I feel disgusting right now and I don't know where else to post this. Over the past few months I added like five guys from here just from random threads, and most of them were actually really sweet, way more caring than I expected. Always messaging me first, trying to cheer me up, planning movie nights or games, or just listening to me vent. But I couldn't feel anything for any of them. I appreciated the effort but there was no spark, and every time one of them sent a picture or wanted to video chat I'd get this feeling like I was forcing something that wasn't there. The last guy was the worst because we really clicked. We talked every night for like three weeks. Same taste in music, same sense of humor, I actually looked forward to his messages and sometimes caught myself smiling at my phone. I thought maybe this time was different. He was nervous about sending a selfie, said he didn't think he was good looking, and I told him it didn't matter because I believed it or wanted to. Then he sent it. I stared at it for a long time trying to feel something. He wasn't even ugly, he just didn't make me feel anything. I kept searching for something to hold onto, his eyes, his smile, but the feeling just drained out of me. I didn't reply, I couldn't. I just sat there feeling sick with guilt and this cold dread, and then I blocked him without saying a word. He probably hates me now and he should. I told him things I don't tell my irl friends, made him feel special, and then threw him away the second I saw his face. I don't know what's wrong with me. I wanted to believe looks didn't matter, but I guess they do and that makes me feel like a horrible person.

>>81963720 (OP)
Anyways, I'm really sorry J you'll find someone better than me some day.

>>81963723
what kind of man are you even into

>>81963720 (OP)
im not even surprised at this point, women are just dumb instinct driven animals so i dont blame you.

>>81963720 (OP)
>>81963742
women don't deserve good men they deserve being pumped and dumped and abused

>>81963748
obviously, it dont matter how you act anyways. So get the most outta it anyways.

>>81963738
idk, I don't want to e-date anyone now.

>>81963720 (OP)
What if I told you that man killed 11 people and is currently at large. Being searched for by 3 specialist teams working for the FBI and four state sheriff depts?
He is hiding. They do not yet know his location or his identity.
But you are speaking with him.
Does this change how you feel?

>>81963720 (OP)
relatable post OP
something about the face reveal just reminds us about the flesh part
i miss the flesh and deeply miss the soul of an ex lover but we weren't gonna work out, sorry for leading you on like i was ever gonna be anything serious, you never knew what to say or do to cheer me up and i'm sorry i'm not your summer bird anymore, thanks for everything though
i'm also a horrible person for dating someone else that i don't feel that same flesh longing for, because i know i can't settle back down and have a real conversation with you ever again, you left me at my worst and i never did get better from that timing, it was designed to hurt as bad as it possibly could and i have no words for you anymore other than it's okay and you should move on because i'm learning to accept i'm not going to be close with you again. i wish i was but you just can't support me. it's hard to find anyone that can. i'm sorry i gave you my burdens, too. take care of S for me please, it's all i wanted. i'm sorry i couldn't do it myself. we stopped being good friends a while ago. i've mourned the relationship for longer than is typical. people still call me weird when i mention it so i've stopped but the hurt never really went away or became anything fruitful.
this isn't directed at OP, it's a letter for someone else that i should've sent it to but just can't anymore, i lost his number in a flurry of papers and scribbles some time ago
>>81963842
i dunno, i think it'd make me miss MY him even more but for OP it probably wouldn't change much other than add intrigue to the story, OP is probably feeling anhedonia atm
>kn4k2

>>81963720 (OP)
Bbbbbbased. Kill all moids instantly.

>>81963720 (OP)
Oh so the narcissists love bombed you and your gut instinct told you no???

>>81963720 (OP)
Always face reveal early to avoid situations like this. But obviously nobody attractive is going to be looking for a partner on this website because if they were attractive they'd fine one IRL.

>>81963720 (OP)
Moids do the same to unattractive femcels, don't feel bad about it

>>81964007
why do we never hear about it tho?

>>81964052
It doesn't actually happen.

>>81964052
Wtf there are threads about femcels talking about it all the time

>>81964070
ngl I have ghosted like 2 girls so far because of their face reveal

Original post for Larp Attempt #2 but needed to make sure to raise chance of it's impact so posted screenshot only further showed what a shit you are and made you realize more how much karma sucks

>>81964215
the fuck is this tripfag schizo saying?

