>>81934754For me it started around 2011 probably. Lost contact with my high school friends (graduated in 2010), then I changed my number in 2012. Tried reigniting an old friendship in like 2013 but I kept saying no to offers to hang out since I was kinda depressed. Then that friend understandably stopped trying. It's been isolation pretty much nonstop since then.
>I've been living in the hopes of my life finally starting some dayYou have to try something, I guess. I started this stupid IT bootcamp course in May and hopefully I'll complete it in late September. Although after that I'll become a wagie. It won't give me friends or a gf. I also found that it's extremely rare for me to find a person I can actually talk to and feel like they understand me. Out of dozens of faces I see every week, maybe there's just 1 who sorta does.
I really love Japanese culture but it's been impossible for me to find anyone to bond over it with IRL. It feels like people are either just into anime (I rarely watch any nowadays), or they're way older and don't give a shit about me. I'm trying to learn Japanese for my own mental health and hypothetical future self, because I got nobody to speak it with. Literal Japanese people I contacted IRL (which is rare in my country) don't even care. The most I got was a pat on the back from one, and complete indifference and disinterest from another. I wish I cared about something more "normal".
