorry about the bad part of the experience. I'm a kissless virgin but even I can't stand this ephemerality in relationship. Can't imagine how this was for you...

>>81932960 (OP)
I think what's worst about this fetish is that you only realize you have it once you're unable to experience it.