>>81964215
yes mike karma this karma that we all got it thank (you) (you) can go now

>>81964215
Mike the puke

>>81963720 (OP)
Yeah you are horrible. Looks fade and you would rather enjoy short term pleasure than something long term and far greater than just being pretty.

>>81964291
>Just sacrifice the entirety of your 20s, 30s, 40s, and possibly 50s so you can have someone with a nice personality after you're a grandma.
KEK

>>81963720 (OP)
yeah, loves a bitch. You suffer and then you die. I don't even think I'm capable of feeling true love for someone else and its really depressing most of the time. Even when girls have told me they love me, I don't really feel anything except disgust with myself for not returning the love. Most days I wish I was dead

>>81964308
>Just sacrifice the entirety of your 20s, 30s, 40s, and possibly 50s so you can have someone with a nice personality after you're a grandma.
I don't think living and having a good time with someone you get along is that much of a sacrifice.

>>81964007
i do this for fat/non-white ones

>>81964255
Op makes larps like this because they are a pos and feeling karma for being a pos

>>81964270
What it tastes like reading op posts

>>81963720 (OP)
Dont feel disgusted. It took me adding and talking to probably close to 200 guys over the span of 2 or so years until I found my now boyfriend of 5 years. Eventually you will find someone that tickles your fancy and has that spark that the others lack. When it happens youll know. Good luck though i hope you truly dont feel bad about not being into the handful of dudes youve spoken to cause it really is rather insignificant in the long run of it all

>>81964367
mikey mikey mikey... what are we gonna do with you boi

>>81964411
>It took me adding and talking to probably close to 200 guys over the span of 2 or so years until I found my now boyfriend of 5 years.
HOLY FUCK

>>81964518
What? The reality of it is that any time I posted I got around 10 to 20 adds. So that adds up rather quickly if you think about it over the course of 2 or so years. Eventually it got to be the same handful plus a few new ones that would add me trying to get me to give them a chance so I turned to lurking and being the one to add and be picky in that regard. Spent a few months doing that before I added my bf and the rest is history. We have been dating for 5 years and living together for 2 now. Was well worth the time spent trying to find him.

>>81964554
>We have been dating for 5 years and living together for 2 now.
How long did it take you to meet up

>>81964570
I wanna say a month or so give or take? And then about another month before we started dating. We ended up living rather near each other oddly enough and I feel like that definitely made a difference

>>81964592
>I wanna say a month or so give or take?
Oh ok, you were serious then. That's good. Yeah, I think you need to meet up as soon as possible.

>>81963720 (OP)
You should do video calls, pics aren't everything.

>>81964554
>>81964411
don't take this the wrong way because i genuinely feel no ill will towards you but...
it's crazy to me how you worded this, you're like a death machine.
when i was in the military my seniors that deployed talked about killing enemies the same way you talk about the guys you picked up and then discarded.
even your method sounds like a soldier waiting to ambush and strike his enemies.
you probably don't even think about those guys at all, now you're in a happy relationship and there's probably a ton of guys you hurt on the way there.
Also the privilege of it, you knew by mere merit of being a woman on this site of all places you would attract alot of guys by posting those threads you got their contact on.
If you really are what you say you are you genuinely terrify me

>>81964639
>Also the privilege of it, you knew by mere merit of being a woman on this site of all places you would attract alot of guys by posting those threads you got their contact on.
Every woman on this board knows this. I larped as a woman once and got over 30 adds from a single post.

>>81964639
Every woman is like a black hole anon, they only consume everything in their path, without producing or empathizing with anything. They're like a swarm of locusts

https://vocaroo.com/1oMHvPZs6dsN

>>81964646
yeah lol, it's really terrifying when you think about it.
that's why i ignore all the "fembot" "femcel" threads.
even reading this part of her post
>Good luck though i hope you truly dont feel bad about not being into the handful of dudes youve spoken to cause it really is rather insignificant in the long run of it all
this is something my NCOs would say about killing enemies in the field.
>don't feel bad about killing that guy his life was insignificant since he wanted to fight
this is how much the males feelings are worth in the eyes of a woman i hope this demoralizes alot of you into giving them less attention and figuring out ways to be strong on your own two feet

>>81964618
Yeah meeting up or atleast being within a few hours driving max of each other I feel like is the make it or break it with meeting someone on here.
>>81964639
Not sure what to tell ya bud. I never led anyone on by talking to them. They were aware that I was simply interested in talking online and wanted to have an in person relationship. That did not stop them though from pushing themselves on me multiple times. I did not ask for that from them. That was their choice to act so desperate and do that. If they are heartbroken it is not my fault they built up an expectation that was differing from the one that was laid out for them from the start. I also did have standards being a virgin. I knew I had the upper hand and at the bare minimum wanted to be with another virgin and that upset a lot of guys oddly enough. It confused me why they thought it was ok to demand a virgin yet not be one themselves. Apologies for terrifying you, I promise I really am not one worth being scared of in any manner

>>81964679
that's not what I sound like at all lol

>>81964654
i know this well.
i grew up around women and saw their flaws society tried to hide
i grew up without feeling many emotions or empathy for anything so i was never bitter about it but i always thought man...these ladies are scary imagine legally binding yourself to one
>>81964692
>I knew I had the upper hand
man...you're like a terminator nona goodluck in your relationship i wish your bf luck in the future too he will need it alot

>>81964728
He adores me lol. I cook all his meals and spend all my time with him. There is nothing lacking in our relationship that he could be wanting. Why would you think he would need luck when we already have managed to overcome insane odds of being together to begin with

>>81964751
Why are you here farming male attention on a friday night instead of being with him... Something is off.

>>81964777
Nice trips, hes at work currently covering a shift. Him and I still browse and post while the other is at work or even when we are just vibing in bed together

>>81964751
I want to believe you but even your manner of speech is like a machine calculating every angle to its advantage
>He adores me lol
not once in this post did you say you yourself you love him or cherish him or that he is special for you in some way.
in fact you talk about him like some object you attained a hold on rather than a person.
you are most likely a larper but the way you talk its too familiar to the women I've met in life.
this world is filth im glad i was born like a lizard so i don't even feel anything but the will to survive
goodnight nona(anon) whatever or whoever you are

>>81964820
Oh I love him deeply. I wouldve thought the fact that I chose him out of the couple hundred of other dudes that slid into my dms so to speak speaks for itself that I love him. I wouldnt be doing any of the things I do for him if I didnt. I wouldnt be with him to begin with if I didnt love him more than I could have thought was possible before I met him. Not a larper either but its not worth trying to prove that to you so you can believe what youd like to.

>>81964865
How tall is he and how tall are you? What are your races?

>>81964876
He is 5ft10 and i am 5ft2, and we are both white

>>81964919
Hopefuel for manlets-

>>81964411
Why the fuck do women have to be so picky? Even worse, it's easy for women to find men who want to chat but the reverse is nearly impossible

>>81965718
It's not that hard to add girls off this board. What's hard is finding good women who are worth dating from this board.

>>81965744
Nah, getting them to talk to you in the first place is pretty hard in itself, femanons are flaky as hell and usually leave the thread before you can get to swap contacts

I need to see what this guy looks like so I can looksmaxx in the opposite direction, btw blocking after one picture is just stupid OP what if it was particularly unflattering and he would've looked better under better lighting or something, what a fickle retard

>>81965760
Women only get pussy tingles for top-tier men these days

>>81965753
I've added over 20 girls from this board in the last 2 months. You're doing something wrong.

>>81963720 (OP)
You blocked him without warning because you weren't in love with his selfie? That's pretty despicable.

>>81964215
Take your meds, Mike. They're gonna lock you up again.

>>81963720 (OP)
Fucking unblock him and explain this shit to the guy. He'll understand, don't just let him think he's unsalvageably ugly for the rest of his life.

>>81966479
This is why you exchange pics on the first interaction

>>81966512
>Fucking unblock him and explain this shit to the guy.
Not the op but I can't think of an explanation that would even make him feel better. She literally blocked him because he wasn't attractive enough.

>>81965668
What is how 5'10" a manlet kek

>>81966513
it can be really easy to lose yourself when you feel really down, it's a good lesson to learn, to be humble and to be open to other people.

>>81963720 (OP)
>Then he sent it. I stared at it for a long time trying to feel something. He wasn't even ugly, he just didn't make me feel anything. I kept searching for something to hold onto, his eyes, his smile, but the feeling just drained out of me. I didn't reply, I couldn't. I just sat there feeling sick with guilt and this cold dread, and then I blocked him without saying a word
This guy has worse self esteem issues now after that. Imagine

>>81964712
That's what you sound like in my head when reading your posts